Self sabotage!!!
I think I like making it harder on myself. Or I enjoy self-sabotage. Or I don’t really care about my goals and want to stay as I look. I think I’m feeling a tad down about my "weigh in" this morning. In case you haven’t noticed, I haven’t posted any body updates or pictures in a few weeks. I guess it’s because I’m ashamed of "falling off the bandwagon" for 2 weeks after my daughter was born (I ate like I was a bear prepping for winter hibernation and did not work out…once…not even for a run) and gained back some of the pudge.
Pudge…good word.
Anyways, at the beginning of the week, I feel quite motivated to "keep it clean" for the week but by the time the first few days float by, I end up cracking and tarnish the week. Then, I decide "Well, I’ve already messed up this week, so why not just take the plunge?" and continue the downward spiral. This week was by no means that - but that’s exactly what Tuesday was, when I had to come to work late because of a dentist appointment, end up picking up McDs on the way in, then KFC afterwards on the way home - topped off by DQ for a late night snack. Now, I didn’t carry this into the next day, but it does highlight something in me:
I’m an emotional eater.
Whenever my life gets even slightly out of balance, I just kind of wing it and I end up consuming bad things or doing bad things to my body. Not like I used to years ago, but food wise and exercise wise. Tonight is the hockey game. We have friends coming over for drinks and food. Not the best food, and alcohol certainly isn’t the best choice of beverage - but it’s game 7 of the Stanley Cup finals. And it’s summery out. (Excuses, excuses, …) What ever happened to the "no alcohol until I get down to 200 lbs. rule? Guess I chucked that out the window too.
You know….I think next week I’ll eat clean…yeah…next week will be good…. *insert eyebrow raising skepticism here*
June 12, 2009 at 9:17 am
Hey it’s a CHOICE. You can do it amigo! You can provide the fun stuff for the friends & choose to bring healthy clean options for yourself. But you have to decide BEFOREHAND that’s what you’ll do. Waiting til the game is on is too late to even think about weather you’ll munch out or eat clean.
I’m an emotional eater too, so don’t beat yourself black & blue. The important thing is to eat clean the vast majority of the time, not set unrealistic goals. Learning to eat clean is a PROCESS, not a switch you turn on. But don’t lose hope & ruin all your prior efforts when you stumble.
EXAMPLE: Can’t let a diet stumble derail everything…….or continued pity parties. Think of a business. If they have a terrible quarter & lose money, do they fold up shop and go out of business? NO WAY. They redouble their efforts to make the next quarter a profitable one. So go get’em amigo.