chocolatew’s BodyBlog

I have been having some trouble losing weight (fat)..Between all the combinations (cardio only, light weight and heavy cardio, weights only, heavy weights and light cardio or heavy weights and heavy cardio)..There is only one combo that allows ME to lose body fat.  And it makes no sense.
In the last 2 months or less i have lost about 7% bf, totaling 13.3 lbs of fat(August 67.8 lbs of fat as opposed to October 54.5).  That is more than i’ve ever lost.  but it has its down falls.   I have gained about 4+ pounds total because of the heavy lifting.  I lift only 3 times a week and do cardio about 4-6 times a week.  So its not like i’m just doing weights…but yea…so…i have a plan.

Because it appears that i’m bulking too much…i’ve decided to lower the amount of weight i lift and up the number of reps.
Saturday Workout
Plie Squats
-2×10 @ 65lbs
-2×8 @ 70lbs
-1×6 @ 85lbs

Leg Press
-1×25 @295 lbs
-1×20 @335 lbs
-1×15 @ 385 lbs
-1×10 @ 425 lbs
-1×8 @ 515 lbs
-1×6 @ 605 lbs

Straight leg deadlift (stiff leg)
-2×10 @115 lbs

Leg Extension
-2×10 @ 70lbs

Bench Press
-1×15 @ 75
-1×10 @ 85
-1×8 @ 95

Cable straight arm tricep pull down (i’m not even sure if that is what it’s called..lol)
-3×8 @ 80lbs

Dumbbell Curls
2×8 @ 20lbs dumbbells

I just hope it helps in leaning me down.  Wish me luck:)

So…I gained 2 pounds overall, but I think its a good thing (well when i start losing overall weight in fat and don’t gain any weight from muscle…then I’ll be doing EXACTLY what I aim to).

So  here is the breakdown:
Overall (gain) = 2 lbs
Lead Body Mass (gain) = 6.37 lbs
Fat Body Mass (loss)  = 4.36 lbs

** Now the important thing to notice is that based on those numbers I lost (from my calculations anyway) a total of 4.36 pounds over all on my body, but I gained that 6:37 in replace of it from muscle.  So I’m losing weight.  It just being counteracted by muscle gain.  So for now, I can live with the overall body mass gain of 2 lbs…as long as the number continue looking like that.  And eventually like I said..I’ll maintain muscles mass while losing body fat and then my over all will start to drop.

Lol..but I still love it when the men in the gym think i’m crazy when I lift.   Its…AWESOME!!!

Yay PROGRESS:)

I wish they ALL would look at me that way.  You know…that look they give you when they see a girl lifting.  But not just lifting, i mean LIFTING.  Lifting more than they do.  Lifting with better form than they do.  Lifting with more repetition and sets than they do.

I want them ALL to look at me that way.

Today was my upper body split.  

Bench Press 1×15 @ 75lbs
                 1×8 @ 85lbs
                 1×8 @ 85lbs
                 1×6 @ 100lbs
                 1×3 @ 110lbs

Dumbbell Press 3×8 @ 37.5 lb each
Dumbbell One-Arm Bent over rows 3×8 @ 35 lbs each
Triple Set: 3×8
               Lat Pull Down @ 90lbs
               Cable Bicep Curls @ 60lbs
               Cable Tricep Pulldowns @ 80lbs

** of course i stretched and warmed up and i did a little bit of lateral raises to warm up the joints just a little before some lifts.
But yea..There were a couple of guys lifting the same if not less than I was, and when they saw me bust my way through those sets…they couldn’t help but stare from a distance.  It’s not like they have never seen me lift there before.  I’m like the only girl, but that didn’t stop them from be awed.   and that was….

AMAZING!!!!
              

Sooo….I’m still not losing over all pounds…i keep gaining actually….HMMM???

So here is my update on the weight loss:

from last 2 weeks my overall body weight went up 0.8 lbs
–body fat percentage went down 2.9 percent (144 lbs of lean, 62.6 lbs of fat)
   **meaning i’m down 7 lbs of fat and up 8 lbs of lean body mass

confusing..for me anyway, but the good thing is my overall measurements have either stayed the same (chest, arms, and something else i can’t remember at the moment…lol), and other have gone down some in inches.

So…i guess i’m seeing progress.  For the most part I don’t mind gaining weight (unless of course i get to 210 ..then i’ll cry), as long as I continue to lose inches and lose body fat.  That’s my goal….i want to look hot.

Wish me luck…i’m trying to be happy and i’m trying to stay motivated. 

How can I hope to not be discouraged.  I completely understand why I should.
I gained 2 pounds this week.  Sure total i lost 1.86 pounds in fat, and sure that means I gained 3.86 lbs in muscle so technically that can be interpreted as great, but really?

Ughh…I don’t even lift that much.  I barely lift…so how am I gaining so much damn muscle (don’t get me wrong I love my muscles and I love lifting and I want to retain muscle in my weight loss goals and be buff and sexy, but really?)
When am I going to see the overall pounds go down?  When will I finally lean out and look like a figure athlete? (I’m NOT competing, I just want to portray one all year long at 15-19% bf).  I just want this so badly.

Its devastating.

My measurements are not going down, they’re going up.
I eat healthy all the damn time that i’m tired of eating.  I can almost no longer enjoy the food.
Ughhh…just devastating.  
I swear..my body doesn’t know what hard work is supposed to mean.  It thinks I’m playing a game and that I’m just doing this for the fun of it.

DAMN body!!!
Grr…I’m exhausted…I’m going to go read now.

I’m hot and sweaty…
Just got back from my superset full body workout:

1:  Straight let deadlifts (105 lbs @ 12 reps)
     Squats (50 lbs @ 10 reps)
** 4 sets
2:  Dumbbell Bench Press (35 lbs each @ 8 reps)
     Barbell Bent over rows (60 lbs @ 8 reps)
**3 sets
3:  Tricep Cable pull downs (80 lbs @ 8 reps)
     Bicep cable curl (60 lbs @ 8 reps)
**3 sets

I’m exhausted.  Not that that was taxing or anything, but more so because..I’m not getting enough water and sleep.
GRR!! that makes me so mad!
I complain to much.  And wonder why it is i dont see much change.  Its cause i’m not taking care of my body well enough.  GRRR!!
duh..i knew that.

So why don’t i change that?

I feel sometimes as though i’m too content thinking that i’m never going to lose the fat.  So i sabotage myself, thus…working my ass off, complaining…then seeing no loss.
What an idiot.
Today…I’m going to drink over 80 ounces of water (i know i should drink more, but i need to build up)
Today i’m going to start to go to bed on time and not play sudoku before i go to bed (yes..i’m a nerd..lol)
I need to do this…I’m tired of being my own victim…

off to work:)

I’m not really sure what to do…
I’m busting my ass..and fat just wont come off.  Diet is good..workout is good.  But see…that is just the problem..it’s not GREAT..or ON POINT..or EXACTLY WHAT IT NEEDS TO BE.  Pathetic I say.

On August 23rd I’m going to Vegas.  I’m not going to let it go to waste.  I’m not going to half-ass anything.  Sure..I probably do more and am more dedicated and consistent than most people who get to where I want to be.  But I have to remember…in the end.  I WON’T bounce back..I WILL lose the weight and keep it off for good.  It’s called DISCIPLINE and understanding what it feels like to struggle, so you can appreciate what you will have that much more.  

I’m tired of learning that concept day after day and not seeing anything.  There is no way that I’m doing enough.  Because if I were…then I wouldn’t be writing this post and I wouldn’t be feeling this way.  I would be appreciative of what I have because that would mean I hit my goal.

AND DAMNIT…I  NEED TO HIT THAT GOAL.

(I’m sore..lol..and my legs are on fire)

I’m slightly devastated.
I’ve been sore most of the week, but damn..i failed this week.  My eating wasnt terrible..i didnt stray from my fiberous carb/protein diet much at all.  (i may have mis calculated and missed some snack meals), but nothing bad.  But sh**!!!!…
I’m angry with myself..
My weight didnt change, by bodyfat percentage went down (1lb) so that is good…but my measurements…UGLY!!!
I went up in almost everything and stayed the same in some..and only lost inches in insignificant places (neck)..UGH!!!..
this sucks

THIS SUCKS!!!

Grr..wow
So today was my Full Body Straight Set lifting day (1 of 3 lifting days…the least intense)..and wow…I think I’m going to be sore for years.
I was already pretty sore between the legs this week because I have been doing every compound lift with a more sumo stance so I can target my ass and my inner thighs including doing more stair master than I’ve ever done before.  So my upping the weight on this lift day just a tiny bit, might have made the difference of whether or not I can stand up when I’m done writing this.  (I better not be late for work..lol)

Full Body Straight Set
-Warm up - 200 jumping jacks (plus stretching to try to get unsore)
-Leg Extensions (1×10 @ 100 lbs)
-Leg Press
   1×15(275 lbs)- wider than shoulder stance/high on plate
   1×15(365 lbs)- wider than shoulder stance/ high on plate
   1×15(455 lbs)- wider than hip stance/ high on plate
   1×15(465 lbs)- wider than hip stance/ high on plate
*the positioning of my feet on the plate helps to trigger hamstrings, glutes and adductors(inner thighs)
-Straight Leg Deadlift
   3×12 @ 115lbs
-Dumbbell Flies
   3×8 @ 20 pound dumbbells
-One Arm Rows
   3×8 @ 35lbs (each arm)
-EZ Curl Bicep
   3×8 @ 40lbs bar

I think that is all.  Not to  mention that this week along with my double workouts I’ve been doing some ab video for about 20 minutes right after i get off of work around 3:30pm…lol..I’m insane,

That’s it..yea…I’m insane…but hey..i love knowing that I’m capable of doing this intensity..makes me happy to know to some degree..I’m athletic

Just surfing body space…and hmmm…i got curious…
maybe i will
but wait…why would i….?
cause..its a great goal and you’ve wanted to be there always by September.
Hmm…could i really?
should i?

hmm..im not sure..but hell trying to shoot for Best Female Bodies Bodyspace 09 could be a good thing.
for me..ya know?
It would be the month of my 24th birthday..and as long as i could remember i’ve always wanted to be thin and in amazing shape by my birthday..and I’ve never ever done it.  It could be good discipline for me.  Especially if other expect me to go for it..and make sure that i  make no excuses to make the weightloss.
just thinking…