WEAK training day…ZZZZZZ
Today, I got up SEVERLY starving…after I ate, I dragged….yes dragged my ass to the gym. I tried my best. I have not felt so drained in a very long time. Usually I need no motivation to grind out cardio and sets…none. Today, i fought with my self….one more minuite…one more song, one more mile….one more rep….one more excersise….I could not. I felt like I was just forcing myself through the motion; I did not feel it. I had to leave. I felt, like a failure. I told myself that one day of light training is better than nothing…and it is.
My body just said f$%k you bronx raider, i am done.
Well fine ms. body, you better be ready tomorrow I’m gonna rip you up. I am going to walk in that gym and CRAWL OUT on my hands and knees.
Went to softball tournament after in memory of an officer who died, god bless him. Then my mother asked me to train her…lol. She is 50 years old and very slim. NO MUSCLE. So while I gave her 5lb dumbells, I had 15lbs, my viens popped out…and she was like "gross, I don’t want to be like you"…………………….
I was like "So put the wieghts down, and go to the mat and do yoga."
Shit, I’d rather be a shaply vieny woman than a weak pile of bones…(in my head i said that) 
October 9, 2008 at 9:06 pm
Dragging ass through the gym….in 22 year of weight training I’ve probably done it 50 times. Maybe 100? It happens. The good thing is you worked out instead of doing nothing. That’s a victory in it’s own right.
Your Mom not wanting visible large veins in her arms like you have? People should sometimes keep their opinions to themselves but unfortunately they don’t. Most people do not think before they speak. You can’t stop them from doing it so just be thoughtful enough not to do it yourself. I like the response you gave her. Your aces.
-Ed