Diary of a Mad Fat Woman

Ok guys, I haven’t died - Im actually here I’ve just been crazy busy! So, here’s the good news and bad news -

 I’m still losing - yeah! Or, at least, I *was* until Thanksgiving. I got down to 338. I haven’t seen 33 anything 5 years. So yes, I was thrilled to pieces. It’s slow going, but it’s going. But when I came back from my mom’s house for Thanksgiving, I saw 358 on my scale again!!! How does 4 days kill you so much!!! So I had a bannana and coffee for breakfast and I’ll be going back to the gym again tonight and hopefully it’s mostly water weight - we’ll see!!

 No, I still haven’t hired the personal trainer - to be honest, he scares the heck out of me. Not because I’m scared of most people but because I can see myself not liking him and then avoiding the gym to avoid him. UGH.

*hugs* I haven’t quit. I won’t quit. But its SLOW!!!

I joined Pivotal Fitness here in Summerville and I go tonight at 6 for orientation. They’ll do weight, bf, etc and show me how to use their machines. Its a little different, little smaller (though not much) and a little different vibe from Gold’s, but it’s close to home AND work and it’s open 24 hours a day - which is good for my weird schedule. I didnt hire a trainer yet, and the guy who would be my trainer asked me about a million times why I was on a bodybuilder’s diet, but I think I’ll be ok. I wanted to smack him and say ‘Cause it works dammit!!’ but he was way bigger than me and so I let him live He did freely admit to being an ass so I freely admitted to not needing his services for the moment. Maybe later, but not yet. I met another guy, sortof, who said he’d train me, and he’s sexy as all get out so, hey, if Im gonna do it, I may as well be motivated

 But, either way, I joined a gym