Welcome to my twisted mind!

Well, I guess a lot of you my friends are wondering what happened to me…

I went for a vacation, but it wasn’t really a vacation…It was a tryout of something I long had in mind…Something I could only dream about but wanted to make it a reality… I never talked abt it because I wasn’t sure myself if I wanted to pursue that dream, if I had enough courage and strength to endure such change and I wasn’t gonna brag abt it before I was 100% sure myself and even before I put at least some things in motion…

I guess that time is now so I’m coming clean revealing my "Master Plan"(LMAO) and all of you who know me might be a little surprised by this but know that it’s been long this was cooking in the pot I like to call my head and it is finally done with.

I MOVED back to Serbia…YES u did read it correct!!! I moved back. This is where my heart is and where my family is and majority of my friends and on that side we as a family are soooooo happy for getting back.

Now…

Reason for it is simple…Well to me anyway…

I spent 9 wonderful years living in Canada and am thankful for that opportunity. If I could go back in time I would never change that. I got a chance  to work and get compensated for it, prosper both material and spiritual, see things and ppl otherwise I wouldn’t know existed…But I will tell you one thing… And some of you might agree…Some of you might recognize your selves in my words…Some of you might try to change ways they lived by till now…Some will just wave their hand and say I’m crazy…

Maybe coming here already grown up man has to do with it, but North American way of life, as great as it might be wasn’t for me…I felt very distant from my family all the time, it was very hard to find new friends and keep in touch with ones I had… I got into(and many of you WILL agree) everyday routine and was working hard, making money and when I stopped and looked back I reminded myself of a Hamster locked in that cage and running on that wheel of his, every day, day after day, same speed or little faster but still getting nowhere… And life itself reminded me of a speeding train flying by that same Hamster with very little chance of him ever getting of that wheel not to mention boarding the train eventually…Yes, I had financial security and success, nice house(paid off) 2 nice cars, bike, boat, seadoo and whatnot…But no or very little time to use it…And I wasn’t happy…I mean TRULY happy, feeling good inside, enjoying life… Somehow life in Canada made me realize I want my family close to me…I want to see my mom and brother EVERY day… I want my kids to have Grandmas and Grandpas…Other kid cousins to play with…PPl to see and visit Christmas and Easter time comes around…We are SOOOOO much happier here now… Maybe it’s hard to understand for some of you, maybe it’s too easy… That depends on who YOU are and what priorities you set for yourself. I judge no one so pls don’t judge me…

Of course, every big plan and life move has to have financial ground so it can work…On that side, I put in motion building a Sports Center with inside/outside professional tennis courts for rent, gym upstairs and restaurant downstairs…

It will be done in about 2-3 weeks and should workout great…

There, I hope I answered some of your questions and I hope you understand what I did and why…

I will be here on regular basis, keeping in touch with everyone who likes keeping in touch with me…Nothing changed except few thousands of miles between us…HAHHAAHAAHA

I still love you all and I do check on your profiles more than you think, I finally got set here for a bit and got cable internet so I will be checking on you even more so NO SLACKING!!!!!LMAO

Pls, as always, comments are welcome…Tell me what u think(except that I’m nuts, that we already know..LOL) and whish us luck!! If I make it all of you are invited to be my guests at some point…hahahahaa

Stay strong, stay focused and WANT ITTTT!!!!

Well, I had a good friend over… It was great 4 days…And now I’m glad he’s gone… I guess we get little too much into our daily routines and even a slight change in it causes everything to look like unorganized mess…

I had my share of going out and eating not so clean but truth is, I’m happy now that I can have it back my "boring" way… I’m not a party goer as I used to be and I kinda like it… I like being organized and dedicated and disciplined and work towards a goal I know I can reach… And beyond…

So I’m back on track now and there’s no stoping me…

I’m also going on vacay on tuesday…Staying for a month…Maybe even longer… Now, to all my friends on here… Worry not, I WILL keep in touch!!! I promise… And updating with new pics…LOL

I can hardly wait anymore and wish it was Tuesday today…I get travel fever and can’t wait… When I saw my buddy going on the plane today, I wanted to somehow smuggle myself there too…HAHHAHAHAH

And as far as "other thoughts"…

I missed every single one of you and will miss u even more when I’m gonne…I will keep pumping there too and have you guys in my thoughts every time I hit the iron…

Stay safe and strong and motivated as ever!!

Ok, so this morning I go to YMCA for cardio… Decided to do treadmill…Day is nice and sunny, I had a lot of energy and drive to make this one mean cardio workout…2 mins into it, guy steps onto a treadmill next to me…Ok, whatever…Blue shorts, white wife beater tucked in…Shorts lifted just under his nipples (LMAO) and Head Sweat Band (?!?!?!?!)…I check immediately for leg warmers…HAHAHAAHHAH

I was pissed I didn’t have Flash dance tune on my ipod to fill in sound with the picture!!!ROFLMAO

Anyway…I’m running, minding my own business(and a little bit of his…) and then I notice he’s on the phone…Ok…!0…15mins goes buy he’s still on the phone…And he’s so loud on it, I can hear him over my headphones cranked HI!!! And I got ones that completely insert inside your ear…WTF?!?!?!!? All while his doing 2,8mph speed at 1 incline… Any slower than that and he would be going backwards… I get irritated…But quiet! Then all of a sudden I get caught off guard…From the other side enemy attacked!!! It was my wife’s friend from work…She PULLS my arm to get my attention and starts talking right away…After 2 mins of lip reading I slow my tread and take earpieces outa my ears… "Sorry, what was that??" I said just out of politeness but believe it or not, she plays same record all over…Blah…Blah… As I’m walking and hearing other guy btw still…Then I started shutting down…Anxiety started kicking it, too much information, too little hard drive space, plus I wasn’t interested at all anyways!!!!! "You know what?? I’ll tell my wife you said HI but I really got to do this…And I’m sure u got better things to do… AND CAN YOU KEEP IT QUIEEEEETTTTTTT FOR THE LOVE OF PEACE?!?!??!!?!?!?!" I yelled at the guy on my right side…

AAAAhhhhhhhhh…. It felt great…To me that is…HE was pale and stared forward at some imaginary spot on the wall, wasn’t talking to his boyfriend no more… And she got offended I think…Great! And what abt me???? Does anybody cares how all that affected myself??? No they don’t so I don’t give a flying f@k abt them either!! There…

I hate it…Gym is place to do your thing…Not to talk, walk, pose, put make up on in front of the mirror, talk loud and stupid and what not…

All you ppl that go there and do just that pls know that its F@KIN ANOYING!!!!!!!

Do not come wearing nightclub outfits…

Do not come in smelling like whore house…I mean, we all want to smell nice, but there’s plenty of sports or mild fragrances that are apropriate for the gym…Do naot make other ppl gagg smelling like you dumped whole bottle of parfume on your head…

Do not pose in front of the mirror if you got no muscle, it looks silly!!!!! Us, who actually train for a while ARE looking and laughing at you!! Make no mistake abt that!!!

Do not drop light weights!!! I don’t drop any weights, but I can understand if you need to drop 140lb dumbell after you banged 8 reps for chest cuz you don’t wanna to f@k up your wrists…But pls dont drop 30 and 40lb dumbells…First because there’s no need to, your mom can handle those, and second cuz you draw attention to yourself doing it  and then everyone knows you are weakling and then we do what I mentioned in previos remark…

Do not talk on the cell phone the whole time u in the gym…Gym is a dangerous place, weights everywhere, machines…You or someone can get hurt if you don’t pay attention…

Do NOT change the music if someone like myself puts on hard rock station or CD…Ok? I WILL change it back and then we have a problem…Gym is no place to listen to Robert Miles and Britney Spears…OK?

Do not make loud remarks abt someone(me) being on steroids cuz you might get your teeth knocked out and you’ll be picking half of them off the floor and half of them tomorrow outa toilet bowl!! Ok??

Just be smart and train hard…I have much respect for serious trainers(having said that serious trainer could be a 16yo kid working with 10lb dumbells but being smart and dedicated and doing this to better himself) and I will show you respect back…But if you do any of those above listed things or anything else I couldn’t remember now you know already what I think of you so don’t even nod your head to me when you see me cuz reaction might surprise you…

Have a great weekend my brothers and sisters in Iron and hit that gym HARD!!!! Let’s show them how it’s done, shall we??????

CHEERS!!!!!!

Ok, today I feel like opening up a bit…

I would like to say how happy it makes me to have such a great friends here on this site! I won’t go and single out noone cuz that wouldn’t be fair and I won’t go and recite the whole list cuz I might forget someone or put someone else in front of you and  that don’t even matter…What matters is that I feel good about this whole thing, I recived tremendous amount of support, positive vibes and had more than just share of laugh with you guys and on my part I tried to be as motivating, opened, honest and funny as I could possibly be to show you all how much I appreciate your help, time and effort.

I enjoy following your success, that being winning major competition or losing those stubborn 3lb of fat or putting 2lb of muscle or whatever your goal might be and you went and did it and then some!!! I will always be happy to help with advice, honest opinion or just friendly convo should you need it. Most of the time, as you well know it, you don’t even have to ask for it…

Thank you for putting up with me, I know sometimes I’m not easyest person to get along with, sometimes I say things most ppl wouldn’t even think inside their heads but thats who I am and thats proly why you like me…If you do…And if you don’t…Well, that’s your problem. I wont sweat much abt it!

I will end this now before I become too emotional and say something I wont be able to take back latter(LOL)

Have a great day my friends and know that I’m always listening… And talking…LMAO

Cheers!!!

Movie is out on DVD and it’s a must for anyone who takes this sport seriously. Very educational, in your face and honest. I liked it very much and I think you will too…

Now, what is with ppl not being educated on the subject… Majority of the population confuses SUPPLEMENTS with steroids…How is that possible in this fitness era, when TV and magazines are overspilling with comercials for fat burners, muscle builders and what not?!?!?!!?! How come ppl don’t know that taking vitamins and minerals is GOOD for you. And not just regular ppl. Go to a doctor and 9 out of 10 of them will tell you diet high in protein is not good for you. Your kidneys are going to fail!!! WTF?!?! Not to mention vitamins, omega 3 and 6 fats, or God forbid fat burners or any kind of hormon boosters… They will send you to see psychiatrist most likely… All while being old and fat and out of shape… So what you trying to tell me is that I should be like you then?? Thats healthy?? No risk of diabetis or heart dissease there?? Ok, I dont think so… Go back to your KFC, large coffie with 12 sugars and 5 creams and TV remote… I choose my supplements over that… Or when you talk about takin glutamine or BCAA’s or Creatine and ppl in the gym are listening and going like…"I knew it, he is popping!!! Can’t look like that naturaly"…WHAT?!?!?! excuse me!!!!!!

I know all of you had to deal with that at some point… It’s embarassing really! I mean, I’m not computer expert but I know my way around… Or mechanic but I can fix little things on the car or at least I know what mechanic is talking abt telling me this or that needs to be fixed… I’m not a doctor but I know a lot abt human body and different things that make you sick…My point is, doesn’t everybody knows a little about everything?? Isn’t that normal?? Or it’s just me thinking there’s more to ppl then there really is…

More you know, more you  are worth and that’s what I go by. If I have a chance to learn how to speak 10 diff languages so be it! Or play 5 instruments…Or how to fly a plane…Why not?? It’s fun and you look good knowing more too!!

Anyways…I got little of topic here..

Just see the movie, will ya!

AH yes…And have yourself a great week!!!!

Ok, lets make something clear. We are all free to do what we want and how we want it. I’m not trying to take that away from noone. If you want to use steroids, by all means go ahead! It’s none of my or anybodyelses business. Your health, your body, your wallet and your @ss is going to jail if you get caught!!! Nobody is trying to get it away from you. Even with roids it takes huge dedication, countless hours in the gym and in the kitchen preparing those meals. I would dare to say that ppl juicin work even harder than ones who don’t. You better or you are waisting your money!!!!LOL
Now, what I hate the most is when ppl who are on steroids walk around and tell everybody how they are not, how they are natural, genetic freaks and such…

I used roids when I was younger and am not affraid to admit it. I would never use them again. I’m older now, I got family I want to live as long as I can for and I discovered that with hard work, proper nutrition and patience, with time you can get same effects!

So, I hate when I see ppl being Hypocrits!!! I wanna compete in Mr/Ms Natural…. I use this supplement, I use that supplement… Please STOP!!!!

Flash news…Anybody who knows little abt bodybuilding and have been training for a while KNOWS you are on juice…

Black hair on your shoulders and upper arms(while being 20yo and blond), big acne on your back and shoulders, veins popping everywhere, crazy cut/dry condition, huge upper body over funny chicken legs, grown up man like arms on 18yo with otherwise body of a 13yo girl, big, extended GH gut, bitch tits(Gyno) and many other factors give you away….

Now AGAIN, I’ll repeat…Go ahead and knock yourself out injecting and swallowing anything you can get your hands on, just don bulls!t that you dont do it! Some kid can come up to your profile and see your progress(30 lb in 4 months) and get all hot for sport and then 4 months latter when he gains 3lb(cuz he knows nothing abt training and diet) he will lose motivation for this beautifull sport…Or worse, he’s gonna run to the first juice dealer and stock up with "gear" and ruin his life cuz he knows not how to use it!!!

What is Natural competition anyways??? Does that means you stopped soon enough so they cant detect it??? Cmon ppl!!! We know better than that!!! And some profiles, first thing you see is "I wanna live healthier"…"I want to be healthy and change my body" and such..And you look at the picture and its a girl with a moustache, or it looks like she’s hiding more than we think under bottom part of bikini, or guy is sooo jacked he got veins coming out on his eyelids, or what not…..

I’m just sick of it all, do it your way, but leave it to ppl to decide what they think abt that. And if you juicin and feel like responding to this in a "look at me, I’m not using it" maner, pls don’t…You are just gonna put yourself up as an example… Don’t try to deny it so hard..Nobody holds it against you..Just have respect for ppl doing it naturally and let them be seen and heard. Let them enjoy their transformation.

Thank you all for reading this, comment welcome as always…

SHOOT!!!!!!!

I’m mad!!! Seriously I’m furious!!! I got no workout partner no more!!!! It sucks @SS and I don’t like it!!!

I had the best partner in the world!!! He is 21 but VERY serious and hard working! No fooling around attitude, socialising is for outside of the gym attitude…More is better attitude…Balls to the wall attitude…All in all ATTITUDE!

HE is a boxer! Good one too…We would push each other far beyond failure, scream and groan at each other as other one lifts, he knew how JUST to help for me to move damn weight one more time…Not too much, not too little…We know each other inside out…And now he’s put out of commission!! DAMN!!!!! I’m mad as HELL!!!! Did I say that already??!!

HE works as security in night club, got into fight, layed down 4 guys and broke his arm in process… Badly! His left arm is done for a while… Knuckle is broken and separated and needs surgery and screws to be fixed…It’ll take weeks…Months to be back to normal! He just rolled himself back, waaaay back. Can’t train, cant spot, can’t do NOTHING!!!! I’ll kill him for being so stupid!!!! HE shoulda known better! GOD!!!

Well I guess this is good opportunity for him to bring his legs up…Always complains how they are lacking mass and strength…Well, guess what, now he can do them every day!!

I’m stuck with myself now, doing sets to ALMOST failure with ALMOST heaviest weights I can handle. I don’t want no one else to spot me cuz they don’t know how! Random kid from the gym would do it too much, too often, I can’t trust them with the weights I’m using and I sure won’t spot him back so it’s kinda taking advantage of them anyways… So I train alone!! Alone I was born, alone I train and alone I shall die! I know! Exaggerating it now, but I’m seriously upset about this!

I guess I got it outa my system now and should feel better… Till next time I do that heavy set and no one is there to push me thru it that is… Instead of my brother in IRON I got some kind of retarded brother Bilok(Borat..LOL) who can do nothin!

I guess it’s ok…He’ll get better. I’m sure it’s bigger setback for him than it is for me… But he got himself to blame…And I got himself to blame too…And I do..Often!HAHAHAHAHAAHAH

I’m not hard on him at all, I’m just playin, but I wish he was there for me and I am there for him…We had good thing goin on! And we will again. Till then, hear me whine!!HAHHAAHAHAAHA

Have a great weekend everybody  and take good care of your workout partners cuz it SUCKS without them…

Cheers!!!! 

You know those days when you wake up and feel strong and just want to jump out of bed and take over the world??

Full of energy and life force and in very good mood!?!? Everything seems possible and everybody seems nice and all you want to do is to share this feeling with ppl you love!?!?!?

Well, this is definitely NOT one of those days…Quite opposite. Woke up with this weird feeling, mood is waaaayyy down…

Low drive. I’m a happy person in general. I love to laugh, make fun of myself and others, clown around to make ppl smile and am usually running around all day doing stuff. I don’t know what happened today. No reason in my mind for this "Rainy Day" and I gave it a good thought.

After analyzing what might be causing it and coming to a conclusion there is nothing that should stop me from being in a good mood I decided it IS up to me to feel like this or not. So as I write this I’m working on it and I know I can overcome this.

It would be sooo easy to give in to this feeling, go have a cheat meal, stay lazy at home and watch some movies or do something else that opposes to a life style I’m leading now and discipline I taught myself! It would be easy to stuff my face with sweets and grease and chug down litre of Coke or Sprite or better yet, have couple of beers…

But NO! It is not when everything is our way that our will is put to the test. It’s tough times when we need to show what we are made of! We are warriors, all of us here, we are fighting comfort and wrong way of life, we are fighting cravings and influences from family and friends(and sometimes complete strangers) who, while mean good, try to bring us down the path we chose not to go! They choose highway and cruise but we chose path thru the jungle and desert, swamp and mountains. We know it’s not easy, we know we are going to be put to the test along the way but we are ready! Challenges are meant to be conquered! And conquere we shall with brute force, and ease in our hearts! Cause we know we CAN. We’ve been there. We’ve done it so many times before. And every time we overcome little obstacle along the way makes winning next time that little easier.

Believe or not this was all I needed to get my spirits up. I feel great now that I shared this with whoever might be reading this! I hope I helped someone else feel the same way and if I did, let me know! It’ll make my day even better!

Stay strong in and out of the gym, be smart and love ppl around you!

Thank you for listening my friends!

I have ppl asking me questions regarding my video clip of Tactical unit I was member of.

So here it is….

Yes, I was member of Special Operations Unit for 4 yrs.

It is like any other special forces unit, antiterorist unit and such.

Yes I did take part in actions during that time, during war and otherwise!

No, I dont do anything like that here…I have Towing Company!

Yes I do have pictures of it but am not posting them on this site.

And it is NOT your busines where those actions took place or whether someone got killed or hurt in proces.

And YES, I was shot once, badly. It ended my service.

I hope I answered everything you ever wanted to know regarding this topic.

Let’s not talk about it again.

HAve a nice weekend everybody!

Other day I was working out in YMCA gym…I used to go there all the time, but switched to Pure Fitness cuz its 24/7, better equipment, less crowdy and more “hardcore” than Y.

I duno why, but this time I was doing arms in YMCA! It wasn’t too bad, so I enjoyed my workout!

When I got to cable triceps pushdowns, I was already spent but tris were responding great, I was in the zone and I just kept going thinking how great that day was and how nothing can ruin my mood! After 3rd set, I went to water fountain to fill up my bottle! Took me literally 10sec… As every good and seasoned gymgoer would do, I left my towel over equipment, my belt and straps right in front of it just in case someone had bright idea of taking it while I’m gone!

Sure enough, when I came back machine was taken… And by no one else but gym worker and some 12y/o kid she was showing exercise to. My stuff was moved out of the way and they were reping out a set!

Ok, I think to myself… There’s identical machine opposite to that one (God knows why they couldn’t take that one instead) so I’m just going to do my last set on that one… Then I thought abt it again and decided it was extremely rude on her side (especially since she works there) and I wasn’t going to go down without a fight! Working there or not, I am paying customer after all and deserve explanation!

“Excuse me, I have one more set on this machine, I don’t know if you noticed, but that stuff you moved so neatly was there for a reason, so If you don’t mind I would like to go about my thing and finish my last set!”(I don’t know if you can sense sarcasm here but it was definitely in my voice!!LOL)

She FLIPPED on me…Started yelling and everything…”If you using machine you gotta stay with it, you moved so you lost it, you should know gym etiquette better!!!!!” on and on she went as I was looking in disbelief!!!

“Listen, if anyone in this gym knows GYM ETIQUETTE than it’s me, ok?? I’ve been working out before you were potty trained in different gyms all over the place!! I’m the only one here who brings my own towel so I don’t sweat on the equipment, I put weights back every time and God knows how many times I moved for ppl or let them work their set in with me while on the machine or bench! How dare you yell at me like that! You are rude and out of line and I demand to talk to the manager because I feel anything you got to say won’t make this situation any better!!!”

She went downstairs crying and 15mins latter came back and told me I can go downstairs and talk to the manager if I wanted to…I said that I’m not going nowhere(I was sooo irritated by now!!) but will wait right here till manager comes to talk to me about this.

She did come and we talked in very peaceful manner, choosing words. I said I’m just upset about worker bursting in to yelling right away, that I didn’t even care abt machine or anything just think I didn’t deserve to get such a treatment. At the end, grumpy one apologized to me, I apologized if I said anything that might hurt her feelings and that was it. We even shook hands!

Only, two days latter as I was on cardio machine general manager comes up to me (this is second time my workout got interrupted over this) and he was telling me how girl feels intimidated by me, how I called her names (****, bitch, etc) and she is not comfortable working the floor alone while I’m in the gym…ARE YOU SERIOUS??

So I finally lost it, gave him piece of my mind, called her a liar and ask him to bring her to me and make her say that in front of me…Needless to say she wouldn’t do it and I had few ppl stand up for me for they were there that day and saw what happened!

I also told him that once they fix all the equipment that needs fixing, clean it all nice(so I don’t get grease on my hands every time I use machine), do something abt loud and stupid ppl in the gym, get rid of 12yo working free weights, get rid of 55yo black dude who tries to pick up every single girl that comes to the gym and is 12-77 years of age(including my wife who almost punched him out cold when he asked her if she was a stripper…Thank God I wasn’t there that day!) and deal with all the other issues gym has MAYBE then they can come up to me again and try to talk abt this again…

I’m soo pissed and I hate that gym now!!

Maybe I’m wrong, but I feel I’m one of few ppl that actually care abt others and do things right there!!

Just needed to wind out!

Shoot if you got an opinion, I’ll listen to anything! Good or bad!

Cheers!!!