dawnr1101’s BodyBlog

I am going to post up new progress pictures is about a week or two. I am a little scared. I have lost about 20 lbs since the last picture…I’m just afraid it will not show in the new pictures. I know I have dropped inches and I weighed myself this morning and I am 163lbs…so very close to the 150’s! Yay!!!

I have already been to the gym this morning. Now I am sitting here on the computer when I know that I should be getting my cooler together and I still need to shower before work. I guess I will end this here. I had a productive morning…did you? 

There is no way to fully describe how I have been feeling over the last few months. This journey has been a struggle and who would have thought that I would have to have so much strength to get what I want? I don’t me physical strength…I mean mental strength. My mind plays these really bad games with me and makes me feel like I should just be happy with the way that I am….I just can’t do that.

When I started my journey I was 189lbs. This is more than I have ever weighed but I just could not let myself get to 190lbs. It was to close to 200lbs.

I have heard some people talk about their weight and how they weigh as much as they did when they were pregnant. When I was pregnant I was 118lbs when I had my daughter…that mean that right now I am 46lbs heavier than I was at my highest pregnancy weight. That’s just crazy. I have lost 25lbs so far. I have lost it slow 1-2lbs a week but even on a bad week I can maintain the weight I have lost. This is a big step for me. I also have come so far that I don’t want to ruin the progress that I have made. This is a big change in my thinking. I would usually just say “I had a great week so I can cheat” that gets me nowhere fast. I know from experience.

I am finally ready to make the right changes and it feels great. I went to they gym this morning and I no longer feel out of place. I am there to make progress on my body and I am learning to love myself and my body again. This is a big change for me. I have not been happy with my body in about 6 or 7 years. That’s a long time to be unhappy with my weight. I was never ready to make real changes until now.

Have a productive day

I know in my last post I made a mention of where I would like to be by September. I also know that I would be pushing it to get there by then. I will just keep doing what’s right. I have come a long way in the last year….from reading about the proper way to live a healthy lifestyle to really putting those thoughts into action.

Reading about the proper way to live a better and healthier life can be overwhelming. It was for me. There is so much to learn and know. It can be confusing….I use to be one that would walk around the gym with no plan….no clue what I was doing..but not anymore!

I am also learning what to eat. How to make better choices and how to make healthy options that also taste good. I really feel good about everything.

Hubby said that he would pay for me to joing nutri system if I wanted to to help me lose this weight…but I said "no" I would rather do what I have been doing "the hard/right way" so that I will make real changes and not fall back into "fat" land.

My goal is just to keep learning and doing the right thing everyday, every meal to make myself proud and to hopefully one day inspire others. That is my ultimate goal.

Things are more positive now than they have ever been. I make goals and work really hard to be able to complete what I have started. I have my focus on something special right now and my new goal date is September 3. I’m not sure if I will get to where I really wanted to be by than but I will be closer than I was last year…that’s for sure. I want to be 125lbs and right now I am 164lbs. I am not sure if that is just to much to lose in less than 3 months.

I need to take pictures again…I’m never in front of the camera…ever

Things are positive and hubby is proud of me for sticking with it. I feel better about myself already. Its about time!