Quote of the Day
Sunday, February 22nd, 2009“The tragedy in life doesn’t lie in not reaching your goal. The tragedy lies in having no goal to reach.”
Benjamin Mays
Archive for February, 2009
Quote of the Day
Friday, February 20th, 2009“Never let life’s hardships disturb you…no one can avoid problems, not even saints or sages.”
A DREAM DEFERRED
Thursday, February 19th, 2009Where do I begin? My nutritionist/friend seems to believe that blogging eases the mind, so here I go.It began in June, 2007, a health issue that has returned twice since I had minor surgery at that time (which it turns out was not totally necessary according to my specialist, but everything happens for a reason), then again in November, 2008 and finally February, 2009. This last surgery will hopefully resolve the issue. If not, more surgery and more time being unable to train lower body will be needed. If I’m truly blessed (which I am in more ways than one) this last surgery will resolve the issue. If not, I will be out of commission for a minimum 6 months in terms of squatting, dead lifts, etc. I’ve had my “why me” pity party, but then I go to sites like DawnMelanie’s and I quickly redirect my focus to positive things, like the love and support of my significant other and family and friends.
I have trained so hard and for so long, and it really sucks not being able to do this show. I have spent a lot of time worrying about letting my nutritionist and my trainer down. Then I think about the other important issue in my life and that is having someone that I care very deeply about who is serving in the military. Anyone who has a loved one serving for our country knows how hard it is to focus on yourself when all the time you’re worried about them being in harm’s way, if they’re even alive, and you continue to worry, and worry, until you get that email or phone call letting you know that they’re ok. This time. But what about the next?
For right now, the bb show has been placed on the back burner. I’ll continue with my nutritionist in terms of weight maintenance (I am about 4 pounds away from my goal weight). My primary focus right now is on getting my health back and getting my loved one home. Screw the accolades, the posing, the trophies, because there will be other shows. But my health and my sig other are more important to me than any show. Like my mom says, God will not bring you to it and not bring you through it. So any prayers that you can send this way would be appreciated. For those with loved ones fighting for this country, my heart and prayers go out to each and every one of you, because I know that it takes a toll on the mind, body and spirit. And no, I haven’t given up on doing a show, because they’re like buses; there’s another one right behind the one that I will miss. Love you all and thanks for your support. Remember, it’s a dream deferred, not denied.
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