brownbikerbabe’s BodyBlog

Well, I woke up Sunday morning and raised my right arm up to do my hair in a ponytail, and lo and behold, no pain, it went up!!!

My shoulder felt normal, so what do I do, I decide to sweep and mop the floors and by the time I finished, which was about 20 minutes later…****!!! The pain!!! In my right shoulder!!! I f**cked up whatever progress I might have made in terms of healing!! ARGH Stupid woman! Stupid! Stupid Stupid! I was in pain ALLLL Night! The pulling and pushing motion in my shoulder is not 100% infact I think I just put it back to 10% by pulling that stunt! So I can’t raise my arm up this morning! I can’t raise my arm sideways! I can’t do anything!!!

This may take longer than I thought! The shoulder joint is messed up more than I thought!!!

ARRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!! I am so angry at myself! 

I did a double take too when the doc wrote return to work November 30th! Okay! No problem! I can rest my shoulder, and get back into it sooner by "not" working! Teehee…bonus!!!

Well, actually I hate staying home too cause then I gotta do laundry and sh**! I hate laundry! That’s why I don’t shop anymore! I just look at clothes as if I am buying MORE laundry!

Its a good thing I went on Monday because my shoulder was getting stuck! It hurt to drive! The chiropractor even said so.

I am on anti-inflammatories…I have started physiotherapy at the physiomed office next to my gym. L came to see me on Monday while I was having physio…cutting up my "figure 8’s" an exercise I had to do for my shoulder… he said "I should have a spray paint can in my hands so that I can see my figure 8’s properly" 

"Stop personal training my physiotherapy!…Go away!"

So now he has scheduled his "shoulder injury" session with the chiropractor the same time as mine! Great!!! He can hound me even when he is not training me!

I told him he gave me his shoulder injury disease! He’s contagious!

Well, other than that…not much to write.

Life sucks!

I have more pain in my shoulder at night, and when I wake up I can hardly lift my right arm! What up?!

I am not sleeping on my favourite side…the right anymore, as instructed by the physio chick, ok I didn’t stick a pillow under my arm as instructed…but hell why is it more painful at night? Is it because I am not moving around and using my arm? Damn! I think I’ll pop an advil before bed tonight…DAMN! OUCH!

 Gonna ask the chiro tomorrow…and then ask for an anti-inflammatory script as well!

So last night…for inspiration… I stuck in the movie 300 and GI Jane (I love Demi in that one…but that is about it)

Uh-huh….well although the FAT Girl in me is doing the hap hap happy dance!! brownbikerbabe is kinda annoyed and wants to cat fight and rip out FAT girl’s innards and do the whole hair pulling thing…..kinda like on the Maury show…I don’t watch TV but my patients at work…damn!! some of the TRASH TV they watch!!!

 Yup so no lifting because of my shoulder "injury"! Need physio for 4 weeks, but L thinks I may recover sooner…bring on that protein in those Reese Chocolates baby! HAHAHA….ok, ok…I need to control my eating ALOT! and do cardio! cardio! cardio!

L came by my work yesterday…all the girls at work were all googly eyed and of course I got the looks…hmmmm….."is that your husband?" questions and boy nurses are farkin NOSEY, its what we do for a living! I am sure the rumours are a flyin’ away now….Anyway, he came by to drop off his resume, looks like he can’t make a living off what I pay him…pffft…which is peanuts! So he going to try to get a job at my hospital…and of course…he is major eye candy! I just love watching the mesmerised…"hello big boy" look all the ladies get when they see him…LOL! I am an observer of people! I just love to watch the women ooogle at him! I just treat him like one of the guys…don’t get me wrong…I perv at him too…but only in a have fun kind of way…make jokes and stuff…I would never….er….well…if I was really drunk and we were alone….did I just write that out loud?

 Kulzor! Don’t you dare ESPN that to him!!!!

I shoulda just told him to drop off the resume at the human resources but I also had to give the poor boy his pay from last week…i told him he just wants my money!….LOL!…smart ass told me if he was training me just for my money he would charge me full price!! He’s a good guy and I can say and do whatever I want with him, we have a good report! We argue, we bikker…we joke, we laugh…he is a good trainer, and he likes training me because I am like "one of the guys"…the reason why I am his ONLY female client! He told me he hates training women and some men….who WHIIIINE! I don’t whine…and when I do…he tells me! "STOP WHINING! and lift" and I just do it…like Nike! 

Anyway, I am making a new goal for myself….use this non-lifitng moment to ZEN! Get into a new frame of mind! A new outlook, a new purpose, a new goal!

 Ok, on my way…

ZEN out!

It is a common posture with women who have large breasts for all their lives…Ok, Kulzor…have a field day with that one!

So apparently, the chiro at the gym, whom L introduced me to, took one look at me and said…"you have pronated shoulders, its your posture, you need to walk with your chest up and shoulders back."..Me picturing my boobs pointing to the ceiling, when all my life I have done everything possible to take attention away from my not welcome endowment…damn those genes!!! Always wearing baggy tops, walking with a slight hunch so that they don’t stick out…I guess I have been doing it so long, that my posture has permanently stuck that way…"don’t make that face, it’ll get stuck that way…!!!" the millions of momisms resounding in my ears…."DON’T make that posture….It’ll get stuck that way…!!!"

Funny that, you always want the opposite of what you got!

 Working out with a slight pain in the shoulder has turned into a handicap now! I can’t sleep, I smell like an old lady covered in Rub A535 Antiphlogestine! There is not a movement that doesn’t hurt, even resting position it hurts!!! When I point my shoulders forward, it hurts, when I try to point them back it hurts, I can’t lift my right arm above a certain point without the aide of the left arm.  Heat only helps to a point, I think I need professional help. Will go see the chiro at the gym I think, but I am afraid  he may make it worse. L said the guy at the gym is good, he uses him. so will give him a try.

And to top off my "Woe is me…" phase that i am going through, I went to see a friend I met on line, compete yesterday and we met, she is friggin tiny compared to giantess me…The first thought that came to my mind.."I will never get that small!!!" I will never step on that competition stage…I will never be able to get  muscular! I don’t think I have muscles at all…Waaaaaahhhhh!!!!

 She did  great by the way and I felt proud of her! I was so glad I could go out and show my support for her!

 Eating wise…ermmmm….lets not go there too! I have been eating everything in sight, I am on a binge! And I can’t stop!!!

Everything looks like s%&* right now to me!

P.S. I dress up every year for halloween and it kills me everytime laughing at what people guess is your costume…At work, I got everything from "Pocohontas to midget..WHAT the F!!!, Midget?….LOL! I’m 5′4"…yes, I am trying to be a midget!!! LOL!!!