Feels good to be back :)
So… After not having a gym to go to for five months, I finally found one that I can afford. I’ve been back in the gym for a month and eating a lot cleaner. I’m amazed at the changes I’ve already seen in my body. Thank God for muscle memory too! I thought it would take me a lot longer than this to get most of my strength back. I just want to lose body fat and look nice and lean. Plus I wanna be in the best shape I can be in by December. Gotta look good for my man when he comes home! 
One of the trainers at the gym has been nice enough to train the me and the girl that has been going to the gym with me lately. For a very low cost too! And according to him, I’m what he calls a “sleeper.” Meaning that when you look at me, it doesn’t look like I have much muscle. But once I start lifting, they pop out. I guess that’s okay. It beats being a sissy! It’s funny though. The three people I’ve trained with have all underestimated me during the first session:
*The first trainer sent me and my workout partner at the time an email saying he was wrong about his first impression of us: “You two are a lot more advanced than I thought.”
*The second trainer went to give me weights and then say “Oh, these might be too heavy for you.” So I told him to give me the weights he already had out because I can handle what he throws at me. I even told him not to underestimate me before we started. After the session he goes “You were right. I did underestimate you. You’re a lot stronger than I thought. I can tell most people to step up on a box and they get a workout from that. Next time I’ll make it more challenging.”
*And the third… Well, he kept to himself. But the attitude he gave toward me versus the girl that works out with me now was totally different. I could tell he didn’t want me to tag along. He didn’t even look me in the eye to shake my hand when he introduced himself to us. But I decided to give it a shot and see if he would treat us the same when training us. And he did. He told me after the workout he was worried about me because he didn’t think I would be able to keep up. He even told me halfway through the workout that I am a lot stronger than I look.
I guess a good saying for all that would be “Tell me I can’t and I’ll show you I can.”
My parents are still giving me a hard time about my eating and working out. I don’t understand why they don’t want me to be healthy. But it gives me that little extra push that I need to stay with it and show them that I’m not going to give up. My brother even gave me a hard time for eating healthy. I was making some chicken and sweet potatoes and he asked what it was for. So I told him I was making it so I could eat it over the next few days because I’m going back to eating healthier. And he responds with “Oh.. that will last about two weeks.” He said that over a month ago… And I’m still eating better! It pisses me off to be underestimated, but I think that’s what gives me that extra drive that I need. I know that I’m not going to give up on my goals no matter what. Nobody can do this for me except myself. It’s just nice to have the support from the people you’re closest to.
