deannakae’s BodyBlog

I just got done with my workout….today was lower body and Abs and then i did 30 minutes of cardio.  I know I need to increase cardio,  but one day at a time.  I feel great and I usually do when i am at the gym…..its my time that i dont worry about kids, work, bills or anything else…..JUST ME!!  Thats why when i am there i can let everything else go.  It feels good to be back!!

Sorry this entry is late, but my girls had VB games last night.   I hit the gym yesterday and did a full upper body workout.  Gosh it felt good to hit the gym and just let all my stress from the previous week go!!!  Still need to work on upping my cardio (which i dislike very much….lol) I know that is one of the main ways i am going to drop this weight.   Although I got on the scale this morning and I am down 6lbs not quite sure how, but it works for me….lol!!  Yesterday as i was starting my workout it for some odd reason dawned on me that in 10 weeks I will be 40….so I want to be down at least 25lbs before that day comes.  Remember I want to be hot and sexy in my 40’s (still cant believe i am going to be 40, but at least i dont feel even close to being that, i guess i have that in my favor…lol)  Eating went pretty well yesterday, stayed healthy, but of course have the caffeine headache from my downfall over the weekend….those caffeine withdrawals are the worst.  Today will be lower body along with cardio, will let u know how that goes later tonight.  Have a great day everyone!!!

Okay….its time…its been a rough weekend both mentally and physically.  I know i can do this if i put my mind to it.  I think tonight i will do a few things at home, since the gym here closes at 1pm on the weekends (not very convenient for those of us that work on the weekends).  I guess if i had to tell you one thing  about myself it is that I am my own worst enemy.  Why?? i dont know, just am.  Anyways enough of negativity and onward to being more positive.  I deserve it!!

Okay the last few days have been rough on my mental status….I guess you could say its been my own pity party (but i do have good reasons).  But instead of taking my frustration out at the gym I turned to food for my comfort.   Sometimes i am my own worst enemy!!  I know that food is not the answer, but until i get myself totally focused its hard for me to lean the other way.  Do I want to be this heavy know….it totally disgusts me that I have let myself get this way.  So today is the day that I take my life back!!  No more making sacrifices for everyone else, its time for me!!  I am writing this after I just went to Wendys and drowned my sorrows in a meal…..NOW after doing it I ask myself "why"?  So now I am going to go for a walk and let everything go and know that this is the beginning of me.  So back on the workout wagon, refocusing, and knowing that i am doing this for me and no one else. 

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