Detours BODY

Today was leg day at the gym. Tired now, I have to say that I killed it! I did do 187lbs squats at 8 reps 4 sets which isn’t bad, ultimate goal short term is to do 220lbs. Being tall does make the exercise difficult because I have a long way up to push LOL! made the guys scared because I was deadlifting and squating heavier than they do, by far But it’s not a competition, I just wanna bust my arse and get some new lean muscle on it

The single leg leg press was killing me today 154lbs for 12 and I’m sure I did more than that last week, but I did squat more than last week. Tried different leg and foot positions on the leg extensions and ham curls to see how that changes things and I ran outta time to jump on the elliptical for half an hour after the session because I had to pick up my daughter so power walked to the child minder to go get her…better than nothing at all isn’t it. So I’m quite tired, did calves as well so fingers crossed that they grow, oh please pray for them to grow! gotta go and do some tidying whilst my lil lady is asleep.

Laters!

Last weekend my brother noticed that my face looked a bit fuller! I hadn’t noticed and started panicking (a little) that it meant I had starting putting on fat, but my body hasn’t.. My legs have grown a fair bit and my arms are following I’m looking a bit leaner in the body but now I can notice my face is a bit fuller..

3 weeks ago it was looking a bit more angular than it is now and I don’t know for sure what has done it.  I changed my diet to increase proteins and have a moderate to low carb intake. I have been taking extra glutamine and started on creatine in the past 2 weeks. Is it that? I know it can cause bloating, but I feel fine really, it’s just my face that looks not fat or chubby but more filled out in the cheeks, my boyfriend thinks I could be slightly allergic to something and that could’ve caused me to swell up slightly but it’s not hugely noticeable. I just hope it doesn’t get worse as time goes on. Could it be a reaction or the creatine?

This will be week two in my new training split and I have a busy day today as well as leg day! The most feared day, once I’m doing it I’m fine it’s just getting in there and making sure the squat bar doesn’t crush me down..I have to work so hard on my damn legs in these up coming months and though they look ok now they are not in proportion and once I start dieting my legs will be the first to go, so building them up is a must. I’ve got to be like an animal in he gym and just GGGGggrrrrrrr it out! I didn’t eat well over the weekend, late risings meant all my planned meals didn’t work and I ended up missing one or two, I tried t o make it up somehow but once you’ve missed the morning it’s hard to get it all in, I do have other things to do besides eat, but I can see changes so I can’t be doing too badly. Is it just me but does all this eating get on anyones nerves? I feel like each time my boyfriend looks at me I have a folk or spoon in my mouth or I’m downing a shake - relentless! Well, I’m off to lie down for an hour did my cardio and now I wanna go back to bed

sore I can’t even tell you! Changed my training split this week to 4 days instead of 3 which means more intense on my body parts! don’t get me wrong, I’m loving it the feeling that I’m accomplishing something far greater than I did the previous week. thats how it should be as far as I’m concerned..every week should have a logical progression, not always at the same rate but something should be improving even if it is just the mind set.

My lil girlie is with my mum this weekend and I do miss hearing her, it’s too quiet without her but I love the fact that we can lie in and stay up late and go out without packing snacks and juice and nappies and changes of clothes just to go out for an hour (with a lil one you never know whats gonna happen!) She is the most precious thing to me and I swear everyday I look at her and wanna cry - she is so gorgeous! Getting naughty though

Should be posting more pics this weekend to show my progress, and just to have fun with it, its such a laugh to be a lil naughty in front of the camera..its my bodyspace and I work hard to improve my body so I’ll show it off in whatever fashion I choose (within the restrictions though mores the pity!!) Anywho snack time.. ooh yeah forgot, I had chips(english thick cut) and lamb shish kebab as my cheat meal and I didn’t enjoy it like I thought I would, I was looking forward to it all day - doing my cardio at 5am thinking mmmm chips! But the first mouthful was like, Oh, it’s all greasy tasting and I didn’t even finish the whole lot.. maybe eating clean isn’t that bad after all

I’ll be competing in May, so I have enough time to build up my legs and get generally tighter. I’m excited, nervous and everything in between. At first I wanted to do it for the experience but now I really wanna win! My trainer has given me a super high protein diet - more than I’m used to so we’ll see how my body takes to it. I was out this morning around 5 am for my morning cardio for 25 - 30 minutes so it was still dark, I normally go along the canal but when it’s dark I think it’s better to stay where its lit. There was a guy who pulled up to talk to me but I ignored him just kept going with my ipod. Then… Again he cruises by and tried to talk to me, I found it creepy but still ignored him. THEN he drives back again and pulls over by which time I look at him and tell him to F@.! OFF! then he drives off.. But then he’d ridden round the block to drive passed me again.. I was getting nervous having visions of this weirdo bundling me into his car! Think I’ll invest in a treadmill for home, so the dark early morning CV sessions wont have me worrying for my safety..

Still excited about the transformation I’ll be going through! I’m amazed with all the extra protein and fats I’m consuming I seem to feel more hungry upon waking and I don’t know why. any suggestions?

Did my legs today, changed the routine slightly and omitted lunges.

Squats 132 x 8 3 sets of all exercises
Deadlifts 154 x 8 (kept losing my grip!)

Plie squats 44 x 20

Leg press 352 x 12

Leg ext 110 x 8

Leg curl with swiss ball 3 sets of 15 - that burned!!

I threw in abs at the end, weighted knee ups, cable crunches, v-ups double time crunches and they were burnt out after!

I had to get my daughter from the child minder straight after so I power walked from the gym to get her, took 20 mins. Was hoping to use the stair stepper after weights for 20 minutes but had to leave the gym. At least I followed through with some form of aerobic activity rather than just getting the bus to get her   Think I’ll throw in 20 minutes this evening just to feel that I’ve done a decent cardio sesh for today. I noticed in the gym how much more athletic I look made me happy to see that all this time and effort busting my arse is getting me somewhere, you know ladies when you don’t wanna show off your arms because they look all loose and flabby like wings etc..LOL! None of that for me I was walking around with sculpted shoulders and visible definition - thats what being dedicated does! I still have things that need working on, and a few body hang ups, lawd who doesn’t, but, confidence breeds confidence doesn’t it?! I felt good seeing myself looking fit and tighter, and intend to get things even tighter. Yes I still have work to do but when you see changes happening and know that all that boring eating and bloody damn cardio is worth it. Some days I really don’t wanna do nuffing and I can end up putting it off until the evening, but I still do it and thats what makes the difference. I don’t say oh I’ll do it tomorrow. Thats what could make or break me and I decide that today is today and tomorrow I’ll be on my way to somewhere else not back tracking what I should’ve done, or even beating myself up for what I didn’t do. I can sleep at night knowing that I keep my promises to myself. And now that my goal has changed I have no choice but to really go for it

I have a consultation with a trainer who has trained many people in to competition, lots of famous people (by british standards) and I can’t wait. Lots of mixed feelings but all geared towards excitement. I have to tell him everything like my training routine and nutrition and all supps, be totally honest with everything. I don’t mind because I have nothing to hide but boy all of a sudden it makes me doubt my routine etc… LOL! But I have to keep things in perspective, no one who is training for health and fitness does it in a way to get competition ready do they! I mean the workouts and diet, impossible to look and live like that all the time, you’d go mad. The thought of what I may have to do is a bit anxiety inducing but only because its so new to me, I’m excited by how hard I’ll have to work, its a mental thing and having a professional push me train me tell me exactly what to eat and when for my body to achieve results is what I really do need. Doing it blind is hard, not knowing when a change happens what to put it down to - I think it can never be just one thing that causes change but … Oh, it’s just a buzz to know that my life is changing and going down a totally different path. It will be difficult to do all this and juggle whatever work comes my way and family life with a 17 month old but there are some amazing women (ms fitness or buffmother just to name a few) who have a few children and manage to do this and look totally amazing. So no excuses i can do this and will and am:)
I have come this far on my own with pure determination, I guess that would be called drive, I’d rather say its not drive but more the desire to be the best I can achieve and know my limits and possibly exceed them. Is that drive? I know that the dieting issue will be hard so I’ll have to be meticulous about it. Taking regular pictures will help me see the changes and and keep me on track. Posting them and getting comments from you guys will also keep things in perspective. Well, its next friday that I’ll be getting things rolling so I am positively nervous;)