deanna7272’s BodyBlog

I am really not surprised, but I am not satisfied…  I did lose 3 pounds this summer, but my measurements are really the same… I actually made little progress this summer when I had hoped for leaps and bounds… URGH…

I can’t wait to meet with Andy so he can kick my butt, make my changes, and teach me what I need to do…  It’s easy to read about this stuff, but not as easy to impliment, so I need that EXTRA push.

I am getting ready to go back to school (I teach) and I know at that point I will be on a better schedule.  I am not eating as well as I was, my supplements took the back burner this week, and I have done 1/2 the cardio I usually do since I returned from the beach (which was VERY nice, by the way…)

I need a kick in the pants right now… No one around me competes, the girls at the gym (I love them), but they are okay with the status quo…  I AM NOT…   I WANT TO BE BETTER, I WANT TO BE LEAN, I WANT TO COMPETE, AND I WANT TO WIN…

Okay, my rant is done, I am heading to the gym…  Later…

I met with my trainer, we set a date to sit and figure out what my "path" is going to be!!!  I can’t tell you how excited I am!!!  We are meeting at the end of August (schedule conflicts for both of us) and I can’t wait. 

I have been seeing some positive changes in my physique over the last month or so…  I have been feeling like I am leaning down a bit (WOO HOO)…  I haven’t done measurements since like May, so next week is the time.  I can’t wait to see the differences.  Weight is about the same, so I must be changing somehow!!

I went to the NPC Teen, Collegiate, and Master’s in Pittsburgh last night.  Great shoe, well what I saw of it!  I went with people that as soon as the Figure was over, wanted to leave.  FORTY BUCKS and I saw HALF of a show…  Urgh!!!!  It’s a "situation" that I was in, I went with my Hubby’s ex-wife…  I drove and she and the new boyfriend had to drive home (2.5 hours) and I had to LEAVE…  I learned…  Enough of the soap opera…

I have been doing the new workout for a couple weeks, I LOVE it…  It’s working well for me.  Monday:  Chest/Tris, Wed: Back/Bis, Thurs:  Shoulders/Traps and Sat: Legs….  I do 1 hour of cardio daily (and sometimes take a walk in the evening) at least 6 days a week.

 Heading to bed…. Hope everyone is happy, healthy, wealthy, and wise!!!

Well, today is the big day, my birthday!!!  I am…. ummmmm…. well…. 35!!!  Unbelievable!!  I just realize now that when you are young, 35 is ANCIENT…  Now, it’s here and I am kicking it’s ASS!!!

I feel better now at 35, than I did at 25…  25 was TERRIBLE….  26 was physically bad, 30 was emotionally trying (the ex), and now at 35, I am living the life…

I am happily married to a very supportive and caring man that I have NO IDEA how I stumbled upon!!  I truly believe he is a blessing…  He loves me for me and wouldn’t change me for the world…

I have been in relationships where my partner would detest the "gym"…  I wasn’t "allowed" to go…  The men were there for "one reason"…  So, I fell for the bull and quit the gym… 

Well… Yes, the men ARE there for ONE reason (and that reason SURE AIN’T me…lol)  It’s the same reason the women are there… We are there to better ourselves by way of our physical well being, which in turn, helps us mentally, socially, and emotionally…

I am taking 35 by the horns and showing it just who’s in charge…  ME…

THERE’S NO STOPPING ME NOW!!! 

Well, I took the day off of training… My glutes are STILL sore…  I have a tough time sitting… Imagine my demise when I drink TONS of water…  It’s ridiculous..lol  I know that I could have done my upper body, but I decided that with the way my schedule falls, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday/Saturday split may work this week… 

I have been searching for videos on HOW TO POSE…  If anyone has any suggestions, please let me know…  There’s no sense in WAITING to learn how to pose when I can learn and practice now…  I know it seems like such a long way away, but…  It’s not… I am starting to get worried about shoes, suits, posing, trainers, etc…  I know, too far ahead….

I am feeling a little bloated today… I didn’t work out, so that makes it worse… I did see the people that I bought my Jeep off of (I bought it last November) today and they didn’t recognize me… HOW COOL IS THAT??  I was excited…

The birthday is next week… BLAH… I’ll be 35…  It hasn’t hit me because I feel better than I have for SEVERAL years, this is good…  Anyway, I am turning in… I will update my training process tomorrow!!!

 Good night….

Alright, so I did my first leg workout today… Holy Cow…  I am NOT going to be able to walk tomorrow… and I did it to MYSELF…lol

I did lunges for the 1st time in about 10 years!!!!  Hurt like CRAZY afterwards (a good hurt)…  I did lunges, extensions, seated curls, lying curls, and calf raises….  I can’t do press because of the back so I "improvised"…  Everything was 3 sets of 12 to 15 (depending on what it was)…  As a first day, this was GREAT…

 I hope that I am doing this split thing right… I have that thing going on that I should be hitting the different muscles MORE because I have been doing the reconditioning whole body thing…  How many times a week should I be hitting each "part"???  I am doing 3 days weights and cardio 6 days a week…  I split like Biceps, triceps, and shoulders one day… Chest and back another… and legs… 

Is that okay for a "starting" split routine?  I always did back/bi’s… Chest/tri’s… legs… but I was encouraged to do it the way I above stated… 

Is that okay?  SHould I bve hitting different muscles more?  URGH… lol

Well, to end… I am not going to be able to walk tomorrow = good workout…lol

I have been saying that I want to compete in a figure competition… That is a long term goal that I have set for myself.  The short term goal is to be able to transform my body to where I am not afraid to be in a bathing suit (not just a bikini….)  In all that, I will have to transform my MIND first.

MOST of my friends don’t have a clue what’s going on with me.  There are special people out there that know where I am in my head and where I need to be.  I don’t know if it’s a self esteem thing, or like a BDD issue. 

Even though I have lost 30 pounds, I still feel like I did BEFORE the loss… Insecurity is one of the strongest feelings that I have felt…  The worry that not just the shoes will hinder the competition, but will I be able to pull off the "beauty" part… Here I sit thinking… I need my teeth done, an augmentation, hair extensions, etc…  I chuckle at most of those, but they are definite concerns of mine…

I had an awesome conversation with Valerie Waugaman and she told me that the Pros, are just normal people… To me THEY are the epitome of beauty (where do I fit in that group?????  lol)  I looked at her befores, and yes, she WAS a normal person, but I look up to her being so successful, positive, and inspiring to so many…  I want to be just like her when I grow up….lol 

Who knows… Maybe one day it will all come together and I’ll be on top of the world….  As I tell those around me… If you see my wobble, make sure I don’t fall down…. 

Still at 150, ankle is STILL swollen, week has been CRAZY with my summer job starting…  Was away from the gym Tuesday (Patrick’s 8th grade graduation) and Friday… maybe getting back to it will kick up the metabolism?  My eating patterns are changing and I am taking in about 200 MORE calories than usual, but not with BAD foods…  I know that I am going to have to adjust my foods (timewise) and see what I can do with my body.

 I read so much, but nothing seems to "sink in"… I get overwhelmed, but I know that I have time to straighten things out…  I REALLY want to take a Nutrition course AND get my certification, but I don’t when I could find the time to get it all in… URGH… I need about 3 more hours in the day….lol

Busy weekend ahead workout in the AM, softball game in afternoon, bachelorette party in the PM… Loooong day…  Sunday is church, workout, cousin’s grad party, and take Patrick back to Cleveland…  Monday, back to work… BLAH…

Be strong!

Congrats to Valerie Waugaman for taking the Colorado Figure Pro….  If you haven’t had the change to meet her, you are missing out on a quality woman… I admire her purpose, her "figure" stuff is second… Empowerment, education, etc are a few of her goals…  Yea, Go Val…

 She is absolutely my inspiration and motivation…

Well, I decided that I was strong enough (and my ankle was strong enough) to play softball for my church.  Last year I could only be the book keeper because I was still in a brace… 

It was the first inning, we’re out in the field and I survived.  I did it!!!  I didn’t fall down, I was feeling GREAT…  I didn’t get up until the bottom of the 3rd inning and I went to bat.  NERVOUS…  I had not played in about 15 years (competitively)…  I got up, looked at the first pitch and swung at the second…  WOO HOO, I got a single with a shot OVER the shortstop’s head!!!  I ran to first and could feel the right leg lagging, but I DID IT!!!

Another batter got up and advanced me to second!!!  I was LOVING IT… FINALLY, back to normal…  Next batter up hit to left center… I was running to third and….

 WHOOPS!!!!!!!

I rolled the right ankle (the nerve damage on that I have been working on rebuilding!!!!!!!)  Holy Toledo, I was nauseated….  I made it half way and walked the rest… They called in a runner for me and I hobbled to the bench… 

Ready to throw up, I sobbed (a little) as the ankle started to blow up…  I then realized that it could POSSIBLY be broken and I screwed up the LAST 5 motnhs or so at the gym and now I would be in a cast…  I SWORE that IF that was the case, Ricky would have to lock the door to keep me out…  I’d be on the stepper WITH a CAST… I didn’t care…

Well….  I DON’T believe that it’s broken, so THAT’S a good thing, but I am hurting and swollen…. I will possibly head to Urgent Care in the morning if it’s not better….  With the numbness in there, it just scares me that something COULD be wrong…

Anyway… Just to let you know… I am NOT playing softball for the rest of the season… BLAH…

Yea, did you see it???  I hit the inevitable plateau… Don’t get me wrong, I KNEW it was going to happen, so now it’s time to change things up, I guess…  I will be meeting with my trainer next week to discuss the diet and what I need to add, delete, or just rearrange.  I can’t wait for that…  I REALLY didn’t want to regimented YET, but you gotta do what you gotta do, right?

I did the measurements this morning also…  I am surprised that they haven’t changed much (I was looking for that belly to go down more, but it didn’t)…  I hold a lot of weight in my midsection… If anyone has suggestions on how to lose it, please PM me, or something…  I know that it’s probably the LAST place I will lose and it has A LOT to do with genetics, but URGH… I have always had a gut and I want to change it!!!

Heading to the gym, full workout today!! WOO HOO!!!