dakotawsky’s BodyBlog

you would think living a healthy life would make you less vulnerable to all the flu bugs, colds, viruses that go around. ha! i think not….

the other night i came down bad, not sure what it is, but i hate the doctors…especially the military ones…so i avoid it at all costs. drink lots of fluids and rest. i took a day off yesterday, trying to get over it. woke up this morning and felt even worse. ugh!…i’m a hard head and stubborn, and when i want to do something…i do it! so this morning i went to go do my morning cardio, and the usual crazy me decided to do HIT today…haha! and i about croaked! couldn’t breath, about passed out, and you could add some sickness in there too. :S….when i knew that my body had enough i sat off to the side and calmed myself down…and REALLY concentrated on lowering my heartrate or i knew it was going to be a bad situation. BUT all is well now and i’m NOT doing that ever again. LoL!

lately i’ve just been concentrating on getting my morning cardio in, along with full-body workouts 3 times a week until i go home. its been 2 years, and i’m only 1 month away from seeing my family again. ….keeping things a steady progress is my main goal right now….once i get back from leave, the REAL training will begin again.

it’s been awhile, but for me life still has its up and downs. but don’t they always?!

the true meaning and main point to all this though is "motivation"

i just got done watching the movie "Never Back Down" and it really got me thinking….deep. There is a point in life where when you become so absorbed into something that it almost seems as an obligation, and you forget the true meaning….I became so absorbed into my workouts that it became a job for me, something that i had to do everyday. i forgot the enjoyment and strive i had for it everday. the freedom it gave me and the feeling i had when it was all over. i wasn’t making any improvements so i would get discouraged and push myself harder and harder….then….i would get hurt.

remember the pride you have in everything you do. thinking about simple quotes, tips, pictures can help to motivate you so far…..and i’m not going to lie when there are many of times you have to find new things to keep you motivated. but turning something inside of you and making in into something unbelievable is a true inspiration to me, and helped me to remember why i started on this path so long ago.

since i’ve started again….i’ve had some great improvements. workouts were great! awesome!….and then i hurt my back again. i thought …..maybe….this dream just wasn’t meant for me. maybe i’m not meant to compete, maybe i’m not meant to get to that certain image i had focused to hard to get to or to be…..but today and now. everything that i’ve been thinking the past few days is ridiculous! even just a few simple thoughts running through my head now…i just can’t help but have this goofy smile.

i just want to say that this ….piece, this part….inside me is back! and i can’t wait to take on this continous battle inside me, and bring out something truely remarkable and unbelievable!

"walking away and giving up aren’t the same thing…and i’m not willing to do either one."