dbmg17’s BodyBlog

And so we are in the new year and with it comes new resolutions and re-newed vigor to achieve my goals. I’ve had some set-backs in the last four weeks. Mind-numbing headaches plagued my workouts for a while. I was taking high energy supps to help boost fat loss. Combined with the removal of my Blood Pressure meds, this was almost lethal. I couldn’t imagine my head hurting more than it did. Sometimes to the point of almost blacking out. I was experimenting with taking BP meds and breathing properly, and then eventually cutting my energy supps completely. The headaches finally subsided. I was also off of work for a week as my wife and vacationed at our beach house and I cheated sickly. I still hit the gym while I was there, and I did very little damage, but none the less I feel bad for having done it.

 I know now with my goal date quickly approaching (FEB.4) that I’m not going to make my goal weight. I would need to lose more than a pound a day to do so. On Feb. 5 I plan to make a new goal for the summer season. I’m hoping to look at least a little better by the time summer rolls around so I don’t feel like a pig on the beach. I know I look a hell of a site better than last year, but it just isn’t enough.

After fighting with plateaus and cheat days and motivational losses, I’m finally on a forward roll and gaining speed. The day after I signed up on this site I gained one pound to a whopping 384, and now I’m at an even 300.

 I have more energy, my body feels better, and I’m becoming more forward in my personality which is usually very reserved. I attend a gym in addition to working out at home. I take a slew of supps that help loads in the fat loss/muscle gain war. And I’m finding less cheat days and more healthy choices in my diet.

I can’t wait to see how I am at my one year anniversary. Roughly 9-10 weeks away.

I have been going strong now for 8 months and 22 days. I am down 75 pounds to date, and I’m finding it tougher to lose weight as my muscle gains increase.

I’m still having erratic workout days. One here, one there, occasionally two days in a row. My cardio is two days or less most weeks, and I’m cheating more often on my diet. My motivation is sinking regardless of my weightloss.

I go to a gym when I’m down at our beach house, and when I look in the mirrors the pumps look good and my muscles stand out more. It’s a nice sign of improvement.

 So why do I feel so bad about how I look?

I’m now at 118 days and -54 pounds. I feel like it’s going so slow but I know its not. My stomach is still not reducing the way I’d like it to. Due to my abdominal hernia, my ab workouts are limited. My ability to bench press is also very limited. I’ve cheated a few times lately, and it hasn’t had any effect on the rate of my weight loss, but it has a huge effect on my self esteem. I need some new ways to pump myself up and keep my motivation, the music isn’t cutting it anymore. And the more I get compliments, the more I find myself relaxing. I’ve been trying to find a bodybuilder with some of the same personality traits I have to kind of emulate in order to have some sort of model of growth and so far Fouad Abiad I think is the guy. He’s early in his pro career but I think he has the best physique of the up and comers. The guy I think is the biggest, whom I also think is overlooked is Dennis Wolf, but I don’t want to be that big.

 I’ve read that following pros is a bad route until you get the type of physique to hang with them, but I’m trying to start somewhere, and I am lack of a real gym, a partner, or any real guidance.