debbie bell’s BodyBlog

"WE SIT AT BREAKFAST, WE SIT ON THE TRAIN ON THE WAY TO WORK, WE SIT AT WORK, WE SIT AT LUNCH, WE SIT ALL AFTERNOON, A HODGEPODGE OF SAGGING LIVERS, SINKING GALL BLADDERS, DROOPING STOMACHS, COMPRESSED INTESTINES, AND SQUASHED PELIVC ORGANS."
John Button, Jr.

DO NOT misinterpret what I say by means of thoughts that rumble through your head … just listen!!
We DO NOT SHRINK as we get older .. we slouch .. SLOUCH… ..
I would go into explicit detail in my books I will write .. which I truly hope is soon and before I pass in this world .. for I know what I feel and have to say can AND WILL change one person.. one mind .. then another . .and when published well the world!!
That is my dream .. not so much what the greedy people in the world strive for .. cause that is the selfish "look how great I am" .. and to no offense .. I think those that act in such .. the tough … "know it all"  (^)*%(* ’s are the most INSECURE people that walks this earth… and those are the ones that need help and love more than they will ever admit to!  Needing the most love than will ever admit .. which is why their attitude exudes snootiness .. ( ok folks do not get your imaginary mind get carried away … just expressing how in touch I am with people.. know things .. and for lack of fearing you not to believe I do not explain why)  All one needs to know is that :::
We HAVE THE CONTROL TO BE MISERABLE OR HAPPY .. SLOUCHING .. "SHRINKING" OR STAND TALL… I will prove this After I conquer my own goals .. and then will be more available to help more people… as you know I am in extreme pain .. and the spine is one that even the most willful of people cannot control ( and I have much pain though have found a way to start to not let it ruin my life .. this is why I believe so much G-D does what he does ..through my experience and sadness somehow within myself I am able to find the strength to help myself .. and then help others… I know that that is what my reason in life is for ..Its sort of like hearing stories on lifetime movie network ( ok guys don’t get stupid ) ..there are true stories on there that are there to prevent what happened to that person not happen in the future .. there are so many situations in which women ..men have been through horrific situations and died - sadly not understanding being they were a wonderful person..then it has shown that it was that person that was chosen to show this world .. teach us a lesson .. AND IT HAS WORKED.. I suppose you have to watch some of the movies to understand what I mean .. though they are not movies they are documentaries of what happened .. and more times than none so much good came out of what happened ..at the time is so very sad .. though changed and saved lives for the future.  
We have the ability to choose OUR ACTIONS.. do you want to do good ??  Do you think doing good by doing something that will make your life easier?  Do you need acknowledgment for what deed you have done .. or do you without a thought in your mind let someone skip in front of you in line at the supermarket -who ever it might be old young - if they had only a container of ice-cream and you had a basket full of stuff and was in a hurry … do you?  They only true acknowledgment in life that is suffice for our being comes from within…
wow .. ok went a bit further than wanted to … just have much passion and want to share with you all .. I feel like I have not been that in a while .. I have let the bad effect me .. and I am so sorry for that .. the more positive vibes one gives .. just one person .. the better our lives will be .. and of course the better your life will be !!!
Will go on more when I come back from Pittsburgh … G-D bless you all — many smiles deb

Ok, so I have been thinking.  I must have sounded pretty glum these past couple of months.  Well I am sure my blogs have not been all of that positive..most  of them.  I had an epiphany - anther one :) — All it took was a good friends innocent comment of
something flattering - in fact I believe he was unaware of how exactly it would affect me.  It was not the intentional direct flattery that one might think - it was an indirect comment made.  I do not wish to disclose it for personal reasons, however know that it struck a light-bulb that was buried under all the blaness I have exposed myself to…no I have allowed myself to be exposed to!

So I share with you all today my old ..now re born again new insight. .. We all have the power to control our emotions.  It is a challenge and needs to be practiced every day.  I know that if we stay positive - positive things will come to us in life.  "We attract what we give out" as the saying goes.  Sometimes we need to be reminded of that … no one really reminded me of that it was something else… regardless … what I am trying to say is that if there is negative people or energy that surrounds you .. leave it .. or if you can’t leave it …block it out and know that that negativity is that person’s issue.  I have been letting to much of negativity reflect my thoughts .. could be that I have been watching to much news .LOL .. ..did not watch as much in the past .. lol .. could be true though . .all you hear is horrible things .. anyway .. wanted to just drop by quick and share my happy positive outlook with you all .. I had it before .. it was lost for a while .. NOW IT IS BACK TO STAY!!!  
As I tell myself - I shall tell you .. we must when awaking in the morning always check ourselves and say THIS IS GOING TO BE A GREAT DAY.!!  
SENDING LOTS OF POSITIVE SMILES TO HELP START YOU OFF
DEB

"THERE ARE TWO LIVES TO EACH OF US, THE LIFE OF OUR ACTIONS, AND THE LIFE OF OUR MINDS AND HEARTS.  HISTORY REVEALS MEN’S DEEDS AND THEIR OUTWARD CHARACTERS, BUT NOT THEMSELVES.  THERE IS A SECRET SELF THAT HAS ITS OWN LIFE, UNPENETRATED AND UNGUESSED."
Edward Bulwer-Lytton

(IN CONTINUANCE OF "HAD A BREAK" -
Watching Michael Jackson’s memorial .. wow… why is it that it takes death for people to see the true of when someone actually only wanted good and love .. and honesty in life!!!
What I write .. yeah sometimes its harsh and "too much reality" .. and some suppose I shouldn’t share such thoughts .. opening myself up to people I do not know possibly start rumors or worse!  Regardless, of what people say - this man MJ .. all he wanted was love and to be loved and hope that others .. that it might rub off and someday people would begin to understand that all of his outlandish "acts" so to say … were meant in an in between the line sort of way that people ..we you , I … would get the point.  Read and UNDERSTAND - listen to the words of his songs ( which was portrayed much during the memorial) It was wanting to be loved for who he was and not be judged for what he liked to wear .. or not be accused of wrongness because of his "unacceptable" means of loving!  He endured much pain inside.. and is it that important to dwell consistently of the reason for his pain,  .. NO..not for anyone except himself… however what is important is that he took his pain  turned it around and tried so save others .. that is all one needs to know!.  What gets me and still ( though I do not know why ) shocks me is that he spent his entire life dedicating himself to please others … and in the end he got the short end of the stick. ( minus of course the fame..as I know some will use that as a reason to deny my writings and feel otherwise. (though that in itself is exactly what I am speaking of.)  What I mean is that WHY, why is it always after the death .. all of a sudden everyone flaunts to say how much they love him.  ( really not looking for an answer there ..already know that one as I hope you all do )
It is so very sad!
Now the reason I wrote this is cause the message and his thoughts are very similar to mine .. and I will tell you if I could I would dress the way I want .. in a way that is completely unacceptable to "society’s" law.  NO! It is that people are envious cause they are afraid of anyone getting into their souls… knowing what they think cause then they become vulnerable… so friggin what!!!  I in-fact have dressed in my own uniqueness - not for anyone else .. for me .. and have had much trouble regarding it .. and it was nothing outlandishly provocative if you happen to be thinking that … people have their own traits of personality .. though are to damn afraid to express it cause they won’t fill the "norm" of society.   To hell with the norm .. what is the norm .. the norm is what the majority of people do NOT do because of fear!!!!!!!  Like "oh my goodness someone might actually find out that I have feelings"
To make my point regarding this .. I do not know the intricacies of the accusations while MJ was on trial nor is it my concern for debate .. however the focal point here is to realize ( and in which I have just now- as the words portrayed about Michael ) that SO WHAT.. if those want to make delusional comments and fabricate lies .. that is their miserable life which is why they need to do so.  
And in contemplating to myself - am I too open .. should I have not expressed my feelings as such .. etc… I feel that I stumbled upon watching this for a reason ..as there are no coincidences in life ( i do believe ) … it was to ensure that what I write and say is right.. and even if I can help just one person .. just one .. than that in itself is the purpose of my life!  
And that leads me to the point that I AM ALIVE .. and so are all of you .. so next time in doubt follow your heart .. and know if what you do is good, than no matter what or how people will react to it .. SO BE IT .. it is their problem NOT YOURS.
I will live by this till the day I die .. and I thank G-D for his subliminal way of helping me understand ( rather than the "people") that what I do and say - in truth always!! -  I should keep doing .. cause I do not want to die and realize that I did not express the love and desire to help others was blockaded because of feeling to "vulnerable" and exposing myself to others that might not approve of what I might say or how my actions are exposed in portraying my love and care ( of course knowing it is not of harm to anyone).. cause though some might think that .. I can guarantee it comes from a jaded heart of jealousy, and know that what I say does help someone somewhere!!!
They say that there must be a reasons for MJ’s death .. he lived his life to the fullest and more .. G-D bless him .. and now he will be doing it for eternity because people .. so sadly are now realizing what he was portraying .. as just a note .. if this were realized earlier .. and he was not harassed in so many ways .. he just might still be alive today!
So with a clear mind ..I will work on not being so angry at those that lie.. as I have always known why they do .. just that I am human .. and to a point when I give and give and that is turned into bucket full of deceit .. well one is bound to explode and feel awful at times… and today was one of those days… now it has turned for me .. I credit is "The One"(my G-D) looking over me for that .. and helping me understand what I knew already (Dorothy-wizard of oz) that I should not change!
I hope someone out there will hear this in their soul… .. funny .. they mentioned the song "smile" .. never really listened to the lyrics .. however it is what I preach every day.. time to take my own advice … and know that there is more than a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow .. there is all everything I have dreamt of .. however it is ME that has to reach it!
G-D bless .. sending ALL rainbow eternity smiles .. deb :)

"LET THE MOTIVE BE IN THE DEED AND NOT IN THE EVENT.  BE NOT ONE WHOSE MOTIVE FOR ACTION IS THE HOPE OF REWARD."
Krishna

Gosh it seems as if the time I keep saying so .. and then promise to come back and - haven’t forgot .. just not finished yet - to for-fill my promises .. time goes .. and goes ..
You know I was watching some "bio" show .. and it was a child speaking .. the main pt . is that a child is never aware of time except that it seems forever - the future ..
So many HUGE dreams .. and beliefs .. and trust and LOVE!  .. I hate to think that I am someone that is doubting the power of the human nature… the blessings we have been given .. the trueness of childhood gone to rot because our ancestors molded our world "of what we have to do" ..
It is a shame .. and I am embarrassed that I have allowed others to invade my joy .. just because .. YES I SMILE JUST BECAUSE … MAYBE SOMEONE SHOULD TRY IT SOME DARN DAY!!! ..
It is sad that I have to write that in anger .. cause I am not about that .. I am just so fed up with so many lies and lies and lies .. need there be more to say .. oh yes Jealousy… jealousy which indeed leads to the fabrication of what they wish their life to be .. and if those that do say would just realize .. EVERYONE’S life is so very valuable… so very important .. IT IS THOU .. them-self  that makes their life less.. because of what I have written above .. I am sad to have to say so .. though great example
LOOK … at all the people morning for Michael J. death .. the same people that accused and hated him for his life .. lol .. those that understand what I say .. you know .. it is those that morn his death now- so many are the one’s that caused him to his death!!!  .
I am so very not trying to be mean .. I am just hoping people will stop following the "popular" vote … and start believing what their soul and heart tells them …
G-D bless .. and dont forget to share a smile with someone today!!
deb

"EVERY SO OFTEN WE HEAR PEOPLE CLAMOR FOR A CHANGE.  LET’S CHANGE THE CONSTITUTION, CHANGE THE FORM OF GOVERNMENT, CHANGE EVERYTHING FOR BETTER OR WORSE EXCEPT TO CHANGE THE ONLY THING THAT NEEDS CHANGING FIRST: THE HUMAN HEART AND OUR STANDARD OF SUCCESS AND HUMAN VALUES."
William J.H. Boetcker.

BEAUTIFUL :)