Detours BODY

and will be even tougher to follow through with but I’m going to stop weight training for about 6 months. I feel increasingly more uncomfortable with my current physique, my back broadens in a heart beat and my thighs stay quite bigger than I intend. My problem is even with light weights I punish myself to the point where my volume is still causing hypertrophy. Being a junkie for the burn (even though most days I dread doing the workout!!) I have come to the conclusion that I need to stop altogether. It’s a hard decision, but one I feel that is necessary.

So what will I do? Pure bodyweight resistance, yoga, pilates and gymnastics practice. If I miss it too much I may do they odd full body weights session, but not regularly. I have dropped my protein and my eating frequency will be dropped too. Need to lose the mass and when I am at a more comfortable size I will return back to the iron.

My boyfriend loves me in any state and doesn’t mind the way I’m built, but I am the person who has to walk around everyday like this, in this body. I feel so paranoid about my back, it feels like the width of a barn, my waist is so small in comparison that it highlights it. Plus, my clothes feel hard to get on because of the width of my back…oh the struggle - AND it looks silly having a tight top which sags in the middle because my waist is so narrow!!

So there you have it, it has been a weird journey, but I have decided that I will feel more comfortable being smaller again. Just keep it tight, this experience has taught me that light weight is what I need to do or I will be on stage with Iris Kyle..lol!

I will miss the workouts, knowing that I could once squat over 200lbs for reps was amazing to me and leg press about 5 - 6 plates a side at my strongest. I was doing walking lunges with dumbbells of 20kg in each hand going for 30 reps and supersetting with another exercise etc.. I would do pull overs in the machine and use the whole stack because my back is my strongest, I loved back day. My deadlift was heavier than my squat. The feeling of that kind of strength was second to none, you get caught up in it, but when you’re away from the gym and the big boys, going shopping was hard, I’m not a big size just a bodybuilder shape which a lot of clothes do not do. I know there is no guarantee that the muscle loss will come from back first because that would be too easy, but I feel I have achieved something great in my quest, and am in transition to the next phase. I like standing out in a crowd, but I feel a slightly more mainstream look for me will be nicer for me to maintain, I’ll still have muscle, I am a mesomorph without doubt, but I just want to have a shaved down version of my current status.

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