cfit82’s BodyBlog

Yep, that’s what happened. Some of you may know that the State of California is on fire. I live near Sonoma and Napa Counties and the smoke from the fires over there covered the entire valley were I live(Novato, CA, Marin County.) The smoke made me pretty sick, so i decided not to workout(breathing heavy with carcinogens in the air, is not my style!). My dog got pretty sick, too. So did my horseback riding instructor.

Instead, I began the task of properly cleaning my office post-concierge service and preparation for writing my ebook. Which will become the first stage in a 3 stage training program.

The smoke has subsided and I am feeling rested and looking forward to reurning to the gym and hitting hard.

I thought you all should know what was going on, since I have been MIA, for like a week.

PEACE!

I will post progress pics next week, I am going to buy a new bikini!

But, I am so happy ya’ll. My Boyfriend says he’s never seen me this happy! Honestly, if i knew it would only take me 3 months of consistently working out, to have a body i was proud of taking to the beach, I would have started much sooner. Instead i tried starving, then I tried, "not caring" and eating "whatever I wanted", then I finally, after seeing cellulite on my ass, woke up and got on my spin bike. That was April 16th, 2008. I gained 7lb and my butt is smaller than when I weighed 113, I am sooooo excited ya’ll. Now my goals are like fine tuning stuff:

• Get my butt completely off the back of my thighs, like Ms. Fitness
• Lose body fat and kill my abs to get that cool shredded look
• Get a v-taper and really buff arms to match
• Get some calves(tips please!).

I really want to be able to compete next year, I hope that I can make my goals in in time! Let’s see where the next 3 months takes me!

Cheers,

CE

P.S. almost forgot the random poodle pic:

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Yeah, you may be fooled by the french manicure, the permed hair, the designer workout clothes, but I am here to work. I am not afraid to sweat, and as of today, I do barbell bench presses, biatch!!!!!!

Yeah, that’s right, I am wearing waterproof mascara. Look, I am not gonna leave the house without makeup, just cause I got to get sweaty, okay!

But I just benched, as much as some of the guys in here, so shut up before you get hurt.

Now, where’s my lip gloss?

I listens to Gwen Stephanie and Britney Spears while I rep out…Do you got a problem with that?

Yes, I am a girl. A girly girl, at that, but when I work I work just as hard, or harder, so pick up your jaw and get back to work.

Oh, life is good!  Yesterday, i had just the best workout of my life. I couldn’t get myself of the spin bike, then I kicked ass in the weight room. Found out my 6RM on a barbell squat, was 85lbs!!! I am lifting enough to have to move up to a barbell bench press! Today, I pushed myself hard again in the gym cleaned up, put on my regular clothes, and saw my reflexion in my shorts and was like sh*t, those are my legs. I am so happy, I know I have blogged about legs before, but to have nice legs at 5′2" is hard work. For me, almost 3 months of busting my a**. Check it out:

Yea for legs!!!!!

I am honestly not sure. You see I have Adult ADD, and was on a cocktail of medications to control the symptoms. The hardest one to get off of has been Lexapro, an SSRI, anti-depressent. I am still getting withdrawl symptoms, that are effecting my ability to train. I have been pushing through, but just couldn’t do it today. Bad right?

Well, I did go to the gym, it’s actually a "health club" with a spa, tennis, racquet ball, and 2 pools. I went today, becuase I had scheduled a swim lesson. You see, I didn’t learn how to swim as a child, and I decided this was going to be the first summer, where I could just hang at the pool without those stupid arm floaties.

Do you know how emberassing it is to go to the beach in a pin-up bikini and have to wear floaties?????!!!

Anyway, today was my second lesson. Today, I learned to swim. It wasn’t really that hard, to tell you the truth. I have a good instructor, I guess. People were pretty surprised it was my second lesson. Now mind you, I can’t kick, breath, and move my arms at the same time yet, but I can move in the water, which I am told is swimming.

I did a whole lap!

So was it a good day, I guess.  A good day, tarnished a bit by a missed workout. But I am pretty hard on myself…..

Night,

CE

Sorry to post pics late. Actually, went outside and left the computer today! I promise it won’t happen again….at least not for another week or so!

Cheers,

CE

 In the kitchen or "the homefront"

Last week, as a few of you know I had an atrocious embarrassing binge. I don’t feel guilty about any longer, but I believe it is informative to talk about it with you.

You see last weekend, after months of good eating with scheduled cheats, I totally fell of the wagon. It was like i just couldn’t take it anymore. On Friday, May 30th, I was watching TV, probably a movie, I don’t really remember, all I remember is that there was a commercial break, and KFC was advertising their new Smoky Chipotle Chicken. If you want to see some good food porn, you can watch the commercial here: http://www.kfc.com/promos/commercial.asp . I am not responsible for what happens, if you decide to view this.  

Now, even though Friday was not my scheduled day to cheat, I was already eating sushi, while watching this. I put this on my list on things to eat on Saturday, along with real eggs, butter, sausage and hash browns. Now this would have been okay, the KFC and the fattening Breakfast, on a Saturday, but I couldn’t stop on Saturday, the cheating that started on Friday night, now spilled into Sunday. I went out to some very fine restaurant in Napa and had a delicious meal with lots of wine.

I tell you this, not to make you hungry, or even as a confession of my sins, but to talk about how I am coping with the difficulty, of being well known by family and friends as a bon vivant(sp). I love food, dining, entertaining, and cooking. So after this huge cheat, and the shock at the beginning of the week with no drop in bf% and no change in measurements, I decided to review my approach to feeding myself and make some allowances for my need to have a balance between a healthy lifestyle and occasionally indulgent eating habits.

Yesterday, I rewrote my calorie cycle to have my high-calorie days, on either side of my cheat day, making it less likely for me to just spend the weekend binging, if i can indulge in some less favorable carbs, and larger portions on Friday and Sunday.

It’s just one more way, I make this fitness thing work me, instead of me working for it. Honestly, I would rather be overweight and die early, that have to eat perfectly every single day, 7-days-a-week, 365-days, year.  This way, I make my weekdays, “work days” and my weekends a time to not focus so much on my diet and exercise.

At the gym, or “the battlefront”

On Monday, June 2, I made the unfortunate mistake of waking early and getting into the gym, at 11:30am. The place looked like monkeys were there to train. Seriously, as I write this I am having flashbacks to one of the most disturbing expiriances in my fitness journey. I have read others complaint about others lack of respect for the gym, and felt blessed to have never expiriance such horror. Unfortunalty, I spoke too soon.

I come in and the jewish Rosie Perez with her friend are in my gym with workout that she printed out online, jumping all over the place, leaving sh!t everywhere!!! Towles, weights, her crap routine, bosus, I mean you name, and she had it, and left it. After finishing my cardio, I walked over to the dumbbell racks and I was obviously annoyed and she was obviously clueless!!!!

I asked her, if she is done with some dumbbells she left on the floor, in an attempt to get her to redeem herself, and she says yes and keeps right on retarding away with a new set of f*cking dumbbells to leave on the floor. I clean up after her, and what I hope is five other people, and proceed to do my weight routine.

Rosie, gets on a cardio machine and starts yelling all kinds of sh!t. At around noon, she says,”Ahhhhhh, Itttttt’s NOOOOON, THISSSSS ISSSSS WHENNNN ALLL OF THE SERIOUS PEOPLE COME OUT” and at that moment blackdout and I through a dumbbell at her head and everyone in the gym cheered.

The point of this, is not to bash people behind there back, cause believe me, had I not come to put in my work and leave, i would had said something. But, if you remember last week, I was totally in love with my little health club, in spite of it’s lack of bodybuilding cred. However, the honeymoon is over and we need to get real. I do believe, if someone come to the gym, and is ignorant of what it takes to become fit, lose weight, etc., they should be welcomed, and taught. But people like this need a dumbbell in there head:

• Rude people with no home training at all(Rosie)
• Dudes who give you dirty looks, because you are not trying to look like the nasty porn stars there fat or skinny a**es are used to jerking to.
• Women who make women unwanted in the weight area.(I now realize, why the all the men were weary when I first showed up, someone has been making us look bad)

It’s nice to get that off my chest!

Misc Thoughts:

Overall, this week has challenged me to accept myself. I worked so hard for so long to be skinny, I still have mini freakouts, where I think I am fat. The hardest thing about becoming healthy, is allowing myself to get to a healthy weight. I have never been what you’d call a anorexic, but i was very proud of being thin.

Right now, I am really proud to have the best body of my life, and that has taken so much more work than being mearly thin. It’s easy to forget, but I’ll keep reminding myself everytime I post progress pics and see a body that I am proud to take to the beach.

Okay, that’s it. Please check out my photos and let me know what you think!

Cheer,

CE