debbie bell’s BodyBlog

ok … so what I write must sound strange to some … I speak truth .. can’t help it .. I speak words in which I know others are afraid of speaking themselves.  
I have no quotes for now .. today .. just to quote me .. I will empower my life, and let no one ever take that away from me!
Ever!  Nor should any of you.
Smiles D

I am not home .. and how I dread to be … holding my dog - boo boo … having her kissing my face ( of course licking it and then I must sanitize it cause of boogers . lol ) .. just the warmth of her love I feel in my arms and heart.  
My Home - a place that I know is familiar .. I do not have to answer questions to anyone especially when feeling abandoned .. well helpless .. or for understanding purposes .. stranded!  
I am in an unfamiliar place that I do not feel comfortable in … I know its just a sleep away- airflight too ..  … can I sleep .. yes .. problem is I want so badly for tomorrow to come I can not sleep.  I want out … I want the dreams I know will come true of my life to start now .. the reason I know they will come true is because this time I AM MAKING THEM COME TRUE.. I WILL MAKE THEM COME TRUE . I KNOW THEY WILL CAUSE I BELIEVE IT.. AND FEEL IT .. and I will not let anyone ANYONE take that away from me!!!!

someone I know suggested I erase something I wrote from my heart in regards to empowering myself no matter what is going on around me or no matter what the norm of society says…I know this person is looking of my best interest .. however I know in my heart that people need to know the feelings of others .. for maybe .. just maybe then will life of humans not be so damn robotic.
There is more to life that … bull … that is all I can say for now ..
I just wish people were more sensitive to the heart rather than what is excepted of the heart… (which is really not the heart .. it is the robotic heart.)
The books I publish soon will explain all .. for now I hope all empowers themselves no matter what they think is expected of society . however… that empowerment is not the one where it says I can do nothing .. it is the empowerment that says what I do is ok !!!!!  and that is not sitting on but .. you all know what i mean .. in my writings I shall disclose what was unable to express now in which i know will help so many others … G-D be with you all and bless you all debbie
    

.. SPACE.. hummm .. the only word I could come up with short notice .. did not intend to write this eve.. well morn once again..lol .. must stop my vampire hours!  
I suppose the word space popped in my head because I wish there were more of it - time wise - !
I hate to be repetitive and sound not meaningful .. though please if anyone that does know me knows that I never EVER say - write or express anything if I do not fully believe or mean it to be the truth… of course there are the "little white lies" in which I do think I have discussed before that are the ones said in order to NOT HURT someone .. though I sure do think most do not get the difference between those lies out of selflessness to those that are selfish!  
Anyway I am not writing to discuss the analogy of people .. I am here to - FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART - truly truly truly
thank ALL OF YOU WHOM have written me and commented such wonderful and motivating .. well just down right inspiring notes to me .. and I do really feel so awful that I have not been able to return your messages .. or have not returned them .. or responded .. it must make me look so cold in which I assure you I am completely the opposite of!!!
It has been a tough few months for me.  
Many deal with issues differently .. some vent .. some blame others .. and unfortunately some hurt others.
Me .. I disappear .. well of course not totally cause then I would be invisible .. he he .. wouldn’t that be cool .. though not so much if not controlled .. anyway .. I tend to forget the problem of hand .. go through motions .. help others for that is what give me my most strength is helping other people .. and if anyone reading does so should totally understand what I mean.  Eventually somehow for some reason I know angels DO take care of me!  i know this might sound to unusual for some .. though it is true .. cause at the darkest moments in my life I have come out of them stronger than I was before and most importantly stronger than I ever thought I could be.
As my days go by I have come to realize that there is something so much more powerful than what most people in this world think to be important… as they would read this and make pun by it .. I do not care .. might have ten years ago .. not now.  
I mostly feel sorry for them as we all do age and many do not realize the beauty that comes with the wisdom one can be obtained if we are open to such .. most are not .. which is why the society is the way it is … there is so much more beyond politics .. money .. hatred - for such frugal reasons -
Hey I do not declare to know it all .. as we are all not "perfect" .. I absolutely have my setbacks .. however I DO know now that
there is so much more to this life I -we all - have been gifted in having .. and am awaiting Me  to take the steps to show the world how much I can help!  I am almost there .. just have a few more things to achieve for myself before I can digress  what it is that I am speaking of!  
I know I am being extremely vague .. just wanted to share how ever so grateful I am to the messages you have written me .. and sorry that I have not spent more time here .. please do understand I forget sometimes how much I do love this site so and when I log on here ( to no fault except my own ) .. I find that I tend to ignore my life and what I need to accomplish by spending .. or I shall say hiding beyond sitting by the computer ( and that goes for all googling .. and stuff I ..we ..tend to get obsessed with by the internet!) … I fully intend to tell you guys what I am sure now sounds a bit convoluted - very soon .. just please know I thank you .. and as soon as those that I need to accomplish are succeeded .. I will attend to this site  and you all so very much more so!
I do hope that I have or do improve someone’s day by the quotes that motivate me .. and inspire me so by the many prestigious people that have spoke those words!
Sending you all empowerment smiles .. and G-D bless .. debbie

"NOBODY GROWS OLD BY MERELY LIVING A NUMBER OF YEARS.  PEOPLE GROW OLD ONLY BY DESERTING THEIR IDEALS.  YEARS WRINKLE THE FACE, BUT TO GIVE UP ENTHUSIASM WRINKLES THE SOUL.  WORRY, DOUBT, SELF-INTEREST, FEAR, DESPAIR–THESE ARE THE LONG, LONG YEARS THAT BOW THE HEAD AND TURN THE GROWING SPIRIT BACK TO DUST."
Watterson Lowe.
Intuitive man!

Many smiles to you all for my long absence .. I pray you all are doing well, succeeding and happy .. tonight .. today I send you all many crystal smiles to keep you seeing sharp and in doing so smiling all the way.. G-D bless Debbie

"HE WHO WOULD PASS THE DECLINING YEARS OF HIS LIFE WITH HONOR AND COMFORT SHOULD, WHEN YOUNG, CONSIDER THAT HE MAY ONE DAY BECOME OLD, AND REMEMBER, WHEN HE IS OLD, THAT HE HAS ONCE BEEN YOUNG."
Joseph Addison.