debbie bell’s BodyBlog

"FALSEHOOD IS NEVER SO SUCCESSFUL AS WHEN SHE BAITS HER HOOK WITH TRUTH, AND NO OPINIONS SO FATALLY MISLEAD US AS THOSE THAT ARE NOT WHOLLY WRONG, AS NO WATCHES SO EFFECTIVELY DECEIVE THE WEARER AS TOSE THAT ARE SOMETIMES RIGHT."
Charles Caleb Colton.

i want to thank you ALL SO VERY MUCH .. THOSE THAT HAVE LEFT ME COMMENTS IN WHICH I HAVE NOT YET REPLIED TO .. SORRY BOUT THAT .. JUST READ THEM .. AND NOW I THINK I WILL BE ABLE TO SLEEP WITH PEACE .. GOSH …IS IT SO AMAZING HOW SUCH A SIMPLE THING SUCH AS A KIND COMMENT TO ANOTHER CAN CHANGE AND HAVE SUCH IMPACT ON THE ONE IT IS DIRECTED TO .. AND AT THE MOMENT OF COURSE I AM SO SPEECHLESSLY GRATEFUL IT IS I .. SO THANK YOU SO MUCH .. AND HOPE YOU ARE ALL SLEEPING WITH ANGELS OF RAINBOWS WATCHING OVER YOU .. DEB

Gosh guys I am in the process of writing and editing what I promised to deliver from my last message.  However much going on in life has strayed me from the technical world for a bit … as you all know it becomes obsessive - that is computer land - and much time goes - before one realizes its 3 am and ya have to wake in 2hrs..lol though true!  
MY SOMETHING PERSONAL:
I am sure (making a guesstimate of a thought) that many have pondered why I do not discuss my competing and working out especially since this site is geared to that in particular.  As much at times I wanted to there are a few reasons why.
The first I know is silly-superstition.   Ok talking bout shows I know will not break or make me… just thought to keep the neurosis to myself - as we all get a bit koo koo prior to a show.  I did not think anyone needs to hear my ranting.
Which is why I write such positive and healing thoughts, to help you all as well as when I do it helps me.  Helps me knowing that I can touch another soul…and mind you It means so much to me that you all that do make comments.  
I also figure that if someone were to read what I do they might take it upon themselves to believe that if they do the same they can have the same outcome (not that I am too proud of myself lately from my last performance last month, however I do know why I placed 6th, and know what not and what to do next!  And with that being said I sure don’t want to write something where one might take it that I am looking for pity..I am strong ..not so strong at times, however most importantly I NEVER look for or want pity… we earn what we put into this world..and the harder we work the rewards are redeemed!
Getting back to my point: you see as a Personal Trainer and Life Coach for my entire adult life (and part teen ) I am familiar - very familiar with the human nature!!!  We are all not that different nor are our thoughts, just the way we process and exude our manners from them are different.!!!  (and that story shall be in one of my books ).
I will be more open with what I do from now on because I think it is important for me to start discussing my experience and feelings not only for me for you or anyone that might need to know that what they think is not wrong and it is ok to express oneself as long as it is not hurting anyone or themselves!!  
With this being said I am elated to say for the 3rd year now I will be competing at the Masters In Pittsburgh!  Love the show .. and adore Gary U.  Wonderful wonderful and such a kind man…someone that when I walk on the stage I feel honored to compete for show!  (so anyone that is going look for me I will be the one smiling pain or no pain!!!).
I will fill you in within the up coming weeks.. for now I must PT my back and grab a anaerobic workout!
Please know I do try to hold myself to my word as long as life allows me, so I am stating to you all that I promise to deliver the article I know you ALL will find intriguing and helpful - hopefully .. for I do in writing it and believing and living it….till then
G-D bless .. xoxoxoxoxo to all … sending Mcy D’s crispy french fry smiles - my cheating food favorite for after shows!! he he

It is always interesting for me to look back at what I have blogged late at night .. and especially in so much pain .. scared of what could happen to me if I make the wrong choices.  My last blog .. if I have offended anyone by it please know I was in a venting mode pumped up on percocet and this drug called amrix .. think it is a muscle relaxer that hits at the cortex of the spine(heavy sh–t) …and I truly did not mean any harm or wish to upset anyone by my words.  I choose not to delete my blogs .. cause that is how I felt at the moment and it is something to look back upon and grow from.  And most importantly I hope it helps others that are in the same situation or similar to realize they are not alone, and it is okay to speak openly.  I happen to be blunt and honest about myself and how I feel.  For what is the purpose in life if one can not express their true feelings … in fact those that do live (in my opinion) their life in lie’s .. and truthfully folks.. I particularly don’t want to live that way - it only leads to darkness and deception and then solitude!
So yesterday I had an epiphany in which I will be writing today in a more positive tone!  To those of you that have wished me well and showed their concern and kinds words I thank you ALL!!  From the bottom of my heart truly!  It has really helped me so much…please know that I am not ignoring your messages just trying to get my life back in order - hopefully without pain..cause those that know pain 24/7 know how consuming it is over one’s life!  Not fun!  I am doing a bit better.. afraid to say more ( being the superstitious person I am) for fear of jumping ahead of myself.  However I think many of you will find what I am about to write in my next blog quite interesting and hopefully valuable to the mind!
Many chocolate chip cookies I send today .. G-D bless.. debbie

I AM SO SORRY TO DELIVER BAD NEWS.. .. and especially sorry to discuss what I have been going through  being that I truly prayed and believed that this would have been ended by now.  .. I have two herniated discs in my lumbar spine .. I know how this happened however reason not needed to be so much relevant at the moment . what is relevant is the fact that ..LOL .. no one seems to really understand the severity of what .. of the G-D damn pain I am in… I will succumb and admit to you that I did not understand myself how awful back pain was to others..  till this incident happened to me !!   The most SADDEST thing about this is that the people I thought cared about me .. have proven to show their true colors — gosh .. as I will not go explicitly  into detail .. cause those of you that know me and the way I am and write.. will understand .. .. and I know why .. though they might not think I do .. I do ..
I truly do not care to those I do not make sense to .. it is only those that truly do understand what I am saying and the unbelievable culprits that have bestowed this upon me DO KNOW what I am saying .. and I so do not pray for them ill.. I just pray to G-D that justice be done .. especially since those DO know what they have done!! And I shall tell you that EVERY single time in my life as I have done good G-D has done justice to those that are bad!!  If one has bad .. ill thoughts of one other human being .. than .. than they are not worthy of this life .. those ill thoughts they think .. is just.. well is what causes war amounts us .. and in my life .. my mind .. my life my soul .. I could NEVER.. IMAGINE .. harm against another human being — I leave it in G-D’s hands…. which always .. always .. ends in serenity..

Hey my friends .. I know I do not share what is going on in my life as some do or are asked to do on this site, however I am going to do so now.  I would like to preface my apology before you read if by chance I might not be to clear upon what I am saying .. the reason will be explained as you follow my story.
Well first I meant no harm in the above statement - gosh meaning that I am aware this site’s first priority is "what you did today" and educating others on workouts that might help them… however the main reason I do not follow in the repitition of tradition is because changing your body .. gaining muscle losing weight does not start from the mere reasoning of SOMEONE ELSE’S WORKOUT..DIET!! (this is said just in case one might perceive it different from the way I am trying to portray what I am wanting to teach-help-explain).  It is way beyond the physical aspect of going to the gym .. doing one exercise and telling every one "I went to the gym today" knowing we are lying them .. knowing we are lying to ourself .. just hoping that the lies’s told to others will convince ourselves of this lie.   Folks IT NEVER WORKS.. why you ask I am so adamant regarding this )  I give positive affirmations always .. surround myself in positive situations and people .. those to be miserable need to be by themselves .. deal with why they have so much hate in their heart .. and then come back - hopefully to society!!!  And been someone’s friend!  .. No I take that back .. my reason for the quotes IS BECAUSE I am generally a happy outgoing enlightening person.  Regardless of what darkness is around me I fight to ignore it and notice the beauty and the gifts of life!
Yes my explanation .. I have had an epidural shot in my spine tonight!   Without going into detail .. and letting you all know .. well to those of you that think that this is NOT a big deal .. could only be those that have not had one before!!  Those that know of others whom have had them .. those people say .. "OH ITS NO BIGGIE" … no joking friggin matter!!!  I have 2 herniated disc’s now.. long story to how it came about and promise to discuss it later however for now this is not my purpose .. my reason for telling you all is for a few reasons: .. one I needed your prayers .. and still do… I was told there is a chance of paralysis .. which oh my G-D  — no words to describe what went through my mind when I heard that from three separate  doc’s.  - bottom line is that .. the pain was no worse .. so much not worse than when I lift 600 plds. per leg on the inverted leg press ( which is so very not the best move) … I get off with 8 advil in stomach .. can barely move .. crying inside .. and not able to control the tears that fall upon my face .. hidding so no one will see.. its inevitable .. the pain hitting my nerve in my spine.. so so bad .. yes I can endure the pain, burn of lifting .. this was something I would not wish on my worst enemy .. ever!!  Tears pouring down my face .. just wanting someone to squeeze my hand and tell me all would be alright… there was 4 people in the room .. doc trying my own tactics to evade me from what she was doing .. as I do with my clients!
My friends there is no … no .. no pain .. on the exception maybe having a child (have not experienced that) and possibly a limb cut off that I would cry for something such as this!  I have had many surgeries -wrist fused -.. endured so much . .. many years of pain in my life .. though nothing compared to what I went through this early evening!!  
Please note that everyone reacts different to every situation .. I have been throwing my body around … since popping out of the womb- starting with gymnastics … at 30 was my first encounter with reality..( that will be in my book) … at this time I wanted to explicitly explain my experience .. coming from someone that thought she was invincible .. and had a harsh shock of mother nature telling me that I am not!  Yeah it is overwhelmingly sucking.  HOWEVER!!  through all the bad .. so so much .. good has come from it .. things I did not have planned..not wanted .. eventually realizing so very important .. and this is where I end .. especially cause the med’s I have been given .. mind you one of reasons of my type .. I apologize .. are making me sleepy -well they were supposed to make me sleepy .. I have a completly different reaction to med’s … realized that when I drank a bit too much coffee and got sleepy.. lol .. now drink if only one cup a week !!  
I pray you all understand this .. I am not one to be regretfully of what I say .. cause I know my words come from my heart and are true .. although gramatically if this is poorly written please understand my head is a bit wacko now .. I just got out of bed to thank you all so very much for you emphatic compliments and loyal friendship .. I really hope that somehow someone might have been helped by what I have written .. cause truly in the end my life enhances every time I know that I can help one other human being .. if just that .. G-D bless and thank you so so much
sending you all chocolate covered smurf smiles tonight ..
deb

"NOTHING IS EVER LOST BY COURTESY.  IT IS THE CHEAPEST OF THE PLEASURES; COSTS NOTHING AND CONVEYS MUCH.  IT PLEASES HIM WHO GIVES AND HIM WHO RECEIVES, AND THUS, LIKE MERCY, IS TWICE BLESSED."
Erastus Wiman.

With this I say goodnight and send you all very many happy blueberry  smiles… deb:)

I just looked at www.yoursuperbody.com .. and gosh I am quite embarrassed to have even asked to ask anyone to vote for me .. considering I am way below .. not offended and still will always be the smiley deb I always am .. also considering my competition .. boobs showing ..from others .. real or not .. just thought those might vote for more than ..well I suppose it is not my place to say .. I thank you that have voted .. and that do .. still many silver shinning smiles to you all .. deb

"WISE MEN LEARN BY OTHER MEN’S MISTAKES, FOOLS BY THEIR OWN."
H.G. Brown.
Ok .. so I know I tend to babble a bit when it is in the late wee hours .. I could choose to delete these blogs .. though I do not . .you know why . .I will tell ya .. because as when I do look back on them .. and say to myself .. goodness why did I write them .. no one has responded .. and granted so .. well I think that I must be a fool to have written them … and than I think I am glad to not have done so for the mere reason ….
Well .. the reason for not deleting them .. is because you know, I know that I am not the only person out there that feels this way!! .. I can’t be … and if I were you guys would not be responding back to me .. at least I would hope that is not the case .. okay I admit some of the stuff is quite heavy .. however think to yourself.. do you ever think some of the thoughts I write??  We all do .. just do not like to express them .. I do .. people are afraid of what others what might think of them .. I don’t and the true fact is .. is that in reality this is what we all really need and search for in life .. salvation .. salvation for one other person to feel the same as we do .. "as I do" .. as we would say .. I shall leave you with this my friends for tonight and hope your not offended by my blogs in being so blatantly  expressive.!!  G-D bless you all .. and may all the angels follow you tonight and protect you .. debbie