The journey is long….
The road is not easy to travel, at every turn you just want to stop and take a brake, it seems that you will never reach your final destination! You ask yourself why, how, maybe, if! The questions, the doubts, the failures: they are unwanted guests that keeps your company!
Along the way, you meet brothers and sisters that have given up and accept their current situation as their faith, you will find others that keep on hoping for that magical solution, some are still trying…. And far ahead of you, you see those that have succeed and telling you that you can do it!
This is the journey that I travel every day and with millions of other members of the FAT NATION! We strive to reach that goal, we cry ourselves to sleep at night, stepping out of the door we feel that the world is looking at us. We get used to the looks, the disgusting smiles, the little jokes… they eat away at our self esteem and yet push us to want to change!
The journey is not easy, the temptations are at every corner… yet some of us keep pushing. Will we reach the promise land someday? Or will this be another attempt that leads to failure?
Until then we try to ignore the nasty comments, the dirty looks, go home and cry ourselves to sleep…. And dream of a better future where we are no longer an outcast!
July 22, 2009 at 2:55 pm
This is a beautifull thing you wrote. I like your sensitive side as a man because many won’t attempt to admit they have one. I hope you are not still crying to sleep at night for you have nothing to cry over with all the support and love that surrounds you. People of all sizes get comments that are not so positive daily so hold tight the storm is almost over.