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"To overcome my eating disorder and maintain a stable eating habit along with working out everyday. Just making myself healthy again."
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Archive for December, 2008
Friday, December 26th, 2008
Hey everyone! So how did everyone do with all of the Christmas temptations? Myself, I didn’t do to well! But tomorrow is another beautiful day that God has made and it’s another day to start over again. I drank alot of booze lol But I did run alot yesterday and did some outside workouts at this really nice park we have. My ex boyfriends dad actually designed the park so it’s pretty neat to go running through it. Anyways, a year ago tomorrow is the day my first love passed away, so keep in mind to say a prayer for his family if you have the chance. He is greatly missed. So on a better note, I recieved LOVELY gifts! Alot of new stuff for my new apt, and I recieved a 14 k gold Juicy Couture bracelet. SOOOO pretty! I hope everyone got what they wanted. I want to get some protein powder for the new apt though, that’s my next investment… along with a new bra from VS. Well loves, I hope everyone has a beautiful day and good luck with everything!
xox
"In the end
We will learn
Actions speak louder then our words" -Fireflight, More than a love song
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Tuesday, December 23rd, 2008
Heyyy y’all! I hope everyone’s holiday season is going great! Well a little update from last time, it has been about a week and I have been doing ALOT better. I’ve been really following my diet and it makes me feel better than ever doing so! Although I do admit, I had a biscotti last night with my coffee. lol Oh well! I still haven’t given up and that’s the main part. One of my dear friends from high school admitted to me that she had an eating disorder and that touched my heart. Her and I are going to go to a meeting together and hopefully I can help her through this journey as well as it benefit me. It’s been a struggle but in the long run I am so much happier with who I am now than with who I was back then. Granted yes, I was alot thinner, now I am able to do alot more and I look healthier. Plus, I am happy and a happy person is always attractive. =) Tonight I have a Lingerie party to go to! I am so excited! Then tomorrow is Christmas Eve and then Christmas! yay! Finally I wont be broke and this stress will go away lol. Well I hope everyone has a happy and safe holiday! Much love to you all and best of luck!
xox
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Friday, December 19th, 2008
Okay so let’s see, where to start? So lately it has been a tough struggle for me and my eating disorder.I had stopped for a good while, probably about 9 months. I have been on and off with this for years and I was doing so good and then something hit me and I started purging again. I am stopping though this time for good. I can’t be doing that to my body. It’s just I am so impatient. But what made me realize that I needed to stop for good was that the other day it had been 2 days that I hadn’t gone to the gym and since I had last purged and I could only run for 20 mins tops and not do anything else without feeling like I was going to black out. Which is incredibly not like me. I usually am at the gym for an hour to an hour and a half. Bleh… another thing with the Holidays are all of the Holiday parties. How does everyone manage with them? Like what do you do when faced with all of the temptations at the parties? Any helpful hints? I’ve been not able to say no to the wine and cookies and all that bad stuff. It’s like I am completely fine during the day but then when night comes around it hits me. But besides all of the downer stuff of the holidays, good news… hmmm let’s see! I’ve been asked on several dates and stuff. I don’t know if I am ready for that just yet though. I need to work on myself first. Oh and I am leaving for PA in a couple of days to see my family! I am so excited about that! But okay how do I keep up with everything while I am there? Everyone drinks and my grandma makes amazing homemade food. I really am starting to dislike the holidays. If only times were simple like when I was a little girl and didn’t give a care. lol Okay well I feel like i’m complaining too much and that’s something I don’t like to do. So new subject…I saw Miley Cyrus the other day. She performed at my dads friends lawfirm party. It was pretty awesome! He always throws the best parties ever. Well, I hope everyone has the best holiday season ever! Good luck to everyone and all of their goals and I will keep everyone in my prayers over this season! Much love
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XXOXX
Chelsea
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Tuesday, December 9th, 2008
Ugh okay so this week I have finals, and it sucks because I am barely making time for the gym. But on the good side, I went today and then I found out that last night I made a 100 and an 80 on my other two tests. Yay! But okay tell me if this happens to any of y’all: My nutritionist gave me an eating plan that is completely different on how I used to eat and I am eating the 5 small meals a day, and somehow I managed to gain weight. Will the weight eventually start to come off or what? I don’t like this feeling, especially since I am going to see my boyfriend on Christmas (he’s in the Air Force) and I was planning to look really good for when I saw him and I just feel down on myself more than ever. This bites! Sometimes I just wonder if I should quit trying…. I mean it’s the hardest battle ever and especially coming from an eating disorder, it’s so hard. I still sometimes battle with bulimia, maybe that and drinking are the two reasons I am plateauing. Who knows! Welll, I’m going to the Rockets game tonight! YAYAYA! And then my last final is tomorrow. Thank goodness! I can finally get bck on schedual. Well, I hope everyone has a beautiful day!
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change"
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Tuesday, December 9th, 2008
Ugh okay so this week I have finals, and it sucks because I am barely making time for the gym. But on the good side, I went today and then I found out that last night I made a 100 and an 80 on my other two tests. Yay! But okay tell me if this happens to any of y’all: My nutritionist gave me an eating plan that is completely different on how I used to eat and I am eating the 5 small meals a day, and somehow I managed to gain weight. Will the weight eventually start to come off or what? I don’t like this feeling, especially since I am going to see my boyfriend on Christmas (he’s in the Air Force) and I was planning to look really good for when I saw him and I just feel down on myself more than ever. This bites! Sometimes I just wonder if I should quit trying…. I mean it’s the hardest battle ever and especially coming from an eating disorder, it’s so hard. I still sometimes battle with bulimia, maybe that and drinking are the two reasons I am plateauing. Who knows! Welll, I’m going to the Rockets game tonight! YAYAYA! And then my last final is tomorrow. Thank goodness! I can finally get bck on schedual. Well, I hope everyone has a beautiful day!
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change"
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Sunday, December 7th, 2008
Even though i don’t drink much, it still is alcohol. Number one, I’m not even old enough to drink legally, and number two, I do stupid things and don’t care what I eat when I drink. SILLY girl. I need to stop no joke. I think that is the biggest hinder on me losing the weight I want to lose and gaining the body that I want. But besides that, I put the lease on my new apartment yesterday! Yay! I’m finally going away to college and honestly, I don’t know if I am ready. Mentally I am but physically I hope my body is ready. There is going to be ALOT of temptation there and I just hope that I continue on with what I am doing now and I hope that God gives me the strength to overcome temptations. He is so wonderful to me. I feel so bad today because i was unable to go to church, I mean I could have gone but I was really tired and was being lazy. I figured I could read some of the Bible to make up for it. Anyways, I’m sitting here now drinking a protein shake and reading Oxygen. I was cleaning and dancing in my room but then my friend called and distracted me.(ADD issues? haha) Well, I hope everyone had a great weekend! Tomorrow is a new day for me and from now on I am only taking steps forward and not looking back! Love to you all!
XxoxX -Chelsea
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Tuesday, December 2nd, 2008
Okay so last night I went to the Texans game!! WOOOH! But downfall there is the beer drinking. I need to steer clear of that stuff! lol But it does make the night better! Not going to lie, but it doesn’t do justice on pretty bodies. Anyways, I need supportive friends in helping me not to drink. That’s my goal numero UNO! Quit the drinking… well loves I hope yall have a beautiful day!
xxoxx
Chelsea
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