Fit After Four

Ok so I went to see a business presentation last night and turned out to be more of a what is my purpose in life contemplative mode.  So I’ve been in a bit of a funk today but it’s all good… he talked about not wanting to get out of our comfort zones to reach our goals (guilty), having analysis paralysis (guilty!!) and being too worried about failing and looking like a fool (guilty as charged!).

He also said if your dream is big enough, the facts don’t count.  You just go out and DO! ACT! INSPIRE!

It got me thinking, yes, I want to lose weight for me, for my health, for my energy, for the cute little things I’ll be able to wear for my hubby , but I also deep down want to know that my transformation will free someone else to do the same.

So my question to all of you who read this…. when I transform my body into fitness model form, will it inspire you and how?  I need to know this because I need to feel like if I don’t change my life, it will impact a lot of people…

Thanks in advance for responding!

Unfortunately I had to have a truth session with myself today after reading a phenomenal book called "The Slight Edge" by Jeff Olson. 

I was reading it more to reach my business and financial goals and he talks about making those little insignificant daily choices that most people won’t make.  Not CAN’T make…. WON’T make.  Those little right choices add up to reaching your goals over time.

He talks of making a 90 day plan (sound familiar?) of daily habits and how you’ll be shocked at where you’ll be at the end of those 90 days.  He also cautions that the plan is very similar to a penny being compounded on a daily basis over 30 days.  Very little progress in the beginning but if you stay true to the course, the growth is exponential (with the really amazing growth being at the end of the month).

It got me thinking about all the things I’ve heard about all the 90 day fitness programs out there.  So many people say that the first 8 weeks were pretty uneventful with minimal changes and then in that last 4 weeks their body did a 180 and their changes were transformative!

All of us (me included) that have started and stopped programs have merely failed the endurance test.  THIS IS SOOOOO ENCOURAGING TO ME!

I don’t need to find a better program, I don’t need to overanalyze if I’m eating the most negative calorie foods or using the best fat burners etc…. I just need to stay the course till the end…. and the end is not 90 days out….. it’s for life!

So here I am, hesitant to say I’m restarting because I’ve done it soooooo many times before.  But I don’t care!  I’m restarting today…. Aug 6/08 (8 flipping months after I took my before shots…. ok stay positive)…. and I am committing to my first 90 day run by committing to today.  Every day I will need to recommit to my day.

For those of you so inclined…. please pray that I will conquer the flesh…. for those of you not so inclined… I ask that you commit to the same thing and we encourage eachother!

I don’t know where to start…. just going to put my thoughts out there and I’m looking for feedback from anyone who happens to read this…

I have noticed over the past little bit a pattern regarding my weight loss and exercise efforts.

I get frustrated with my weight/energy/wellbeing and so I begin with anger a program.  Then I get some results and start "cheating".  Then I slide 100% backwards into my old ways.  Then I get frustrated with myself and restart again.

This is what just happened to me.  Fortunately, I didn’t slide back too much however I do see this self sabotage happening.

Have any of you gone through this?

On an up note, I am so excited about the new year.  I am starting a new tradition where I am going to book myself into a hotel for 2 days…. no distractions, no phone, no internet…. I will review the past year, set goals, make an action plan, and move ahead strong into the new year.  I’m doing this Dec 27/28 this year and I’m pumped!  I don’t get much time for myself being a mom of 4, business owner, integral part of my church etc so I’m borderline giddy!

Anyway, that’s it for now!  Keep pumping the pump!

Well I’ve been on BB.com and working on my goals for one month.  I have not been consistent until the last week.  I am excited to see that I have lost 2 pounds and lost 1 inch off of almost every body measurement (except my neck, forearms and calves).

I am going to streamline things a bit in that I am going to take measurements and pics on the 1st of the month so I can see changes.

I am also going to crack down on my eating and continue to be consistent in my exercising.

Thanks so much for your support and encouragement everyone!

Well through an unplanned series of events I now have a trainer!   First thing she said was we are going to get your cardio on track then introduce weights.  So I started yesterday with her and MAN! I am in pain today! LOL  She gave me my homework and I have a cardio plan to do for one week, then we go to the weights!

 So anyway, today went well! My goal is to be in a size 12 dress for Christmas!  I will achieve that!

Oh and Bahamas is off for February….   Looks like we will be going to Disneyland end of January so I’ll still get to sport my bikini… I just have one less month to do it in!

Have a great day everyone!

Well I’m mad at a few people today… first one being me.  I last posted Nov 6th and since then I’ve hauled off and done nothing! So I’ve wasted and waisted two precious weeks!  Why?  My mentality!  Somehow I’ve got things mixed up and I think giving myself treats, allowing myself to eat anything I want, not following a schedule, I somehow a reward and having to follow an eating plan, watching what put in my mouth, making good choices and exercising are somehow punishment.

I’ve identified that this is something that needs to change… today.

I’m also mad because I interpreted something someone in my life did and said as saying you’re fat and you’re not eye candy to me.  I know he didn’t mean anything by it… I know I’m overreacting… however, that how I’ve perceived it… and I’m pissed.

So, enough wallowing in the past… today is a new day.

I will take this anger and hurt and put it to good use!

I have already re-started my cleanse today and I will not get off until I feel clean inside.

I will also do some affirmations (reprogramming my mind) until I LOVE exercising! LOL

I welcome any comments/suggestions from everyone, especially people that had to overcome the "eating=good, exercise=bad" belief set.

Here’s to an awesome day… hope it is one for you too!

Ok I’m on Day 1 of my cleanse.  I don’t know how many days I’m going for, all I know is a) it will be a min of 10 days and b) I will have a plan of eating after I’m done so I don’t fall back into my old ways.  It will be interesting to see the difference in my pics during this cleanse.

I am excited about this as I felt so incredible when I did it in July.  Just didn’t have an eating plan in place for afterwards so went back to my old ways.  You live you learn you change!

Hope you all have a great day and I will post some befores in my size 6 bikini!

Ok and for the record, I found a way around my bikini top dilemma (read previous bikini post for the scoop) and I took my official before pics.  I haven’t found the courage to post them but rest assured, I do have them.

Well I have to say a great thanks to goforitnicks.  She sent me a comment on some books she was reading and I have to admit, when I saw the name "Get out of that Pit" my first reaction was "maybe she was in a pit but I’m not in a pit".

I mentally dismissed that book.

Yesterday, I was at the library returning books and capitalizing on some time away from my fabulous four to get some work done. Well I kid you not, I was walking past the shelves in the library (and you all know when you do that the books are just a blur) when all of a sudden my eye catches this book by Beth Moore. 

I got this sinking feeling in the pit (no pun intended) of my stomach like I needed to read this book and I was in total denial.  So I borrowed the book last night.

goforitnicks - your Heavenly Father used you in that comment… know that and thank Him for using you in all your imperfectness.  You sharing that title with me has changed my life.

I realized that the state of my body was (and I emphasize WAS) a direct relation to how much I valued me.  I didn’t value myself as a person enough to take care of me.  To eat properly, exercise, take care of myself….

I stood up for myself last night as well.  I would normally feel guilty for taking so much time in reading because it only benefitted me at the time and I used to have a hard time nurturing me.  I told someone that "I knew what I needed to do for me, I was going to do it, and I was not going to let anyone ANYONE distract me from my goal."  I felt amazing… my heart was racing… I was waiting for the reaction…. the reaction was "Ok" and they walked away!

I AM TAKING MY LIFE BACK AND IT FEELS AMAZING!!!! WOOOOO  HOOOOO!!!!

Thank you again all for your support, well wishes and prayers for me!

Yeah and I neglected to really compute if I would be able to put it on yet for a pic! ;-( So I won’t be taking pics in it just yet.

 So I’m taking the conservative pictures and posting them as well as the infamous bicep pic…. check it out!