strength
There is no way to fully describe how I have been feeling over the last few months. This journey has been a struggle and who would have thought that I would have to have so much strength to get what I want? I don’t me physical strength…I mean mental strength. My mind plays these really bad games with me and makes me feel like I should just be happy with the way that I am….I just can’t do that.
When I started my journey I was 189lbs. This is more than I have ever weighed but I just could not let myself get to 190lbs. It was to close to 200lbs.
I have heard some people talk about their weight and how they weigh as much as they did when they were pregnant. When I was pregnant I was 118lbs when I had my daughter…that mean that right now I am 46lbs heavier than I was at my highest pregnancy weight. That’s just crazy. I have lost 25lbs so far. I have lost it slow 1-2lbs a week but even on a bad week I can maintain the weight I have lost. This is a big step for me. I also have come so far that I don’t want to ruin the progress that I have made. This is a big change in my thinking. I would usually just say “I had a great week so I can cheat” that gets me nowhere fast. I know from experience.
I am finally ready to make the right changes and it feels great. I went to they gym this morning and I no longer feel out of place. I am there to make progress on my body and I am learning to love myself and my body again. This is a big change for me. I have not been happy with my body in about 6 or 7 years. That’s a long time to be unhappy with my weight. I was never ready to make real changes until now.
Have a productive day 
June 12, 2009 at 10:18 am
Sounds like you’re on the right track. This fitness thing is a journey. It doesn’t happen over night, but with patience and effort, it’s possible to achieve amazing things. Seems like you are on your way to doing just that.
Keep up the great work!
June 12, 2009 at 4:22 pm
I hear you on the pregnancy weight. We gain so much and then lose it. My highest weight when I was pregnant was 160 pounds, and now my weight is 153..that’s crazy too. With my first pregnancy I weighed 142 pounds!
I like your attitude, and you have a great mindset. Yes, we are doing great on this journey but it really is not an excuse to overeat on the weekends. You’ve got this!