The Candy Basket Ain’t got nothin on me…
Well as I have written before I am sugar addict…no scratch that…a food addict. I am a compulsive over eater and a bulimic And I am finally getting help. My blogs are gonna be all about my journey through recovery. And if I have helped one person with my story…than sh*t I have done more than enough.
Today is friday, and on Monday my lovely cubicle neighbor replenished the candy basket on her counter. Thank you Neighbor! Now normally, I would have been hitting up that basket everday at least 10 times a day. But you know what…I am powerless over the candy and I can’t just have one. It’s ok, I am ok with this. Instead, I have been entertained by everyone else who stops by and by what they say. Just yesterday a girl came over and said that she was getting some for the others around her on the other side of the building. She took a whole handful. Another person actually used the term "it’s nice to see my dealer is back on the streets". The girl across from me did the look left and right thing as she proceeded to take a few every 30 minutes or so. I have walked by it a few times and I have looked. But you know what. Each one of those little wrapped goodies, does nothing but cause me pain and suffering. Cause I can’t just eat one. And I am ok with that.
During the Month of August, my boyfriend and I were teaching Sunday School to 3-5 year olds. And part of our time with them we would have sharing and snack. Well there was this one little boy named Jason. And Jason would always come in carrying his own little snack. So one day we were having a different snack than usual and he goes, I can have that snack, my mom said its ok. And I said Jason, how come you cant usually have snack. And he goes, well, I am allergic to Peanuts. I get really sick. And I cant have it. Ok, this kid was like 4 years old. I realized that this kid is more intune with his body than I am and I can learn from him. Well that is me, I can’t have candy or sweets cause I get really sick.
So stupid candy basket, you can sit there all you want, but I will not even entertain the thought of eating one of you. Go find someone else to terrorize. Cause I’m done with you.
September 18, 2009 at 2:01 pm
Great Blog, isn’t funny that we can learn something so simple from a kid! Thay are truly the teachers and we are the ones that need teaching! I feel you, I have a weakness to, it’s icecream, you know how some people can have just on bowl, I can’t. So I just stay clear. You see knowing is half the battle but, I doing well, down 24Lbs now and a 7% body fat loss!! So you dividends will pay off, it just takes time!
Jeremy
September 18, 2009 at 2:03 pm
Hey Cubarican. I like the post. Keep up the awesome work. I can relate. I grew up a compulsive eater. I would eat because I was depressed and depressed because I was eating. Thus is got over 300 lbs before I was even a teenager. It was a crule and vicious cycle I was trapped but one day I made the commitment to change. Its not easy but I can say from experiance. When you beat it and you can look in the mirror and feel good about your self its well worth it. Here is a tip that helped me. I figured out that most of my issue was an oral fixation. Mostly because I was used to eating. So I bought gym. ALLOT of it. And always chewed a peice of gym and I found that that keep me from eating and snacking when I was not hunry. And then time I was at home I found something to do. I took up drawing and art. That keep me busy and didnt think about drinking a bottle of soda or gallon of ice cream. So best of luck to you and your journey. Keep up the mental focus and dont ever give in. Good luck!!!!!!!
September 18, 2009 at 2:15 pm
taking authority over candy jars everywhere!!! great success to you on your journey. you will be victorious, you will success, you will transform
October 29, 2009 at 2:15 pm
oh my, i can totally relate to each word of this. i am totally powerless where sugar is invovled but i’d be lying if i said that it was sugar alone as well. it’s the hardest battle of my life. know you are not alone out there. it’s a twenty four hour battle, eating right. hang in there and just keep giving it your best. i hope that there is light at the end of the tunnell for you and me both. and for everyone else out there fighting the good fight.