Blog Entry
OK its been a while since I have posted a real blog. So there is a lot to talk about it. I will do my best to summarize everything in as few words as possible.
1.) I finally had the talk with my wife about my changing my habits for the better. She supports me wholeheartedly but she feels bad that she does not have the willpower I have to keep it going. She said she didn’t really believe me when I said I was going to start working out and eating better because I had said that in the past nad failed. Now she realizes that I am in this for the long haul now and she fully supports me, even asking if I need anything at the health food store while I am at the gym. NOw if only I can get her to start exercising some with me, or at the very least stop smoking… one step at a time.
2.) I have been thinking about the Circle Bash alot lately. I look at all the people that are going. And as much as I am working hard to lose weight and gain strength, I still feel inadequate. I know as my friends, no one is going to look down on me or say anything negative towards me, but in my mind, I can’t help but think that even though I will probably be one of the heaviest people there, I will also be one of the weakest, even with my great gains. It shouldn’t bother me, well it does and it doesn’t. I am still going and I am going to have a great time, but it still weighs heavily on my mind. Add to that my thoughts of myself and my looks, its not a pretty picture.
3.) I am very pleased with my workouts so far. My gains have been impressive. But as most people I want more sooner. I just wish I had someone to workout with so I can get a little spot and work beyond failure. One day, I hope.
Thanks for listening. Hopefully I haven’t put you all to sleep. See you soon.
May 7, 2008 at 12:10 pm
Brian, that is great about your wife! Sometimes showing by example is the best. I know my kids have been eating healthier since I started this whole adventure. Maybe as she continues to see you working out and eating healthy, she will come around too!!
May 7, 2008 at 8:25 pm
I definitely agree - your wife acknowledging that you’re putting 110% into this is a HUGE breakthrough! Hopefully she’ll join the healthy bandwagon with your positive influence, too!
And my dear, dear Brian - I know that you have to believe it within yourself, but you KNOW that the people at the Bash will have nothing but love for you! It’s a bash, not a contest, sweetie, don’t forget that! Have some fun for me there… I mean it!!
May 8, 2008 at 10:41 am
Woohoo on the wife. Positive changes. The bash is going to be fabulous. Its the one place none of us has to worry about who looks the best. Dont stress over it. Have fun. Thats what I plan on doing. I cant wait to see everyone.
May 8, 2008 at 12:07 pm
Bri,
Glad to finally read that your wife is being supportive. Like you had to..when she is ready she will make changes for herself.
As for sizing yourself up to others.
Bri, The only person you should compare yourself to is yourself. Look how far you’ve come. You’ve worked hard and honest at it.
It shows!
Keep your chin up.
May 8, 2008 at 12:47 pm
Brian,
Keep on Keepin!
Thats great your wife is showing you the Love! I know I really enjoy my time in the gym with my wife….. some special Momma Time is always good too (wink) Now about the Bash!! Brian we already like you for you!…. not what we think you should look like or lift. The Bash is about friends and celebrating all the support we share. My only goal is to keep up with Canadians in the drinking department…lol Put your mind at ease….. I’m all about the food and drinks…not what others will think.
Real Men Have Mass!
May 9, 2008 at 8:01 pm
LMAO good thing im not going..it would be no problem keeping up with this canadian chick LOL
Brian i hope you do enjoy the bash and i know you will..you are so loved in the circle and your support to a lot of us is appreciated. Even though you dont know how much so.
Your doing great…and the wife supporting you makes me so happy to hear that..you are a lucky man right there…
Appreciate the things you have and the things you can do.
May 13, 2008 at 9:41 am
I know where your wife is coming from, I was there just a short while ago. My husband has incouraged me to start getting healthy again and I’m feeling good about it, just hope I can still do it.