ccity82’s BodyBlog

I’ve been reading, daydreaming, slightly-doing the "getting into shape" or the "getting healthier" or the "losing weight" thing for over a year.  While I am no where near an expert, nor even necessarily knowledgable, I know that my diet is the most important factor in quest for a healthier lifestyle and body.  Without eating clean, I will never see the muscle hiding underneath these last 20 - 30lbs.  Why then, is it so hard to say no?

 I buy and keep great food in my house.  But everytime someone insists on getting icecream, or stopping for BBQ, or my achilles heel–Chinese, I go along with the plan.  I am so overly concerned with coming off as difficult, or obssessive about food, that I eat to assure my friends I’m still the same ol’girl.  Its hard admitting to myself that I am not the kind of girl that can eat whatever she wants and still look great–there aren’t that many of those girls our there! (at least that’s what I tell myself ).  I think the hardest thing, though, is letting go of this fear that I have about what my friends will think about me if I am more discerning about my food choices.  I highly doubt they will think badly of me.  In fact, they will likely be proud of me for making healthy choices.  I have to stop worrying about what I am missing out on in the present, and remind myself what I am working to.  Maybe I just need a better idea of where I am going?