Good Bye September…Hello October
Happy Tuesday Y’all
Today is the last day of September, which means tomorrow is October 1st, which means, it is the first day of the 10th month of the year. Which means its the first day of the 10th month of my journey, of my transformation, of my renaissance.
At first I sat here and thought…wow, being sick and off track, and getting hit with life sh**, I just wasted the last 2 months. Where did August and September go? Jeez girl, could you have been any more of a slacker? I have been here a thousand times before, I get this far, and something clicks. I either get too much attention and I’m totally visable and it scares me, and I run the opposite direction. Or I use the excuse of well, life sucks right now, Im not gonna take care of myself and use food to numb my feelings of discomfort and disconnect. Basically try and bury my head in the sand. Well in the past this has not really worked for me. It just undoes all the hard work. And starts a vicious cycle of self destruction.
I started to kick myself for not being closer to my goal by today. But you know what. I have come a long way. 10 months ago, I could barely tie my shoes without losing my breath. 10 months ago, I wouldn’t have dared to get dressed up and show off my body. 10 months ago I was just not the Jill I am today. And it is OK that I am not at goal yet.
The last 2 months have been a struggle. Im not going to lie. I have given in to a few nights of binging. But I have managed to maintain my weight, and still workout. Im allowed to have bad days. Im allowed to have a moment to take it all in and regroup. To me this is bigger than the 57 lbs I have lost. This is what its all about. Anyone can go on a diet and lose weight and lift weights and get cut. But changing the behavior that got me overweight in the first place. This is where the real work begins. And you know what, I have come along way, and hell, I am proud of myself.
As I always say this is a journey not a race and I am in it for the long haul. Anything worth having is worth fighting for and I am not done fighting.
So with that I say…21 day cut…BRANG IT…I can do anything for 21 days. Keep an eye on me. I will not disappoint.
J.Lo.
September 30, 2008 at 3:10 pm
that…is an excellent bit there, Miss Cubaricangirl. You’re changing from the inside out. And that is all the difference!
September 30, 2008 at 3:38 pm
Incredibly well said. Made me think about my own journey and helped put things in better perspective. You rock girl
September 30, 2008 at 5:48 pm
Amen, J.Lo! No one is perfect and it’s understandable to slip. You have engaged yourself and will not settle for past failings. I’m proud to know you and how you are a great example for others.
Harris
September 30, 2008 at 5:52 pm
Honestly-that it one of the most "insightful" things I’ve read b/c it’s so true. Everyone needs to remember that Rome was not built in a day & neither will the bod…I’m so proud of you & so proud to call you my FRIEND!!
October 1, 2008 at 4:56 am
baby,you are the beautifulest woman inside and out, you have brought so much to this site,and i am sorry i could not have helped you as you have helped me by just bringing a smile to my heart,you need a hand mine is here,you need an ear i will listen,and you always have a piece of my heart,together we will walk ,run,or just sit and enjoy what the good lord has given us,
and he gave me a wonderful friend,my baby girl
mama
October 1, 2008 at 4:37 pm
Not to mention that you’ve surpassed the majority of people who can’t keep a new year’s resolution of fitness worth a damn! Congrats and go for it this month!
October 1, 2008 at 4:42 pm
You haven’t disappointed at all. Believe it or not, there are people on this board that watch others without saying a word and get inspiration from them. You happen to be one of the inspiring ones…Vinny
October 5, 2008 at 5:27 am
great blog i have felt the same way so many times your an inspiration
October 5, 2008 at 9:33 pm
Hey there whats this cut cycle you speak of
October 6, 2008 at 2:35 pm
Thanks for these words… we are in the same life challenge.. I have been here before and now I want to continue this journey too.. it hard and we have roadblocks but I admire your strength and wisdom.. good job!!
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