The workings of a bipolar mind.

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turned into a drunk fest last night. Woke up early to go to work and the room was still spinning and my head was pounding. Took the last 2 Tylenol and went back to bed. Glad I don’t do this often.

It’s been yoga the last 2 nights and I have to say I’m loving it. My weight lifting had come to a point where I was just going through the motions. I wasn’t thinking about my muscles as I was lifting, the only thing I really wanted to do was just get it done and go home. So needless to say, yoga has been a real treat. A nice way to get back that mind body connection I’ve been missing out on. I’ve lost a lot of flexibility since the old yoga days but I felt so good afterwards. The first night my butt and hips were cramping every time I had to turn out my hips but last night wasn’t as bad. I was able to open up much more. I’m just going to skip the gym the rest of the week and continue the yoga. I’ll be back at the gym next week but definately want to keep the yoga in.

My calories have been insanely low this last week. I usually don’t keep track of them too much since I eat about the same everyday but this past week I’ve been tracking almost everything…….not good. I’ve lost a pound but I’m sure it’ll be back next week. I haven’t been able to stay in the 120 range for more than 2 days and I’m on day 3 right now. We’ll see. Another reason why I’m not hitting the gym this week…calories too low but it’s perfect for yoga.

So the grinch in me is officially gone. Last night I went out and bought a Christmas tree. I haven’t bought a tree in quite a few years…3-4? I know, horrible but I’ve been so depressed the last few years and one year I wasn’t working so I asked my son if he wanted a tree or presents…guess which won. Since then I’ve been finding every excuse not to buy one. No more, this year even with it’s ups and downs has been good. I have nothing to complain about and I’m tired of being doom and gloom. So last night I put up that tree with the lights and trimmings……..ok, it’s no Macy’s tree but it’ll do the trick.

Last night I got the Irongym. The pullup bar advertised on tv. I was so excited after I put it together. I went hauling ass to go hang it up so I could try it out. As I was getting ready to run into the next room I bounced off the doorway………yes folks, I had it horizontal so that the bars were too wide to fit through the doorway and hit both sides of the doorframe. Needless to say I just about clothes lined myself.

So now I can practice my pullups and chinups and get my hiit workouts in a home instead of going to the gym.

So here I sat reading through blogs while munching on a snickerdoodle when I got a message from Jphillips. Just asking how I was doing. Instant guilt trip, he’s helped me with my diet and here I was cheating right in plain online sight.  **hangs head in shame**

So no more cheating. Time to get my ass in gear and do what I need to instead of complaining that I’m not leaning out. It seems that every since I turned 36 my body has changed. What I used to be able to do I can no longer do. I used to be able to eat anything, that’s changed. I used to be able to just do some cardio and the fat would melt off, that’s changed. My diet isn’t completely bad but it could do without the cookies, not even every now and then. I need to add more veggies to my diet and less starchy carbs. So much easier said than done sometimes.

My ass is still sore from Saturdays workout. Did walking lunges instead of squats and that really did the trick.

I’m tired of turkey. I’ve had turkey everyday since Thanksgiving. Can’t wait til I’m done with it. Yesterday was an off day and tonight I have to take my son to basketball practice so I won’t be able to make the gym again. Tomorrow though will be all good.