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Archive for November, 2008
Friday, November 28th, 2008
Good morning everyone,
Hope everyone isn’t loaded up on turkey this morning. Think of all the cardio you could be getting today on Black Friday! LOL.
I am feeling well rested. It was nice to take the week off from lifting. I will be ready to kick some major ass next week. I needed it not only for my physical health but mental as well. I think it was taking a toll on me.
I have changed my goals. I have 2 main ones that I am going to concentrate on right now, because if I don’t fulfill these two , then the others won’t happen.
1.) I am NOT going to speak badly about MYSELF in any way shape or form.
2.) I am going to learn to take every small achievement as a success, and not base it as a failure of my long term goal.
I believe it is these two things that get me on the downward spiral of depression and then I self destruct and lose any gains I have made, so if I continue to fulfill these two goals I will get to my longer term goals faster.
Anyways, have a great day everyone. I am going to take these last two days of "rest" and party hard the next couple of nights!
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Thursday, November 27th, 2008
So, I got my 2nd full night of rest and I feel a LOT better! I think that’s why I was so crabby late last week just not enough sleep. I needed it.
I want to wish a happy turkey day to all my American friends! (No, Canada does not celebrate turkey day in November, ours is on your Columbus Day) Although I could go for some turkey, MMMMMM
However, I will be celebrating this week… not only my wifes company Christmas party is this Saturday, someone you all know and love is becoming a year older on Friday! Sort of hot and cold on it. I one hand I look at this past year and I do see the wonderful changes that have been happening in my life, but on the other hand, I curse myself for not starting sooner. Ah well, I will take this next year and really work at it and improve more and more!
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Monday, November 24th, 2008
Good morning everyone,
Hope you had a good weekend. Mine was pretty hectic, Saturday was *shudder* Christmas shopping at Walmart. I hate going to Walmart on the best of days but during the holiday season… people get that much stupider. I’m the kind of guy that gets what he needs and gets out. I don’t want to look around, I don’t want to chit chat. Get in, get out. LOL Not on that day… following my wife, down the make up aisle, pantyhose, etc. Not my idea of a good time LOL
Sunday was my wife’s company’s kids christmas party, so we brought the grandkids. My wife took care of the baby while I took the other two around to do stuff. It was at a place called Rinx, where they have roller skating, laser tag, mini golf, and whirlyball (think of a combination of lacrosse and basketball played in bumper cars LOL). It was very tiring. I had never rollerbladed before (I had ICE skated and rollerskated with the old fashioned 4 wheel skates but never with inline skates. Didn’t take me long to get he hang of it. My granddaughter didn’t have too much trouble but my 4 year old grandson just didnt have the ankle strength to do it so I was basically dragging him all over. Then he took off the skates and just went out in his shoes and decided it would be fun if he can catch grandpa, so I was skating pretty fast to avoid him LOL. Definitely got my cardio in that day!
Today I got to the gym and I wasn’t feeling too good, sluggish, tired, a bit of a stuffed nose. So I just did my shoulder stretches then hit the bike for half hour at a faster pace than normal.
Hope everyone has a great day and will talk to you soon!
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Thursday, November 20th, 2008
I will start with today’s workout before I get deep on all of you…
BACK DAY
DEADLIFTS
2 sets of 8 @ 225 pounds
2 sets of 3 @ 275 pounds
1 rep @ 325 pounds **PR +10 lbs**
BB UPRIGHT ROWS
4 sets of 8 @ 135 lbs
REAR DELT FLIES
4 sets of 10 @ 110 lbs
I don’t think I will be trying new PRs on the deads for a couple of weeks anyways. I really fought for that and I barely got it up. Will stay at slightly lower weights for awhile.
With the upright rows, I used to do them with an overhanded grip bent down low (60-90 degrees). I was told this week to use underhanded grip and only about a 20-30 degree bend. I found the ROM less. I don’t know it’s because I awsn’t doing them right or my big gut was in the way…regardless they got done.
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Alright, I guess I owe a little bit of an explanation about my latest tirade…
Last night on my way home, I put my hands on my head and really started to think. What is it that is making me feel this way? First of all I want to use an exerpt of a friend’s blog (MissNfinity) It pretty much somes up my life to a T…
“I was once filled with self-loathing and disgust for myself. Those feeling were the basis of a severe bout of bulimia when I was younger and they were part of my daily struggle with major depression. I?m not exactly sure if I was born depressed or if I was made so by environmental and social issues in my upbringing. The point is that I have worked very hard to remove an emotional straightjacket that kept me heavy, isolated, sad and angry. I am not ashamed to say that I take medication on a daily basis to keep myself from falling back into the abyss but I also take personal responsibility for my mental health. I don?t rely only on the medication to improve my life. Years of being depressed and anxious led me to develop personality problems as well. I was under socialized and socially akward. Many times this has led to people accusing me of being stuck up! I have always been a private person and someone who hid their problems”
All of you who follow my blogs know that I often do not like myself and that is my one true downfall. I have to learn to love myself, and on that train ride home, I was thinking about it hard. And I think I have come up with the answer.
I do not love myself because I am never good enough (in my eyes).
Let me explain with an analogy. Say you are climbing a ladder (or stairway, for all you hippies  ) to heaven (stay with me here) you climb and climb and you reach the clouds, and you expect to see heaven soon, then you get above the clouds and you see… more clouds… so you keep climbing getting above those clouds and you see… more clouds still… and it continues on and on never reaching heaven only clouds
Well I go to the gym and I am lifting heavy weights, but I want more, and I keep lifting and lifting, but its not enough, I need to be stronger, so I lift and I lift, and its not enough, I need to get stronger still. There isnt a limit I want to reach. And there lies the problem no matter how much I climb that ladder, no matter how much I lift, in my mind, I will never reach my goal. Is this obsessive (perhaps), but that is where my mind is, and when I think that my goal is not accomplishable, that is when I get down. There are things that trigger it. Like yesterday, I foolishly drifted into the powerlifting area of bb.com and I am seeing videos of teenagers lifting double what I can. Not men my age who have been doing this for 10-20 years but kids who couldn’t have been doing this for that long. And then some 17 year old asks for a friend request on bodyspace, and this what he says… “Hi, my name is josh lively and i’m starting an organization called keep the fat. I know theres alot of pressure to be be ripped nowadays…but i am asking you to go against public perception and cherish your tub, i mean why be in shape when you could eat cake.? think about it…theres a depression coming, and with the bad economy comes hard times…your gonna need all the lard you can get!!”
This from some punk ass who is in good shape…apparantly he sent that to many people to just ‘get a reaction’. Not what I needed at this point.
I know many of you are going to say regarding the goals to make smaller goals and be happy in achieving those… I do and I am happy for every record I break of mine but again maybe its the obsession aspect of it because I never feel its enough I want more and I get upset with myself when I can’t do anymore.
Well, that was long winded, will wait and see what y’all think before I type anymore. Have a great day everyone.
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Monday, November 17th, 2008
Good morning everyone! I hope everyone had a great weekend! Mine was good! Had my karaoke party on Saturday night and had a couple of drinks. Didn’t go overboard like I would have in the past. And then Sunday I sat back and watched some football, came within one game of winning cash again (Damn Vikings!) All in all a fun and restful weekend.
Back at it this morning with legs…
SQUATS
1 set of 12 @ 135 lbs.
Felt something wrong but couldn’t quite place it… so continued on…
2 sets of 8 @ 225 lbs
Definitely felt something wrong. The pressure of the BB on my neck was causing some pain going down my spine. Would have done 2 more sets but decided to err on the side of caution there. But moved on to…
LEG PRESS
5 sets of 10 @ 720 lbs
Those were though getting them all in but I did. I am going to have to try and switch my workouts around so I am doing legs at the weekend gym. I so hate this leg press machine, besides the fact that it can only hold 810 pounds of weight, the back support is not as good as the one at the other gym, will have to work with Titania to try and get something together.
That was it for today, my legs are sore (the good kind). Might have to look at getting a massage sometime this week to correct whatever was bothering me during the squats.
Hope everyone has a wonderful day.
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Thursday, November 13th, 2008
I am feeling better today. Still a bit down on myself but it will pass.
Today I did shoulders… to me it didn’t SEEM like alot of weight but these were exercises I havent done much before so I really dont know how to compare.
CLEAN AND PRESS
3 sets of 8 @ 90 lb BB
SMITH MILITARY PRESS
I did these to make sure it was just the shoulders that got hit
3 sets of 10 @ 70 lbs plate weight + bar
REAR DELT FLY MACHINE
1 set of 12 @ 115 lbs
2 sets of 8 @ 130 lbs
My shoulders were absolutely toast after that, I could barely lift my arms. Feels good.
But I did go after the gym since I ended a little earlier than normal and did my part to help others. I gave blood. Felt good doing that. I kept meaning to but just didnt have a lot of time to get down there with their hours. Will have to do it more often.
I hope everyone has a wonderful day!!!
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Wednesday, November 12th, 2008
Today was back day at the ol’ gym. Ready for some more PRs? Well, too bad, here they are
DEADLIFTS
1 x 12 x 135 lbs
3 x 5 x 225 lbs
1 x 1 x 275 lbs
1 x 1 x 315 lbs *PR by 15 lbs*
BB BENTOVER ROWS
4 sets 8 x 135 lbs *most used prior was 100 lbs*
WIDE GRIP PAT PULLDOWNS
1 x 12 x 120 lbs
2 x 8 x 140 lbs
Feeling better today! Hopefully it keeps up now! Have a great hump day!
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Tuesday, November 11th, 2008
in a shitty mood today…
Not going to whine about it, not going to say anything, just try to work through it…
Hope everyone else has a great day!
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Monday, November 10th, 2008
good morning everyone! Hope this Monday is good for all of you. Mine was okay until I stepped into work and then all hell broke loose! LOL Ah well! Had a great day at the gym at least. Really wrecked my chest…
BENCH PRESS
1 set of 12 @ 135 lbs
3 sets of 3 @ 185 lbs
1 set of 2 @ 195 lbs
1 rep (handed up off the rack) @ 205 POUNDS!!! WOOHOO!!!
DB FLAT BENCH
3 sets of 10 @ 55 pound DBs
PEC FLIES
12 @ 120 lbs
10 @ 140 lbs
8 @ 160 lbs
5 @ 175 lbs
Then to finish it off another set on the bench press of 8 reps @ 135 lbs to failure.
I mentioned last week that I had someone new giving me a hand with my training. I wanted to start training for strength and power. Donica gave me the workouts for the past three weeks. But now, I have someone who is a champion powerlifter helping me, Titania. She has seen how supportive I am and how hard I have been working myself and volunteered to help me as much as she could. She doesn’t normally do this for free, but since she said I am such a good friend that she will make an exception. I am so excited to really start getting stronger! And today it shows already with my bench!
Hope everyone has a great day! Hugs to everyone!!!
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Friday, November 7th, 2008
Good morning everyone! Today was a planned rest day, giving my arm a chance to rest. It feels good but not going to push anything and give it a couple of days just in case. Tomorrow is legs, not going to go for any records but I plan on doing working sets of 10-12 reps with 810 pounds! Never would have thought that I would be working with 800+ pounds a year ago. Might do some hack squats and try for more weight on those, but don’t want to try reg squats with my arm. Will see how it plays out tomorrow. Emotionally, I am still hanging in there. Doesn’t help that my wife is an emotional wreck right now with it being the anniversary of her father’s death. She was VERY close with her father and every year it affects her in a bad way. And add to it this year her eldest son being an insensitive ass, it is making things very tough in the household this week. But we are trying our best. Looking forward to the party we will be hosting next Saturday. (You are all invited if you can make it to Toronto ). I just hope ti doesn’t turn out like the last one where 15 confirmed coming and only 3 showed up. I love to sing and this should be a blast. Anyways, hope everyone has a great day (and weekend if I don’t talk to you) Stay strong my friends!
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