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"OBF contest begins September 27, 2009 ---
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Archive for September, 2008
Monday, September 29th, 2008
Well, I am feeling much better today. My cold seems to be on the down slope, and mentally I feel refreshed. It is odd that one small comment can put you in a downward spiral. I am going to try my hardest to not let those comments get to me, but just as they say that after years of poor eating and no exercise you can’t expect to get the body you want, after years of negativity and low self esteem you can’t expect to just be all happy and giddy all the time. It will take time to get through this, and through therapy and the positive remarks I am getting from all of you. It will get better.
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Tuesday, September 23rd, 2008
Well, I went to see the therapist yesterday. Without going into too many specifics, I finally figured out what the problem is. Now, the problem is trying to come up with a solution to my problem. It is not going to be easy but I have to do, for my own sanity.
Thank you to everyone who offered solace and advice. I am not completely over it, but I am past the not caring and quitting part of it. I am hitting the gym again hard and not looking back. No sense in completely self-destructing myself before I can stop the destruction completely.
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Monday, September 22nd, 2008
Just a short blog today. I am still feeling like crap emotionally, and on top of it, I woke up with a stuffy nose and sore throat. When it rains it pours.
Hope everyone had a good weekend.
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Friday, September 19th, 2008
Today, I am going to be rambling a bit, sort of like a real journal, so I apologize in advance for it’s length and subject matter…
Yesterday, I wrote a blog titled “I’m sorry”. In it I was commenting on the different types of people that are out here, and how some are only here for self-promotion, some are here to put others down, some who need help, and then there are those great great people that has a kind word for everyone and really supports and encourages. The intention of that blog was to sort of tell those who are not here to support or to genuinely seek help that we don’t need you around. But because I wrote it as if I was apologizing people thought that I was genuinely apologizing. It was meant as tongue-in-cheek.
Anyways, the real reason I wanted to write a journal today, is that something was said to me, by someone very close to me and it sort of got to me. Sort of made me feel like I had to be treated with kid gloves. Am I really sensitive that people has to watch what they say around me. And the answer unfortunately is yes. I am such an emotional and mental wreck that the smallest negative comment sends me into a downward spiral again. This is really hindering my progress. I need to really work on my mental strength before I can even think about working on my physical strength because without the mental strength, the chances of me self-destructing are so much greater. So far, I have not cheated on my diet or anything to sabotage what i have accomplished thus far, but I am so down and depressed that I don’t feel like anyone cares anymore. I know the only one that should care is me, but in this mindset, I don’t feel like caring anymore either, and that scares me. I don’t want to go into how I got to this point in my life as many of you have already heard that ad nauseum, the important thing is that I need to get out of it. I am going to therapy, and taking medication, and I don’t feel as bad as I used to. I mean, since being on the medication, I have had no thoughts of suicide, (I did many many times before). But I still feel on certain days that I don’t belong anywhere, that no one wants me around, and to me that is just as bad.
If anyone can offer any suggestions, I am very willing to listen. All I want is my life back.
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Wednesday, September 17th, 2008
I apologize to some of you out there that I put up pictures of myself that are not the beacon of health right now. Some people for whatever reason doesn’t see the benefits of working out and proper nutrition until later in life. Some people grow up in an atmosphere where everyone around them is big and eating whatever they want. It will take years to correct the mistakes I have made and I can only hope that you can try and understand that and support and help me in any way possible.
I also apologize to those of you that don’t like to receive compliments. I try my best to encourage everyone, whether they are just starting out, or a professional figure/fitness/bodybuilder. I know the dedication needed for this sport and I want you to know that you are looked up upon, even if those around you do not. If you do not need or want any encouragement please feel free to tell me so, and I won’t disturb you.
And most importantly of all, I apologize to myself, for not taking care of my body the way I should have all those years! I am giving it my all to get myself into better shape, but it will take time, so please be patient. And I know, that there have been rough times and you get down on yourself pretty easily. But as well as the physical part of me, I am going to work hard to improve the mental side and make myself stronger in that aspect of my life.
I know now that there are many different types of people out there. Some are very supportive of everyone, some are here to promote themselves in one way or another, some are here because they need help, and others still are here to make themselves feel good by putting others down. All I ask is that, please accept my faults, know that I am trying to get better, and watch me succeed. Because I will be watching you succeed as well.
And to those who can’t do that… then… I’m sorry.
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Tuesday, September 16th, 2008
I did NOT want to get out of bed, alarm goes off at 3:45 am, didn’t get out of bed until 4:30. Finally got up ate my oatmeal and out the door. I wanted to concentrate more on the chest work today…
INCLINE DB PRESS
12 x 55 lbs
10 x 55 lbs (fail)
8 x 55 lbs (fail)
SMITH BENCH PRESS (PLATE WEIGHT ONLY)
2 sets of 15 x 90 lbs
1 set of 12 x 110 lbs
PEC FLIES
15 @ 105 lbs
15 @ 120 lbs
13 @ 120 lbs (fail)
CABLE ROWS
1 x 15 @ 100 lbs
2 x 12 @ 120 lbs
LAT PULLDOWNS
1 x 15 @ 100 lbs
2 x 12 @ 120 lbs
Still have the quad DOMS going on but still did 20 minutes on the bike, 6.63 km traveled, 271 calories burned! Plus 20 minutes walk into work
40 MINUTES TOTAL CARDIO
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Monday, September 15th, 2008
Well even though my quads were still feeling major DOMS from Saturday’s record leg presses (900 pounds for 2 reps!!!). I went through my leg routine today. I had to literally drag my sorry ass up the stairs to the change rooms afterwards LOL
SLDLs
1 x 15 @ 100 lbs
3 x 12 @ 135 lbs
HACK SQUATS
1 x 15 @ 90 lbs
3 x 10 @ 180 lbs
SEATED LEG CURLS
1 x 15 @ 100 lbs
3 x 12 @ 140 lbs *PR*
CALF RAISES ON SEATED LEG PRESS
3 x 12 @ 395 lbs *ENTIRE STACK*
Then I decided to throw some tricep work in as well
ROPE TRICEP EXTENSIONS
1 x 15 @ 70 lbs
3 x 10 @ 90 lbs *PR*
TRICEP DB KICKBACKS
3 x 12 @ 20 lbs each
DB SKULLCRUSHERS
3 x 12 @ 40 lbs
25 minute walk into work (slower as my legs were sore LOL)
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Tuesday, September 9th, 2008
I knew I had to kick it up a notch…
SUPERSET
INCLINE DB PRESSES - 3 sets of 10 w/55lb DBs *PR previous 50*
WIDE LAT PULLDOWNS - 3 sets of 12 @ 120 lbs
SUPERSET
FLAT DB PRESSES - 3 sets of 10 @ 55lb DBs
CABLE ROWS - 3 sets of 12 @ 110 lbs
SUPERSET
PEC FLIES - 3 sets of 12 @ 120 lbs *PR*
STANDING LAT PRESSDOWNS - 3 sets of 12 @ 100 lbs
ASSISTED DIPS - *Previous Best -180 lbs*
1 set of 10 @ -170 lbs
2 sets of 8 (fail) @ -160 lbs
I was absolutely beat after that workout, I only did the 20 minute walk into work today as I had to come in early to get something done. Will do more tomorrow.
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Monday, September 8th, 2008
So I feel like I am letting everyone down, including myself. My eating this weekend was horrible. I have worked hard in the gym and I have nothing to show for it in 1 month of work. I’m sorry to my friends who are looking to me for inspiration and motivation. I am a fraud.
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Thursday, September 4th, 2008
Felt like crap this morning, very tired. Barely slept, so much humidity last night. But got up and out early this morning to get my workout in…
Todays workout - ABs
BALL CRUNCHES - 3 sets of 15
REVERSE CRUNCHES - 3 sets of 15
AXEHANDLE TWISTS - 3 sets of 15 @ 60 pounds
BACK EXTENSIONS - 3 sets of 12 @ 10 pound plate
CARDIO - 30 minutes on bike, 10.02 km. (6.21 miles) 426 calories burned
plus 20 minutes walk = 50 minutes total cardio and figures now I can smell the bakery stuff coming down the hallway and my stomach is growling…must stay strong!!! LOL
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