My f*cking back…
GOD HELP ME GET THROUGH THIS TIME OF HURT AND PHYSICAL PAIN…
I have degenerative disk disease. And a bulging disk. All I ever wanted to do was play on the team that I created… I worked two solid years on making that ****ing team, and now I have to pass my position on to my VP. I have no doubt she’ll do a fabulous job, but all the same, I’m ****ing jealous as hell that she gets to take control over it and be everything that I was. In fact, I kinda am a little sorry for her… She’s taken on my responsibilities as well as her previous ones. They are having a officer’s meeting and that will finally replace my position as Captain and President of the club.
It hurts. It pains me emotionally to go out to the pitch and not be able to run or tackle, but only instruct from the side lines. I’m terribly upset at the notion of not being that motivation for the girls to look up to. I just want to help.
I’m going to be coaching a HS girl’s rugby team, so that will be cool. It won’t be the same. I’ll get paid for it and earn some extra buckage, but it will be totally different bc of my crippled back. I love rugby more than any other sport that I can think of, and it rips me open to let all of this slip through my fingers through no fault of my own. 
September 3, 2009 at 11:35 am
Sorry to hear about you losing your Captain and Presidents position and the problems with your back. Unfortunately bad things happen to us that we have no control over. When those things happen to me I say to myself, "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference". Then I ask myself, "well, now what am I going to do?".
By back use to bother me alot and when it got really bad I would go to a chiropractor.
Then last January I bought an inversion table I saw advertised on T.V. My back hasn’t bothered me since.
I definately would not use one of those things without talking to my doctor first.
Best of Luck