debbie bell’s BodyBlog

I want to apologize to you all for not sending  a blog sooner!!!
Especially after that last little silliness that happened .. I have been thinking every day
About writing to you all … just didn’t seem to have the right words to say..
I think you all know .. hopefully .. that I am competing November 10th here in NY.. at the Eastern Usa.   And .. and … and .. and I want so very much to walk out there on stage .. and be what I have promised that I KNOW I CAN BE .. but I am coming clean right now .. I am petrified!!!  Those that know me .. know what a perfectionist I am.  Not only do I not want to disappoint myself .. I don’t want to disappoint all of you that have given me the drive and inspiration to keep going … which is what I live for .. that is my job .. as a personal trainer myself .. I long to see the joy in those .. just a simple smile when I know I have helped someone….
I WISH YOU ALL WERE HERE WITH ME  IN MY APARTMENT .. (WELL NOT LITERALLY..HE HE ) …..
- So I don’t think you all are just androids.. ?? .-
It comforts me so to know that you all are so supportive and so so so caring!!!
So I really want to thank you guys so much and this incredible site for giving me that much more of a drive to do what I need to!!!  I hope to the end of the world that I will do great and be able to inspire all of you that have helped me so!!!!
In this being said .. I want you guys to know that I might not be able to respond to you all .. because I will be seriously focusing on training .. and doing my best at this show .. so I apologize to any one out there that I have not gotten back to or will not get back to .. but so very much promise I will after the show .. for right now I do need to keep my concentration on that.. but all of your words comments, thoughts.. that you have given me, and continue to do so … will be in my heart  and my soul as I go on that stage.. So thank you so much to you all .. and in turn I send ALL OF YOU MY MAGICAL SMILES.. which I hope you use .. for they truly do work!!!
Xoxox Debbie ?

Happy day .. ??
I am feeling better than ever .. wanted to thank everyone here for your incredible support!! To be brief – having all of your positive input helps me to strive to be better than I thought I could .. and makes me believe in what I am doing is great!!
So I just wanted to send a quick note to you all to thank you.. and send you all my special smiles to help you have the most incredible evening.. or morning .. ??
Deb?

I would like to apologize for my last furry comments.. however I was rather upset regarding what happened and hope for it to not happen again.. and just to note I have
Through this experience gained even more respect for BB site .. how eloquently they have responded to me .. as well as those that have responded to my blogs!!!!
So that is it!!! No more of negative talk!!!
I have learned much in this past week regarding my fitness goal!! And people that are truly  my friends and those that are not!!!  Without going into detail I would just like to say that this journey that I am going through is not only proven to be one of an emotional learning experience for me .. but has also helped me find such amazing  wonderful true people that I KNOW I can trust .. who want to help me with the passion  that I have which is to be the best that I can be.. sometimes we .. I … have to go through the hay stack in order to find the pin — or the needle?? .. those of you that know what I mean will understand .. and I will say .. this journey .. this site .. the people I have had the honor of having in my life .. have made me .. helped me .. be who I am today.. and fight to be the best!!!  ( I have learned the hard way – which usually is the way that one usually learns the best by.)
So I want to thank you all .. so very much for you unconditional support.. and confidence in me!!!!  For I know I could not do it without any of you..
I send you my dearest and most magical of smiles to all of you!!! And wish  you the most incredible evening ever!!!

I would like to make it clear that .. just in case anyone gets the wrong idea from my last blog .. that bodybuilding.com has completely changed my life .. and everyone here has motivated me and inspired me in ways I could not even begin to thank you all for.. however.. I do want those who do …send me inappropriate pictures and messages .. that .. I will not stand for it .. Nor do I know that the editors of this site will either!!! Being that if your childish jokes or adult’s jokes … think that it has be gotten passed by I should highly think again.. for this is a very reputable site.. with many people that are serious about what they are doing.. and those that are out there for fun and games please go find another site before you wind up making a fool of yourself… I am sorry for everyone here that is serious that has to endured this stupidness!!!  As I have myself!!—Ps.. Ok.. I am not sure people are understanding what was sent to me so I shall tell you … someone sent me a picture of Their pee pee .. but a gross .. gross gross pee pee –so that is what it was and I DONT LIKE IT..!!  And if it continues I will not continue to be here..!!!

I need to start off by saying I love this site.. however when I first joined I had the
Unfortunate encounter with some idiot that sent me a private message (in which I exploited him) that was way past the fine line of appropriateness!!  Since then I thought I have made it quite clear that I am a member of this site for no other reason than to associate myself  with others that have the passion that I do regarding fitness!!!  I have just received a picture that is utterly disgraceful and hard to believe that it could be allowed on this site. Longshaftalex - is the persons profile name..
Is a profile name that I am speechless from..
I truly hope that this situation is taken care of .. for it does not say much to me .. or give me much respect that I thought I had for this site!!!!
If I WANTED TO LOOK AT SICK PICTURES .. I WOULD HAVE NO PROBLEM IN DOING SO ..i am not here for this .. and so very angry..
Whomever sent this to me .. thinking that they find it funny.. might want to take another look at their life and get some serious mental help!!!!
I have mailed Richard… sent him this picture I was sent .. And I really hope to have an apology for receiving such a disgraceful picture.. I will not attach it to this message .. being I have to much class for that .. but if any one has trouble locating this person.. please feel free to contact me .. for I have his information saved.. as well as the picture.!!!
I WILL ASSUME I SHALL NOT RECEIVE ANY MORE OF THIS SORT OF MAIL..
Thank you…

I am in first gear.. Actually if there was a phrase to surpass that .. that would be where I am at the moment!!!  I know a bit confusing … let me explain:
I have this secret weapon that I have encountered about a few weeks ago.. which has changed my whole outlook on working out .. people ( discovering the difference of those that want to hurt me((use)) and those that are truly good souls!!) -and giving me the most positive energy that I never knew existed!!!
Life is so full of challenges and experiences that either can bring one down or we can learn from it and grow to be a better person!! It has taken many of those downfalls and encounters to finally find this positive and motivational subjects in my life .. that are bringing me to the next level.. the best that I can be..and better!! As where I so believe – as we treat others the way we would like to be treated .. wonderful things.. miracles happen for us .. though only occurs if we are true from our heart and are  completely honest with our intentions!!!
As it says in the bible (not that I am religious .. or know the bible too much.. but one thing I do know is that it says “ treat others the way you would want to be treated yourself” – that might not be the correct quote.. I apologize for that.. though that is the way I live my life .. for I know no other way of being!!!  It is not in my  soul to be ..or treat anyone different.. even those that are mean!!

(I must defiantly get an editor to help me express myself better ?–an editor .. especially when I begin to publish the books I intend to soon finish!! ? )

In this being said - I hope you guys understand my point I am trying to portray!!
Though I know I have not told you what my secret weapon is .. I will soon!!
I feel like an angel has fallen on my lap!!!
For the first time in my life I have the belief of what I always knew in life and wished to encounter –and have recently - good honest souls ..that live without jealousy or vindictiveness!!
It is amazing when the door in life opens up and you get this sense of euphoria.. to finally see in real life what is seen on TV as a fairy tale .. to actually happen to you!  I speak in the second person .. cause I am sure many feel as I do .. I want to clarify that everything I have written here is about what I have experienced in the past month .. and  so very grateful for!!!
I promise that I will explain what I mean in detail by this after my competition on November 10th. Which I hope that can attend will be there!!! ?
In my journey as I continue doing what I love .. and hopefully help others through my experiences is what makes life all that much more beautiful!!!
The whole point to this blog .. is to eventually when the time comes .. to tell you all how I have been succeeding in my training!!!  I don’t want to jinx myself so as I promised I will tell you everything after this show.. till then I send you all many smiles for helping me keep motivated .. thank you for spending your time to read- G-D bless you all ?
Stay Healthy Happy and of course keep smiling as you all continue to make me!

SO MY TRAINING IS GOING GREAT!!!!  
I wanted to let you guys know how I have been doing .. especially since you all have been so supportive to me ..and especially since my Competition is coming up in three weeks… And though I am nervous, I am so excited to be around so many fellow bodybuilders soon!!!  I know this might sound silly - but then again I am a tad kookie _ he he … but I am almost feeling withdrawals from not being in a competition .. I truly love the whole process and being around such great people.. it so inspires me to continue to pursue my dream!!!

So back to my workout… Today feeling so sore from my leg workout yesterday (which was great ) .. and the delayed soreness from two days ago from my upper body workout (which was great )– I was In not a physically up to par mood to workout .. though since this morning I kept saying to myself .. "I dont care how I feel -I need to force myself to live up to my words and my own commitment to myself and get my bod in shape!!!"  
So dragged myself to the gym (was getting a bit antsy anyway considering it was a rainy day here in NY and didnt roller-blade.. and when I dont blade I dont get that endorphin fill I need .. so
I HAD TO GO TO THE GYM!!! Got to the gym and thought the best workout for me today would be to mix up a cardio routine .. for one I for sure had no patience and two was exhausted and three thought
it to be the best way to get rid of some of the lactic acid build up in my muscles from my heavy workouts the past two days..
So first were Intervals on the bike, then almost went out of my mind of boredom .. which rarely happens to me .. but I was forced and determined to continue - so I pushed myself beyond my own believable limits..
This is where I can offer my help to those through my own experience .. in which I hope that I do …
MIND OVER MY PHYSICAL FEELING .. we all know this especially me.. however today was a rough one!!!  But no matter how I felt - the determination of proving myself that I can do and look better was
overwhelming and more powerful then the little voice telling me "no you cant do this"!!!
I then remembered how I used to jump rope all  the time.. (and I know we all know how great jumping rope is ) .. and it was like one of those V-8 commercials where I hit myself (not hard ) in the
head and said - duh.. why have I forgotten bout this .. Well I know what you must be thinking .. if I were so tired how could I jump rope .. biking is much easier right !!?? .. Well it didnt hurt that where I was going to
jump rope there just happened to be a cute guy in the room .. he he .. come on now we all need some sort of inspiration .. and for sure enough it worked .. though after he left I continued to jump..
and then pulled out one of those little mini trampolines (which are pretty cool by the way and fun ) and mixed it up for a bit longer .. so it was just that little extra push I needed .. for once I started .. I felt so much better
of course ..
And that is the basis and moral I suppose I should say for todays workout .. that when I dont feel up to "par" for working out .. ALWAYS when I get in the midst of it .. and then of course finish … it ALWAYS
makes me feel better .. and the satisfaction.. well I am sure I need not explain how I felt..
But just to let you guys know if anyone forgot like me .. jumping rope is a great way to change it up .. and at least for me is an incredible cardio workout!!!!  And fun if especially the scenery is cute ..
Thank you for reading and many many smiles to ALL this eve.. debbie

will update later

Hi All .. I noticed that a lot of you have noticed the wonderful pictures that Dan Ray has taken of me .. and I want you to know that He is phenomenal!!
Not only with his photos.. but personality as well!!!  He is a Doll to work with!!  Dont get me wrong the other photographers I have worked with are great and wonderful as well .. but Dan exhumes a precious quality that you feel like you are talking to a dear close friend!!!  In which he is to me!!!
So I wanted to write a quick note before I run  back out to work to thank you all for noticing - and most of all thank Dan for his talented and such professional shots!!
I absolutely intend to be working with him in the future.. and any one with any questions regarding how it is to work with him please feel free to ask .. however
the same things I would say anyone that asks is that is he just one of a kind and such a pleasure to work with.. and by the way .. I had four hours of sleep at that photo shoot .. with no airbrushing… so he does create a bit of magic!!!! (it was the day after the masters show ) Many smiles to Dan .. and of course to all of you!
I also promise to get back to you all.. I have just spent the weekend trying to re-coup my eyes - which are almost good as new!!!  I promise to get back to you all later this evening -
thank you all again for you beautiful and warming words .. G-D bless you all!!!  And Smiles Smiles Smiles !!!!!!