Why is it that one can NEVER have EVERYTHING going well in one’s life…
My life is good again… I’m back in Canada, back on my feet, starting from Ground Zero YET AGAIN but not complaining…My injuries are history, my problems are taken care of mostly and I look into future with open mind and smile on my face…
I was lucky enough to find a special person to share this new life with and we both were at the point in our lives where it was perfect time to meet! Everything is going amazingly well and I’m not gonna talk more abt that just so I don’t jinx it somehow, but I needed to point it out so I show that in almost all aspects of life I am being more than happy…
ALMOST all aspects…However I have this BIG BLACK cloud over my head… And it’s not going away…nor it will any time soon..
I miss my kids SOOOO FAAKIN much…It got to the point of almost physical pain every time I think of it…And as days go by I find no relief or comfort no matter what I do…I talk to them often but I just miss those little things they do every day, things they say, how they hug me and tell me they love me…It’s breaking my heart in pieces…
I know there’s nothing anyone here can do to help me but I just needed to get this out, it makes me feel better…Or at least I think so…I’m going in August back there for 2 weeks to take them to vacation down to a sea coast and I look forward to it SOOOOO bad…I just wish I could fall asleep with them in my arms just one night…And wake up knowing they with me…All sleepy and cute…And tell them how much I love them and how much they mean to me…And kiss their little sleepy heads and smell their hair…
OK, off I go…Enough of a mushy stuff….
Hope everybody has a nice weekend and keep in touch!!!!
Dejan
July 11, 2009 at 6:49 pm
oh you almost made me cry just reading this! I don’t know what’s goin on in your life but I am so sorry you are apart from your children! that would KILL me! I don’t know anything that would help, but sending sympathizing feelings your way….
L
July 12, 2009 at 6:15 am
I am crying…I know how important your kids are to you & that you are a devoted father. I know you are excited for this next chapter & I’m so excited for you. But, I also know from experience….I am the happiest I’ve been in many years but it came w/sacrifice. I am always here for you my friend
:)
July 12, 2009 at 12:11 pm
Wow, that is tough!! I would be lost without my boys! August will be here before you know it and I know you will savor every moment! Hang on!!
July 12, 2009 at 1:09 pm
Serb..quality is ALWAYS more than quantity..no matter what..and being a quality parent means being happy and content in all aspects of life..i wish u all the best in every area u r thriving and struggling in right now!!
July 14, 2009 at 6:04 pm
Honey…. you have the BIGGEST heart!! I am sure they know how wonderful you are and how much they love you!! xx
Thanks for sharing
July 31, 2009 at 9:40 am
Dude,
You are a good person, and love your kids! That is great, I beat they miss you as much also!
I hate the mushy stuff also, LOL! Sometimes I get a onion in my eyes when start to tear when I think about the mushy stuff. (Ya, we big men cry more than regular people
)
But hang in there, and keep your chin up, your doing well wih your routine!
Jeremy