ON A BETTER NOTE…
It is always interesting for me to look back at what I have blogged late at night .. and especially in so much pain .. scared of what could happen to me if I make the wrong choices. My last blog .. if I have offended anyone by it please know I was in a venting mode pumped up on percocet and this drug called amrix .. think it is a muscle relaxer that hits at the cortex of the spine(heavy sh–t) …and I truly did not mean any harm or wish to upset anyone by my words. I choose not to delete my blogs .. cause that is how I felt at the moment and it is something to look back upon and grow from. And most importantly I hope it helps others that are in the same situation or similar to realize they are not alone, and it is okay to speak openly. I happen to be blunt and honest about myself and how I feel. For what is the purpose in life if one can not express their true feelings … in fact those that do live (in my opinion) their life in lie’s .. and truthfully folks.. I particularly don’t want to live that way - it only leads to darkness and deception and then solitude!
So yesterday I had an epiphany in which I will be writing today in a more positive tone! To those of you that have wished me well and showed their concern and kinds words I thank you ALL!! From the bottom of my heart truly! It has really helped me so much…please know that I am not ignoring your messages just trying to get my life back in order - hopefully without pain..cause those that know pain 24/7 know how consuming it is over one’s life! Not fun! I am doing a bit better.. afraid to say more ( being the superstitious person I am) for fear of jumping ahead of myself. However I think many of you will find what I am about to write in my next blog quite interesting and hopefully valuable to the mind!
Many chocolate chip cookies I send today .. G-D bless.. debbie 
June 17, 2009 at 12:46 pm
Hey Sunshine, any feeling better is good. You are on some serious drugs. I’m sending you all the good energy I can. Steve
June 19, 2009 at 8:04 am
I have just purchased a pack of trip2night from www.narcomundo.com. I paid around 30 dollars and the shipping was free. I emailed them to see how long it will take to get to me, but they have not emailed me back yet. The first week end night I get it I will try it and let you know if I like it or not. I will concentrate more on the things I do not like since the web sites selling it are promoting it enough and that is not my job. My job is to let the world know if there are any areas I do not like. I will get back to this after I try it.
June 25, 2009 at 4:29 pm
Thank you … interested to know how they do work .. and Steve… I am sorry to have not called .. just have much on plate now .. and I with all my heart appreciate your offer for your ear… I think it not appropriate for me to babble on bout things I hope to forget tomorrow and so on..
i do promise to write or call when I can … know that .. and stay happy and healthy .. tell your mom I said hi with many smiles xo deb