YAY!! The blog is working now for me! Ok, time to catch up…here goes:
Been super busy lately and stressing! My daughters are about to go back to school and i’m trying to make sure they are ready as far as school supplies and clothes. They are pretty much set except for those list of things they will need when they get to school. You know, the final list of supplies
Also finding out recently that i’m doing my 2nd figure comp alone and my sister will not be on the stage with me was a real downer. I know i can do this, i have done it alone for my first time. I know my sister will be there in the audience, but i was really hoping to share all the moments with her and the pigging out afterwards…hahaha!! You know how all that goes, freaking thirsty AND hungry! I am so looking forward to the peanut butter balls when carbing up the day of and the nice foods/candies after my comp. Tastes SOOOO rewarding after being done with the stage and all the thrills
I have it in my mind that i really want to win this show, but i feel like its not going to happen because of the lack of size in my arms. I really need to stop thinking like that, because the judges may be looking for something different anyways and who knows, i may be lucky and the competition might not be that bad. Thinking WINNER WINNER, PIZZA DINNER…heheh, i know shut up with the pizza already! HA! Man, it would be nice to go home with one of those sword trophies. I called the lady over the show to get a little more info and she said that the overall winners and something like that get swords, HOW COOL! Just taking a trophy home is nice though
So like the weekends are the worst for me and knowing that i only have 4 weeks left is kind of driving me crazy. I just got my diet this past Friday and starting it tomorrow. Less complex carbs and some other changes, BUT I still get to have my lean steak..YAY! My diet has really changed since last time as i leaned out TOO fast and lost muscle. I do get the double whammy cardio this time around for some reason, but only totaling 1 hour a day. Only moderate cardio and my trainer told me specifically what to do for cardio so i won’t be overdoing it. She already got onto me for running and doing the cardio classes…LOL. Love this woman, she believes in tough love for sure. I’m just hard headed and if details or explanations aren’t given as to why and how, i tend to do it MY way. She asked that i get my bodyfat checked again so i will have to get on that this week. I also have to get my plain one piece ordered this week and a few more stones, that is really stressing me. I started going to the tanning bed this week too, just signed up for a month. I’m not a tanner so this is going to be interesting, i just don’t want to be the lightest chick up there on stage like i was last time. My face is a little burnt from the 2 sessions of tanning so far though…OUCH!
Now, i got to control the evil snacking i have been doing lately, especially when the weekends come around and I’m bored to death. Sometimes i don’t even give it a second thought, i have just been reaching for some club crackers thinking to myself "oh, 2 or 3 won’t hurt, it will probably help me"…you know those mind games we play with ourselves. Then the peanuts…oh the peanuts! Lately since my hubby cooked up a bunch of boiled spicy peanuts (love these) i have been reaching for some of these and not taking my flaxseed cause heck they are both good fats right? I feel like i shouldn’t be doing this, but i am still making progress so my mind says what the heck. I keep telling myself, oh once i get to 2-3 weeks out i will be 100%…I NEED TO BE 100% NOW DAMNIT!! Someone kick my butt already
Oh yeah, Fridays we have been going out for dinner to eat at the steakhouse (using my steak meal here) and i have the side caesar salad with no crotons, but those stupid peanuts too that they have there…those peanuts call my name! EVIL! I have the 8oz sirloin (only supposed to be 5oz, but i’m freaking HUNGRY!) with a bit of the steak sauce and a plain sweet potato with cinnamon since they don’t have brown rice, i just feel like it keeps me sane and a dinner date with my husband because i so miss going out with him to eat. We used to go out all the time on the weekends. Geez, i feel like i don’t have a life sometimes! Alright, end of vent and confessions. Already feeling better
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