I am the phoenix rising
I’m still here.
Just delayed.
My eating got out of control, my poor body stretched out and forced to stretch back.
I’m divorced now, it was without a doubt the single most devastating and painful experience in my life.
For the three months I was separated I ate nothing but pop tarts and other assorted junk food. I did nothing, I could barely work and function let alone work out.
It was honestly a struggle to keep myself alive.
I’m glad I did.
My blogs here aren’t usually that personal in nature, however these events have everything to do with where I’m at and where I need to go. I am healing, becoming healthier inside and out.
For the women who read this, please indulge me for a second;
No man is worth your health.
No man is worth your life.
I’m currently at 135lb. My muscle tone is crap. My eating has gotten better. I joined a gym close to my new home, complete with a pool and everything. I have stopped purging, I’m unwilling to participate in actions/thoughts that will destroy me. Bulimia will just kill me faster than all the rest of them.
My goals are to continue eating as many raw, unprocessed, organic foods as possible, be good to myself, and good to my body.
Where my weight and body shape end up is where they end up. As long as I am healthy. Let’s just see where my journey takes me.
Give me a few weeks and I’ll take a new progress pic.
I hope you are all doing well.
