csiems’s BodyBlog

I did 7 pull-ups yesterday!!!!! So happy with that!

Ok, seriously - I can remember as far back as freshman year in high school, and I was still dealing with the same thing!  Eating habbits - lack of good ones, and lack of self control!  15 years of this bullshit!  Very frustrated with myself.  I want to be able to be happy in my own skin.  I want to develop daily habbits and routines I don’t stray from.  I want to be boring and predictable in my eating.  My workouts - I’ve been going through the motions, but not going all out.  I put some heart into it on Monday, and can’t wait to get back tomorrow.  Seriously, I am 28.  I have dealt with the same problem for 15 years.  I am too smart and experienced for this.  I know the answer, I just need to do it. 

I know that you shouldn’t compare your current weight with that of when you were in high school - but it’s hard not too.  Why is that number on the scale so controlling.  Logically I know its not important - but it still seems to matter to me anyways.