deanna7272’s BodyBlog

Well, a lot has changed in the past couple days… I KNOW why I was having a bad day the other day… It was a bad time, if you know what I mean, I was holding water, etc…  I have been feeling great, having great workouts, and just kind of feel on top of the world. 

I have been fighting a cold (I AM WINNING) with Zicam (yuck) and Zinc Lozenges….  I can’t get sick… I have plans this weekend to go to the Lakewood show and I CAN’T be sick…lol

Anyway, I am feling good, making GREAT strides, and I hope to only continue with my progress… Wish me luck…

I have had about a 22 or 23 pound weight loss, I am seeing results everywhere, feeling great… BUT… today at the gym, I decided to pull up the arms of my shirt as I did my shoulder press and I was like…. "Where in the heck did my shoulders go???"  I thought that my shoulders were forming and today I lost them…  I was facing the mirror and could SEE my shoulders, but the looks of my arms were like DELUSIONAL as compared to my ACTUAL arms…

I just kind of started DOUBTING my progress… WHY would this happen?  IS it "normal" to get these feelings, or am I just expecting too much, too soon?  Does this ever happen to any of you???

Well, I hit 158 this morning.  This is huge for me because I haven’t been in the 150’s for about 4 or 5 years…  I was soooo excited…  I went to the gym and there were a few friends there and saw Ricky give me the old HIGH FIVE for my loss…  Another friend sat and talked with me about what my goals are and we discussed getting certified for personal training.  It’s nice that my friends know my goals and that they have faith in me and that they KNOW I can achieve the goals that I have set for myself…

Anyway, I talked with Ricky about the Lakewood show and he said that he would walk me backstage and show me what to expect and what happens back there.  How cool is that????  He is wonderful…  I can’t wait to see what goes on…lol  (Like a kid in a candy store, I sm…lol)

I also talked with him about adding flaxseed oil to my diet.  He said that it’s a great idea, told me how to take it, and we both can’t wait to see how it works for me.   I took it several years ago (ONCE) and I can STILL feel that junk going down my throat…lol  I hope this time is better… I guess having a goal helps too…

Okay, I am going to rest here, I hope you all are having a wonderful and safe St. Patrick’s Day….

Oh, you wouldn’t believe the REST of my day AFTER my post yesterday… It involves $700, forgotten homework, lost hubcap cover thingy, and a non running car for sale…. URGH!!!  Needless to say, I needed to hit the gym on the way home for some cardio stress relievers….

Today, I had a headache this morning, but all in all, good day so far….  I will hit the gym after track practice… I wanted to cancel because it’s raining (and it’s JUNIOR HIGH) but the other coach insisted…lol 

Speaking of… He ticked me off responding to an email that I wrote (concerning the cancellation of practice due to the rain and that fact that we have to let them have ample time to call parents to make sure they have someone home with them) like this… "I know DEE DEE, they are JUNIOR HIGH.. I KNOW that we need to have them call their PARENTS early…." BLAH, don’t PATRONIZE me A-HOLE…  URGH… 

Okay, now you know I am mad, I USUALLY don’t talk like that (OR put it in pront.. I’ll NEVER admit to what goes through my head….lol)

Now I get to go spend 2 hours with this guy…  Lucky me….

I am feeling something… I don’t know if it’s a "fat day" or just a little "stressed"…  I am just feeling a little "off" today.  I haven’t made it to the gym since Saturday.  I ran Sunday and yesterday my tush hurt, (from Sunday’s running) so I took the day off, thinking that it would help…lol  I just feel like mush today…

I was up late last night working on my night class stuff and didn’t get enough sleep.  The class ends tonight, so I figure it’ll be restful sleep tonight.  I USUALLY don’t require much sleep, but I think I am feeling it now…

I MAY hit the gym on the way home from class… At least to do some cardio…  Maybe a day off or two will give my body enough energy to kick start the metabolism…  Who knows….

So, for all of you that have EVER felt this way, you know what I am talking about when I say that I feel like a "fat day" is coming on….

Well, I went out the the high school and ran/walked 3 miles yesterday.  Now I have been hitting the treadmill and the stairmaster,  but I had no idea that I would be this sore. 

I am taking the day off, just to give the glutes a chance to rest…lol  I was at track practice today thinking "What did I do to myself???" 

The tookas hurts and I am resting.  I have a ton to do before my last night class (tomorrow night)… WOO HOO can’t wait until I don’t have to worry about that too…

I hated to have my first BLOG be this one, but I think it NEEDS to be…  It hits my heart HARD and I know it’s going to be one of the most crucial statements concerning my future….   

 Here it is….

So, I am at the grocery store and I come around the corner and run into a guy that used to date my friend’s mom (back in the day, we were like in 6th grade)… Anyway, over the years wehn I saw this guy, we always spoke and recalled "memories"…

I asked him is he knew where my friend was now and he said that he wasn’t sure…. He said, "We were actually JUST talking about you, not too long ago."  I was flattered UNTIL I heard the story….  He didn’t say WHO was talking, but my name was brought up.  He said… "Do you remember the song that Chris and Mike used to sing about you?"  I was like.. "No, not that I recall"….  Well THEN it hit the FAN….  He goes… "It went something like…. Big Fat Dee, Big Fat Dee… and then they used to rhyme words with your name?"  I was FLOORED…. 

Now imagine… I walked around the store and EVEYRONE that I saw (that I knew) was complimenting me on how I look… My hair, my size, my clothes, etc… and then THAT!!!!  I did walk around the corner and ran into someone else from town and they complimented me and I told them what he had said….  She was floored… She was like, "well then my compliments should mean MORE after that comment"… And they did… Thanks Debbie, it meant a lot….

I don’t remember kids being rude to me about my weight growing up… I mean my cousins called me fat, but they were "allowed" they were family…lol  (I would just then beat them up and they’s apologize….)  I don’t remember people being cruel.  Maybe they were and I just THOUGHT it was MY insecurities…

MAYBE that’s why my weight has ALWAYS been an issue with me.  Maybe I suppressed those comments and feelings until I was an adult?  I know that kids are cruel, but holy moly….    

So, if I have put that jingle in your head, I am sorry… It’s in mine and I think it’s forever BURNED in my brain…. 

I am sure you’ll be hearing more on this subject… I am heart broken….