Well the whole thought of eating chicken, tuna, tilapia, brown rice, green beans, and all the stuff I’m supposed to eat just sounds awful! It’s gotten to the point where I put it in my mouth and try to quickly wash it down with water to avoid tasting it. Day after day after day… I’ve never had a problem eating that till just recently which is bad because summer is right around the corner. So I’m asking does anyone else have this problem? After years of eating the same thing at least 5-6 days a week it just hit me and like I said it just doesn’t sound good. And being so used to eating it, not many foods seem to appeal to me anymore… what is going on here? 

 Well after not logging on here for a while I saw that there were quite a few friends asking where I was or where I have been so here’s what’s been going on.

So back in October I quit my job and started working promotions full time so my schedule was super hectic! Did that for about 2 mths while skipping out on the gym… the end of December I found a new job and got settled into a decent routine and got around to transferring my gym membership to the 24 hr down the street from my work. So I thought, yeah! Time to get back in the gym! Well then Friday the 13^th, I was in a car accident, concussion, back and neck injuries… etc etc… So for the past 2 weeks I’ve been in and out of the Dr’s office, working, and trying to wrap up my last semester of school…  I feel so wore out, I hurt, I’m tired, and I can’t go to the gym for a few more weeks… frustration is an understatement…

 But as far as my fitness levels, I’ve not gained any weight (still 122lbs) but have lost a lot of my muscle mass. My body fat % went from around 16% to somewhere between 18-19% currently L

 I’m just feeling so overwhelmed with everything that’s been going on this month. I want to feel better again, I want to stop hurting and be back to normal. I know it’ll happen but the in between, sucks.

So last Thursday I was at school and wanted to pick up a healthy snack to tide me over for my last class so I get this fresh cut cup of fruit unaware of its hidden danger. About 24 hours later I start thinking “oh my stomach hurts” and as the day goes by it gets worse and worse. By 3 am after it progressed from a slight discomfort to laying in bed in the fetal position wishing someone would smother me with a pillow and it dawns on me, that cup of fruit was laden with E. Coli! I spent the entire weekend feeling like total crap! This was my first (and I pray my last) experience of food poisoning. So after a week of not being sick and not able to go to the gym I’m heading back today. I’m looking forward to it and for school today I’m bringing my own snacks!

So I got all dressed up and went out with some friends last night. I wore a red halter top (as seen in my first progress picture) and a pair of black shorts with and heels. I would say I had more than 20 different people men and women comment me on my legs. I had one woman walk up to me and tell me “I would kill for legs like that”. It was nice to have people just wowed by hard work. It was a great feeling for me too knowing I can wear whatever and not worry about it being too tight or hugging me in the wrong way or worried about whether or not the lighting illuminates the cellulite that once was on my legs. It was really good to have guy friends with me to deflect the drunken pickup line guys. Ha ha . I guess the only way it could have been a better night is if my quads weren’t killing me from heavy leg presses the day before. Just more motivation to roll out of bed and hit the gym and keep going strong and not lose sight of where I want to go.

2 days left till I make my beach appearance 20 lbs lighter than this time last year. I’m really excited and have put forth so much effort to make this the best trip yet. I’m not going to be another chubster chick strutting around thinking I’m hot stuff when in actuality I’m just another round faced girl who thinks she can eat anything and it shows.

                I’m going to the grocery store tonight to load up on my favorite lean turkey burger patties and frozen steam bag veggies. I’m sure my friends who are going might think I’m nuts going on vacation and still sticking to my clean eating, but that’s why I feel confident about wearing a skimpy swimsuit and not having to worry if my butt eats my bikini bottom. Lol (we’ve all seen that). I just feel accomplished, like I did something great and have my first chance to really show off my hard work. Like I said on my profile I want to turn heads and be envied, well darn it I’d say I did it.

Well today I took my last final and presented my last project for the semester. And after sitting on my butt for 3 hours taking my finance final (oh it was terrible) I hit the gym and exhausted myself with lunges and squats then wrapped it up with 30 mins of hardcore cardio. Of course to get my summer kicked off right I went ahead and hung out at the pool at my school and strutted my efforts. Now that I have no more distractions I feel I can really focus on my workouts and get back in my routine of “project fit”. So I’m setting my alarm early so I can get up and “earn breakfast” 2 weeks from tomorrow I'll be working the new bod at the beach, can't wait!!

As I have become more conscience of my eating habits I find myself circling the grocery store checking out people’s baskets of groceries. I’ll see people loading their carts with the weight watcher meals, lean cuisines, and other “healthy” frozen dinners in the same cart as their hostess Twinkies, cupcakes and other delicious nutritional valueless foods. I catch myself saying to me “well that’s why they’re fat”. I know that seems mean but it’s the associations I have formed in my head of certain food with the visual appearance of certain people. Some days I just want to walk up to someone’s cart and just start tossing out everything that I would not allow myself to eat, cookies, out, chips, out, sodas, out…  I guess I would like people to realize the “bad” they are putting in their bodies. I am especially concerned with a child who is raised on skim milk, candy and kid meals but that’s another story.

As I have become more conscience of my eating habits I find myself circling the grocery store checking out people’s baskets of groceries. I’ll see people loading their carts with the weight watcher meals, lean cuisines, and other “healthy” frozen dinners in the same cart as their hostess Twinkies, cupcakes and other delicious nutritional valueless foods. I catch myself saying to me “well that’s why they’re fat”. I know that seems mean but it’s the associations I have formed in my head of certain food with the visual appearance of certain people. Some days I just want to walk up to someone’s cart and just start tossing out everything that I would not allow myself to eat, cookies, out, chips, out, sodas, out…  I guess I would like people to realize the “bad” they are putting in their bodies. I am especially concerned with a child who is raised on skim milk, candy and kid meals but that’s another story.

The past 3 months have been exceptional; I realized I wanted to bring out the real me. The me that is proud of the work that has gone into my physical appearance and mental abilty. Like I said before it’s one thing to starve yourself to be thin and have that “super model” look about you, but when it comes to putting forth effort, time and the strength required to push your body to do something you thought it never could, that is something many people will never experience in their entire life. The ability to completely change your own mindset and have the will power to say no when that piece of cake or pizza is yelling at you to eat it. I’m in the best shape I have ever been in but know this will not always be the best shape because I have a journey to continue on to be the best me that I can be.

Man I started taking my glucosamine yesterday got in a new order of Hydroxycut max took my nitric oxide and had a great cardio session this morning. My knee didn’t hurt for the first time in a long time; I was able to run as much as I wanted without my legs and knee telling me to slow down. I felt so good knowing I gave a little extra this morning. I’m really excited that the new jeans I bought 2 weeks ago are fitting so much better after being a little “snug” when I bought them. I know change is happening and it makes me more motivated. I’m passed the point of making myself feel like I “have to” get up in the morning for my cardio to “I want to”. And all of you guys who have been so positive and encouraging, I just want to say thanks!!