Something appears to be working.
Lost a whopping 3lbs over the past month. Woo. Have been diligent about avoiding sweets and alcohol since my last desperate post here. Have stopped snacking on my work breaks and only eat a lunch on my meal break. Have been performing a set of various crunches every morning before I get out of bed, which definitely makes a difference in the way I feel, though overall I still feel weak and my joints feel unstable.
Best indication that something is working is positive feedback from my co-workers. With the cooler weather I am starting to wear long-sleeve button shirts tucked in for work instead of loose-ended polo shirts. Haven't been tucking in my shirts because of the disgusting soft roll of fat around my waistline, but it doesn't seem quite as pronounced as it was (or maybe I'm just used to seeing it now?) and I am going on the premise that fat and neat is better looking than fat and sloppy. Surprisingly my co-workers have complimented my shirts now on several occasions, and have even suggested some shirts for me to buy in the store (one woman even bought me a shirt!) all of which I take as a sign that I need to keep wearing the shirts and tucking them in.
I am therefore inspired to set up the commuter bike on the track stand again today and start riding stationary in the mornings before work, get some productive regulated cardio happening instead of relying only on the chaotic, stressful physical demands my job puts on me. Will also make my first few road rides outdoors much, much easier when the weather warms up again in March.
Obviously I have to get started back to the gym, too - after all, I bought this membership with the intent to stay fit during the cold weather, and especially to get my necessary daily dose of UV in the tanning beds. Need very much to work on my core, not just to do crunches, for real functional results. My gym just opened a newer location 2 miles closer to me, too. Kick this ass. Kick it hard.
Mental programming is my most effective tool. I have to get my head right or I won't do a damn thing. But I am finding that the more I bark that emphatic "NO" to myself when the voices in my head say "Eat, Drink, Slack," the more automatic that "NO" becomes. And the more often I get up in the morning saying, "Damn I'm glad I didn't XYZ last night - I feel so much better today!"
Every reason in the world to do the right thing. No rational reason not to get off my ass and make this happen. Here's to dropping the next 3lbs of fat and manifesting a progressively tighter body.