I have the same thoughts at times about what ever I do, it is not enough to reach my goal or it’s my fault because I’m not good enough in the first place. It is hard to explain these feelings to the lucky ones who don’t deal with chronic depression on a daily basis. The best way I deal with it is to keep telling myself that I have made improvements in my physique and all I have to do is remember where I was just 10 months ago. I do find that going back to bb has helped my self-esteem, even it if just a tiny bit. Sure, there will always be someone better than me but I know I’m at more muscular and stronger than all the other women I’ve seen at my gym so far. I may not be a winner all the time but I’m sure as hell not a loser either and neither are you!