deanna7272’s BodyBlog

Well, tomorrow will be the end of my 6th week dieting.  The first week was tough, getting used to the weighing (which I did INCORRECTLY for about 4 weeks) and only lost minimal weight… It was my TOM too, so I know that had something to do with it..lol Anyway…. After learning that you weigh food BEFORE you cook it, I dropped 5 pounds in a week…lol  Hard to believe what an extra 4 oz will do to you…  I stopped with the sauces to dip  beef in also… I was using sauces to make it moist because of my terrible time management… I have sooo learned…..

 I have dropped some bodyfat (I will update tomorrow) but I sometimes wonder if what I have done is enough…  I guess it’s the nature of the beast….  I am going to try to do some measurements also (just basically waist and such…) 

My workouts changed this past week… Andy wants me to lighten up and more reps… I didn’t realize how difficult that would be after lifting heavy (for me anyway) and trying to build those muscles…lol  It’s been a trip and I am sooooo excited to get through this…  It’s like I am excited for the day to come but apprehensive to the fact that I worry way too much…. I know, it’s in Andy’s hands….

 I am feeling great though… I feel much more lean that I have in… well… in forever… I have a little definition and it’s all new to me… I love my new bod…ha ha ha…. Inside and out is changing and it’s soooo wonderful…  I love looking at my back before getting into the tub…lol  How goofy huh?  I love the fact that I need to go shopping for new clothes (my WALLET doesn’t, but oh well)… My $$$ actually goes for food now and that’s about it…

Alright, I just thought I would update a bit… I won’t have anything concrete until tomorrow, but I felt the need to write…  I am feeling great, things are going great in my life….

 I FEEL ALIVE AGAIN….

Well, today is the 1 year anniversary of my sister Toni Ann’s death.  They "officially" made it the 20th, when they found her, but with the circumstances behind her death, I know in my heart it was today.

So many things have gone on in my mind since her death.  Anger, sadness, loneliness, guilt, pain, and confusion.  I truly do not know how to deal with the loss of my sister.  She was hurting, but the way she left us, it hurts to this day that she couldn’t see HOW much she was loved and how much we worried about her. She felt it was "control" more or less that we wanted to make her into someone she wasn’t. She had all the control in the world and made the wrong choices.

She had good friends and loved ones that HAD to back away from her because we had no other choice.  We could NOT continue to see her KILL herself slowly (not only in a physical sense, but mentally and emotionally, she was a trainwreck) Her other "friends" didn’t try to pull her up, they pushed her down so far that she couldn’t SEE the top.  They USED her for anything that she had, could have, or wanted in her life. THEY SUCKED THE LIFE OUT OF HER.  I have resentment toward a chosen few that will remain nameless, but they know who they are and I need not mention their names, THEY ARE NOT WORTH MY BREATH.

I wanted nothing more than to see my sister happy.  She supported me through everything that I did. ALWAYS had encouraging words and I overlooked them from time to time.  What I wouldn’t give to have her supporting me as I walk up onstage in April.  She was one that ALWAYS had a compliment even on my shittiest days  and I overlooked them…. I know she loved me and I only wish she could have seen how much I DID love her.

I love and miss you Toni Ann….

Love Always,

Your Seester,

Lips….

Tomorrow will be one week on my contest diet and things are going well.  I am staying OFF the scale (cheated and checked once, and I like what I saw..lol) and I feel great. 

The weekends do seem to be a little more difficult getting all my foods in, but I am not having a hard time sticking to it, I HAVE GOALS, DARN IT….lol

My workouts are going well, I seem a lot stronger than I thought.  I wasn’t pushing myself as hard, I suppose…

I can’t wait to see my changes, it’s the WAIT that’s killing me….lol

Okay, so I was up WAY TOO LATE last night which put a damper on this morning’s cardio.  I got up and had some difficulties with the dvd player and I was late and decided that I’ll just do my cardio later.. I went back to bed.

I did my cardio this evening BOTH hours…  That’s not going to happen again if I can help it… I have blisters and my back is sore…

My foods aren’t bad per se… I like my foods, but they aren’t agreeing with my belly.  It’s miserable right about mid afternoon…  I am going to do a process of elimination tomorrow and find out what the problem is…

I am making my dinner now… I’m tired, cranky, sore and I have cramps to boot…lol  AND IT’S ONLY DAY 2!!!!

Stay tuned….lol

Okay, so I was up WAY TOO LATE last night which put a damper on this morning’s cardio.  I got up and had some difficulties with the dvd player and I was late and decided that I’ll just do my cardio later.. I went back to bed.

I did my cardio this evening BOTH hours…  That’s not going to happen again if I can help it… I have blisters and my back is sore…

My foods aren’t bad per se… I like my foods, but they aren’t agreeing with my belly.  It’s miserable right about mid afternoon…  I am going to do a process of elimination tomorrow and find out what the problem is…

I am making my dinner now… I’m tired, cranky, sore and I have cramps to boot…lol  AND IT’S ONLY DAY 2!!!!

Stay tuned….lol

Well, I survived my first day on the diet AND with the new cardio plan…  I did my first hour of cardio at about 4:45 this morning and the second hour was after a GREAT shoulder workout!!!  I FEEL GREAT SO FAR!!!

I did. kind of, mess up today… I made my beef for lunch… measured it out and cooked it up…  Reread that.. measured THEN cooked.. NOT GOOD… Somewhere down the line, I lost 4 oz of beef!!!!  I am new at this (well, kinda,… I’ve been doing it wrong the whole time…lol)  Anway, other than that and not knowing how to cook Tilapia…lol  (noticing a theme here???)  I am not a cook, chef, or even a good microwaver…lol

Well, I am sore, tired, and ready to hit the sack… One day under my belt and 115 more to go!!! 

I just got back from bootcamp and I got my diet, workouts pretty much stay the same, and my "look" has changed…lol  As you see, I  updated my measurements today and my weight.  I went up about 8 pounds (which I THINK was wrong the last time and I think I only went up 2, but that’s another story…)  Anyway, I am taking it easy for the next 2 days in "prep" for what’s to come…

 I am so excited to have my eating plan.. I was excited because Andy B asked if I liked chicken and tuna, which I replied a happy "YEA!!!"  Well, I have NO CHICKEN OR TUNA in my meal plan…lol  Oh well, maybe a girl will be lucky and get some added chicky soon…lol  I’m gonna miss my cluckers….

I am going to "bone up" on my posing dvd’s… I have hoarded them long enough… I need to get the shoes on and PRACTICE, PRACTICE,PRACTICE…  Heck, I have NO IDEA how to pose, I’m just winging it now…lol  Just wonder when I’ll be brave enough to get into a suit???

I will be posting more on here, so keep an eye out for the changes… I have high hopes, I just need to fulfill my expectations…

I just got back from bootcamp and I got my diet, workouts pretty much stay the same, and my "look" has changed…lol  As you see, I  updated my measurements today and my weight.  I went up about 8 pounds (which I THINK was wrong the last time and I think I only went up 2, but that’s another story…)  Anyway, I am taking it easy for the next 2 days in "prep" for what’s to come…

 I am so excited to have my eating plan.. I was excited because Andy B asked if I liked chicken and tuna, which I replied a happy "YEA!!!"  Well, I have NO CHICKEN OR TUNA in my meal plan…lol  Oh well, maybe a girl will be lucky and get some added chicky soon…lol  I’m gonna miss my cluckers….

I am going to "bone up" on my posing dvd’s… I have hoarded them long enough… I need to get the shoes on and PRACTICE, PRACTICE,PRACTICE…  Heck, I have NO IDEA how to pose, I’m just winging it now…lol  Just wonder when I’ll be brave enough to get into a suit???

I will be posting more on here, so keep an eye out for the changes… I have high hopes, I just need to fulfill my expectations…

This weekend I will attend my first "Bodybuilding Bootcamp"…  I am so excited, not so much about being in front of people in a bikini, but the start of my "journey" to competition.  I think with my first day, I will post more often with my progress…

I am ready to get through my plateau and get on to bigger and better things!!! 

Wish me luck!!

This weekend I will attend my first "Bodybuilding Bootcamp"…  I am so excited, not so much about being in front of people in a bikini, but the start of my "journey" to competition.  I think with my first day, I will post more often with my progress…

I am ready to get through my plateau and get on to bigger and better things!!! 

Wish me luck!!