brownbikerbabe’s BodyBlog

So I can’t seem to get my mind off the fact that I screwed up royally this weekend and binged…badly, it was like the girl who had been perfectly on plan had been repossessed by the former fat girl that lived in this body, and all I could do is stand back and watch in horror as i shoved every cookie, every chocolate every pizza slice into my gob all weekend long! What brought on this brain death? I am so down and depressed that I let this happen, I know i need to get back into it…get right back on the horse! don’t quit! I come here for some inspiration and all I see is pumped up, amazing bodies and wonder will I EVER look like that one day? Were these people ever fat in their lives? Where are all the fat people on this site? The black hole is deep and I can’t seem to see the body I so desire to have anymore, I feel like the will and desire is fizzling, the fire that burned so strong a few days ago has died down, and I should just listen to the fat girl in my head.

 I need a rope people…help me out of this hole.

I have been fighting this battle since 2006!

I have seen many people on here who’s ulitmate goal is to look good naked. I thought of it for a few minutes and remembered my almost breakdown in the dressing room..I was in my undies and I looked terrible. Yes, so now I am joing the tens of people here in there quest to look HOT naked. Sure, anyone can look great in clothes, albeit, they know how to dress according to their age and style and look great in whatever outfit they wear, but how many people can look great naked? I want to be one of those people. So I told my trainer, make me look hot naked!! That is our new goal…but um, of course I will have to be the judge of my own body, I won’t be posting nudies here. Maybe a bikini pic…..maybe! As of right now I have my SeaWorld Jacket (yes, I do really have a SeaWorld jacket!) They hand them out to all the whales that performed there!  I do have  before bikini pics, I took them when I signed up with my trainer. Not purty! I can body double for Michelin man if he ever needed a brown body to do stunts or something…

Ok, I might need an intervention in the near future, people! I am sure just like any noobie that comes here I am wide eyed and have that "holy crap!" look on my face. This place is amazing! There are so many places with information piled up! That I am here every minute I can get time to be online! The pics are amazing and I hope to one day post a lean smokin’ body here too, not smokin’ like smoked bacon, but smokin’ as in eye popping! I have a long journey ahead of me but I am determined…ya I guess you get that when you hit 40 and yup it’s true, things start to sag! I didn’t believe it, but now its happening to me! Yikes! Most of the women I see here theat are 35 years plus and they look hot! hot! hot! So there is hope for me yet!

Everytime I workout and I have to bend over, in aerobics or cardio or stretching…my glasses start to slide down or they fall off!

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