debbie bell’s BodyBlog

"LOOK NOT INTO THE PAST; IT COMES NOT BACK AGAIN.  WISELY IMPROVE THE PRESENT; IT IS THINE.  GO FORTH TO MEET THE SHADOWY FUTURE WITHOUT FEAR, AND WITH A MANLY HEART."
Henry Wadsworth Longfellow.

10 days and going strong!!
Sending out a bunch of lilac smiles today .. and I truly want to thank all of you .. ALL .. that have sent me such supportive words .. and tell you that each and every one has helped me move forth .. and has inspired me so… G-D bless Deb

WOW.  If there has ever been a trying week to test my strength it sure has been this one!!!  Starting out with someone taking my 9 suits,  which I have given up on believing I will ever get them back.  I truly do not get why someone in my own building would take them … my thought is that it had to have been another cleaning lady that thought they would be cute to send to her needy family in Cuba… or where ever…and if that be the case it is very much out of my hands …and as I almost gave up for being so ill about this ( cause as you guys that compete know - so so much more than the money goes into those suits..), however that would just be allowing this person to succeed in ruining my life.   And I have chose not to let that happen. 
Then anything and everything that could go wrong is… however I am still determined to come out on top.  I know that I have been given this incredible gift to survive through the worst of things .. and I know that this is just another one of those tests to push me to be even stronger … and with everything that has happened this week I will be stronger than the Hulk.. he he … seriously though I am speaking emotionally —  I am working truly so hard to makeup for the couple of days that I lost from not working out.  (because of my sadness )  .. so this is why I might not be around much… I am going to prove that this is my time -to myself and to those that have been cruel - cause when they are - funny as they try to beat me down .. it just makes me stronger …so in a sense they are defeating the purpose of what they set out to do in the first place…
Ah who cares bout them .. they live their sad lives .. and now I am going to win!   So off for a long roller blade ride - and then to the gym … I wish you all the brightest of days and thank you all for caring.   I know you will understand why I will be a bit absent till after the show.  G-D bless and today I send you all purple daisy smiles… deb

"I EXPECT TO PASS THIS WAY BUT ONCE; ANY GOOD THEREFORE THAT I CAN DO, OR ANY KINDNESS THAT I CAN SHOW TO ANY FELLOW CREATURE LET ME DO IT NOW.  LET ME NOT DEFER OR NEGLECT IT, FOR I SHALL NOT PASS THIS WAY AGAIN."
Etienne De Grellet.

AH  as G-D always comes through - it is a new day and the sun is shinning … pain has subsided a bit — though I do not think I will ever get over what has happened … and the thought of who could do something like this.
This is not my problem to worry about who or why …
My problem - decision in life is to move on - as I morn my suits, I have to believe that there is a reason - and that G-D will help me move on to better things…as long as I let it happen.. and I - as I always usually do - fight through the bad and the bad people that has run through my journey in life - I DO and shall prevail!!  Always!!!  It is the strength that is somewhere deep inside me that I have been gifted enough to reach and utilize.  And through each horrible experience I have been through in my life I always come out winning in the end … though I myself will be the first to say it sure does not feel like it at the time … then when I look back and the tears have dried - and my heart is mended — I see why and what the purpose - the lesson I needed to learn was from it.
Which in turn makes me a better person and so much more educated regarding dealing with situations in life.
I was not always able to make that connection.  In my 20’s  -  Never truly got it.  I do now!  As it is said - that if there is no pain in life there can be no joy.   How true is that under ALL circumstances!  
So I accept the pain, and am grateful to have such loving friends that surround me, and I am looking to see what this life has in store for me as the days go by.  They can only get better from here!!!!!!
G-D bless and many smiles — yes I am smiling today.
d

So sorry to be the barer of bad news.. as I usually am so on the happy side .. I had something horrific happen to me -
All my competition suits I have ever owned have been stolen.   Which is about a good eight of them… and to be honest it is not so much the money as it is the memories and the violation of WHY?  why someone - anyone … who would - could - do such a thing!
Its like — well I truly can not describe it… the pain and numbness I feel at the moment.   I am breathless with sadness and hurt.  
Almost like the feeling of breaking up with your boyfriend.  
I have worked so hard to get where I am today.  And I have been so proud and honored to be where I am at with my competing.  These suits represented that to me.   Cause I was not one to just pick one suit out .. I spoke to the designer .. and made sure it was elegant and stage appropriate and that when I wore it I felt confident.   As some sell their suits .. I chose not to.  They were my pride - they gave me joy - and gave me strength.  I know I still have all of that inside… and I know I will get over this … and I also know that whomever took them I need not worry about for G-D AS ALWAYS takes care of the bad people in life - one way or the other!   And I particularly do not need or want to know.  
It is truly a good thing I have good people around me that love and care and understand.  Cause I do not know what I would do otherwise.    I know Tomorrow is another day.. I know that they are just material things.. and I know that I am ever so grateful for my health… though I am human .. .and I feel like crying … and I feel like expressing how much I just do not understand how anyone could do something like this… I am getting woozy from crying so much .. so I think I shall lay down….
However I will prevail!!!!  And I will wake tomorrow and move on… unfortunately I think that there is just one more layer that has been added of not being able to trust .. and I hate that…
I am going to rest now … And will conquer tomorrow by ignoring the weak.. and staying true to myself!!
D

You know at the end of the eve… when all is asleep.. and the P-od’ness is over .. (for it truly wasn’t there to begin with in the first place) .. I go back and read your amazing comments to me.  From my pictures to my blogs… this site is the most respectful site .. as I have said before .. and I will reiterate myself again .. I love being here… and I do not care who says what- about anything and especially about how emotional I am get.. I say this from the bottom of my heart to the tips of my toes .. I love being here.. and I love all you guys.. I love the reality and the truthfulness that I receive from you all!!!
So I want to thank you .. and thank bodybuilding.com for having this site… cause it truly has not only changed my life–it has opened my eyes to a world I would have never known if they did not exist!  So thank you to all and BB.com ..
G-D bless - thank you for listening to my babble at times - and know that you are always - all of you in my heart!!!  I truly mean that!!!  
So many smiles ( and no I am not on any drugs .. lol .. seriously not on anything .. just life .. much love .. deb )

"ABOVE ALL THINGS, NEVER BE AFRAID.  THE ENEMY WHO FORCES YOU TO RETREAT IS HIMSELF AFRAID OF YOU AT THAT VERY MOMENT."
Andre Maurois.

couldn’t have said it better myself .. only with smiles ..

"I WAS NERVOUS AND CONFIDENT AT THE SAME TIME, NERVOUS ABOUT GOING OUT THERE IN FRONT OF ALL OF THOSE PEOPLE, WITH SO MUCH AT STAKE, AND CONFIDENT THAT I WAS GOING TO GO OUT THER AND WIN."
Althea Gibson.

"YOU CAN GAIN MORE FRIENDS BY BEING YOURSELF THAN YOU CAN BY PUTTING UP A FRONT.  YOU CAN GAIN MORE FRIENDS BY BUILDING PEOPLE UP THAN YO CAN BY TEARING THEM DOWN.  AND YOU CAN GAIN MORE FRIENDS BY TAKING A FEW MINUTES FROM EACH DAY TO DO SOMETHING KIND FOR SOMEONE, WHETHER IT BE A FRIEND OR A COMPLETE STRANGER.  WHAT A DIFFERENCE ONE PERSON CAN MAKE!"
Sasha Azevedo.

"WHEN YOU’RE A BEAUTIFUL PERSON ON THE INSIDE, THERE IS NOTHING IN THE WORLD THAT CAN CHANGE THAT ABOUT YOU.  JEALOUSY IS THE RESULT O ONE’S LACK OF SELF-CONFIDENCE, SELF-WORTH AND SELF-ACCEPTANCE.  THE LESSON;  IF YOU CAN’T ACCEPT YOURSELF, THEN CERTAINLY NO ONE ELSE WILL."
Sasha Azevedo.