debbie bell’s BodyBlog

As I know I should be proud of myself for accomplishing as much as I have - I am rather disappointed in myself for the way I look in the photos from the past two
shows that I have done!  I know I have looked so much better.. and as happy as I am for placing in the top ten at Pittsburgh - I feel that I could have looked so much
better… I suppose that is the perfectionist in me and knowing that I did not listen to my instincts when it came to what I knew to do as far as working out!  However .. I know
all this is a growing and learning experience.. and through my mistakes it makes me a better person!! So I just wanted to put it out there that I know I can be better and look better..
so that the next show you all see me in I will surprise not only myself:) but you guys as well!!!
You all stay healthy happy and as I keep smiling db.

Hi You guys!!! I want to apologize for not writing in a while.. I have been quite busy competing the past two weekends.  I entered the Team Universe and
then the Masters Nationals in Pittsburg.  I suppose I didn’t want to say much about it for silly superstitious reasons .  
As much as I wanted to speak with you all I tried so hard to stay focussed so that I could do the best that I could be for the shows.
I will say that I have met so many, many wonderful people at both shows, and to think that I wasn’t even going to go to Pittsburgh.. well so glad I did cause
It was such a tremendous experience and I met such good hearted people - real people with great souls!  Its funny I learned something ( something I already
new in my heart), about people.  We are all so similar.. especially us diehard workout people!  When I see someone that I feel might intimidate me I think to myself
that gosh they are better than me so I should not even begin to try to approach them.. or maybe not so much better but to be blunt maybe I am frightened to speak to
them .. which is probably all in the same thinking that they are above me .. better .. or just maybe the little voice in my head (of insecurity) saying that I should not
speak to them cause "who am I to approach them" .   I know you all are thinking how I could express such vulnerable thoughts.. well I believe we all feel this way, and if
we didn’t we wouldn’t be human or work as hard as we do to make our lives better.  I open myself up this way because I know now how silly I have been.
For people have reacted to me in the same way I just described.   The thing is.. is that once someone becomes friendly and open or SMILES to someone… that fear that "I"
have felt diminishes, and what I feared most about that person is just in my head.. and the reality is .. is that that person is the most pure hearted caring person anyone would
ever want to meet!!!  So I hope I have made sense to you all and why I have said this is because of my experience this weekend!!
There are a lot of bad people in this world which is so very unfortunate.. but even the bad people have some reason why they do the things they do .. because I do believe in our
souls we are all good.. However I know there are so many great and wonderful people in the world, and I have had the honor to meet a bunch this weekend.  And feel very lucky to have them in my life now!!
Competing is so much more for me now than just to "get to the next level"  I have allowed myself to enter a world which I could have only dreamed of years ago!!
I will expand on what I mean In the future.. for now I am very pleased to have accomplished what I did in the circumstance in which I had..I know G-D has a plan for all
of us and threw every adventure that I embark upon I am so very grateful every time I pick my bootie up to push myself to the next level.. and Bless all those wonderful
people that are around me!!!!  I am looking forward to my next show with the NPC - once again I do believe in the fate that has brought me here to this site and to the NPC..
and know that I am going to succeed or till then end of my life trying to do so .. but in the most incredible way ..
I look forward to speaking to you all soon and sorry for not being around .. but I will be for a while now .. I bless you all .. stay Healthy Happy and as I always keep smiling:)

With such incredible people I have encountered here .. behind the scenes of a screen .. such as a computer.. people seem to actually speak the truth
The truth in which one might not say in person for fear of feeling to vulnerable!  Why I say this is because I know for the same fact as I have been in the
same situation!  However the mere fact that people speak what is on their minds and the truth.. for what they feel is simply quite beautiful..
But the truth of innocence.. I speak about not the fantasies that I would prefer not to talk about again from my last blog!!.. But Honesty from people
that I have not ever EVER.. seen before .. such soulful human beings.. and I am sure you all maybe understand what I mean.. for us body builders.. workout diehards.
have this passion .. sensitivity more so than many others - and mind you that is not to say that others have no soul - what I mean is that us bodybuilders are so hard on ourselves
– so hard.. well I think you know what I mean .. for the reason at the moment I am so very tired .. but so much wanted to bless you all and let you all know how wonderful and amazing
you are.. I had to do so before I fall asleep.. I love you all for your comments.. I truly so do .. It brings tears to my eyes for some of the comments I have received.. and
you all are ALWAYS in my thoughts.. and I do apologize.. for my inconsistencies.. being I am a few days out and have much to prepare for .. but I promise I have so much to say to you
all and .. well gosh.. as embarrassing as it is .. still haven’t figure my way around perfectly this site ( hope you all forgive me for that) .. but I WILL get back to ALL .. and with G-D’s help
and prayers .. not only to do my best .. but better I will not only prove to myself but to - what I will tell you after - I hope I succeed .. for It means so more much to me than just
.. well .. I suppose I should not say anything of the sort for not jinxing myself.. but if anyone reads this all I ask is to pray for me .. me to do MY best.. for that is all I can do and ask for .. and I do believe that that is all it should be.. so if for some reason - my tooth falls out .. he he .. or I get a huge knock on my head .. then its out of my hands .. other than that .. all the prayer I can ask is that I go out there and do what I know best.. which is ME !!! I LOVE YOU ALL  and thank you so very much .. take care .. and of course dont forget to smile db:)
P.S. being I just re- read this .. me myself thinks its sounds .. kooky.. well I have decided to leave it .. for I THINK you all know what kind of mind I am in at the moment .. and I promise to clarify it later.. bless you and have a wonderful .. wonderful day

Hi everyone.. for my last blog of this week I wanted to not leave it off with as feisty as my last one.  
I thought of erasing my last blog for the fear that people would think ill of my reaction, however the opposite happened..
So I decided to leave it and hope that I will not receive any nasty messages anymore.. which I havent .. so I suppose there is something to say for speaking up!
I am competing in Team Universe this weekend and have been working my bootie tootie off!!
It is very important to me this show.. not just for vanity reasons but for much — much more!!
Which I will explain next week!!
I will say this to anyone that has or is interested in competing or just getting healthier - SLEEP is the most important
thing that anyone can do for themselves!!! Unfortunately I have much trouble doing that which makes me a tad cranky at times and most
defiantly not very good for the body- So I am going to attempt to take a nap after I submit this message!:):):)- then go workout again
So without further adieu  - thank you all again .. and I wish you all health, happiness.. and of course as I always keep smiling
Debbie

To all those that know what I mean…
Please - I love this site and all the kind individuals that have left me such kind words!
However.. I would greatly appreciate it if those that are going to leave private messages that are on the border line of being pornographic, please DONT
do so .. for ONE.  does not make you look very good and TWO it is quite impolite!!!!!!
So If there are any misunderstanding of what you all know of me I will tell you this now — I absolutely do not- DO NOT appreciate any thing in a disrespectful manner .. just remember the words you speak to me could be spoken to your mother, sister or child at some point.. and I am sure you would not stand for that as they wouldn’t!!!
So I will ask kindly once again .. If you think you are on some porno site You are very much wrong!!  At least with me you are!!
It would be quite unfortunate that I would have to delete my site because of such rude and perverted comments!!!!  So please bite your tongue prior to sending me your private messages.. or any messages therefore of that manner!!!!
COMMENTS LIKE THIS BY :
"dont know why but blonds are so hot" by alainramirez13@hotmail.com
"you are a such hot blond"
I do not want to hear the fantasies of sick perverted thoughts .. so please do not leave me nasty comments
thank you .. I wish you all well and hope you find your way in life!!!

ok.. so I am slightly addicted to this site .. go figure .. one who hates siting down for longer than a period of five minutes.. !!!
I can only suppose that all your positive feedback is magnetically pulling me to sit down and see what is going on– he he ..
I absolutely love this organization .. and people I have encountered through this site!  ( Well of course I dont LOVE everyone in the koo koo sense
but I do .. I know you guys know what I mean .. joking aside! )
So before I lay my head down to sleep I wanted to wish all sweet dreams!  I hope you all dream of whatever it is that makes you all calm and happy -
for me it is the ocean’s sound.. hearing the wind blowing through the sheer curtains that cover my window.. and the beautiful silence of the evening crickets..
ok .. hope I didnt sound to dorky .. :):) but it is just what I vision.. and I wish you all the same peacefulness!
bless you all .. db..  and dont forget to smile

I want to thank everyone who has viewed my site, and the extraordinary compliments I have been given.  You all have no idea how wonderful they make me feel, as well
as so motivating!  It truly touches me to see so many people appreciate the hard work I do for myself - and others as well!  Through this site I have gotten so much more inspiration
for my drive to succeed and contiune to be my best!  It also has inforced the trueness that I have always believed that eventually (soon I hope) I will be able to help people learn how to live their lives
healthier and happier - competing as well as just living their lives to the fullest to make their dreams come true!!!!
So I thank you with infinity!!!
I would also like to apologize to all those that I have been unable to get back to - for I am working very hard to focus on my upcoming event which is July 13th and 14th - Team Universe!
I take competing very serious!  Dont get me wrong I absolutely enjoy the process and the event - if I didn’t I wouldn’t be in it !  Fitness is my world and competiting is something I have been working toward my entire life!  I am so honored to actually have reached this point - and worked so hard to get here.  Sometimes I have to pinch myself to believe that I have acomplished so much!  That I am not dreaming — and I am not:):)!  Which means I must work even harder !
This upcoming competition is very important, and I plan to be at MY BEST!   The main reason I am explaining this to ALL is because I would like to apologize if I have not been able to return any messages, got back to anyone, and most of all thank you ALL!  For I am now just concentrating on this competition - not even working!  As Arnold had mentioned in his video - You do whatever
it takes - (not sure if that is the exact quote,  though pretty sure it is close ! )… So I am doing just that … so my time is limited and I want to stay focused and most of all calm and of course HAPPY !
So I hope you all understand and except my leave for the time.. and know that you are all in my heart, and will be there when I am up on stage!  Thank you again.
Stay Healthy, Happy, and always, always as I keep Smiling:)!
Debbie Bell ! Bless you ALL!