blsmith’s BodyBlog

I apologize to my loyal reader (ok ok theres more than one).  I know I have been lacking in the blog department.  I have been doing most of my writing in the evil area known as the forum. The past week has been an interesting one to say the least.

Firstly, I was feeling a bit down still, not depression per se just I don’t know, just not seeing the results I want, but then again, thats wath everyone says about themselves right?  I did take a week off of the gym because of teeth problems, but now that is taken care of and I am back into it.  I have a good friend here in Bodyspace that has put together a program for me to follow, and I have someone else that is working on my diet.  So things are looking up.  I also got a whole load of new supporters all of a sudden in the forums… so that made me feel a little better.

But what made the week most interesting, was in regards to the contest with Steve.  The readers digest version is this… throughout the 12 weeks, Steve did not take any progress pics, show any updated measurements, basically doing nothing we agreed the contest would be, and for the past couple of weeks I had resigned to teh fact that he had given up. Well he writes this message in the forum saying who the f*ck I am to say that he quit, he has a life outside this f*cking site and he has gotten what he needs so f*ck off.  Never mind, that he didn’t do any of the things the contest asked of him, never mind that I have been on there alomst daily writing something in our thread on the forum, putting updated photos up, and oh, never mind the fact how worried I was about him when he told me that he wanted to kill himself and had many of our mutual friends message him to tell him everything was going to be okay.  I am the insensitive one for wanting him to post once a week with some updates.  Well, you would have thought that I would get down or want to stop our contest.  I told him if he wanted to stop I wouldnt care about the prize and he basically said fine goodbye, and I felt this huge load come off of my shoulders.  I felt a fire burn inside of me.  I am more focused than I Have ever been, as much as I have said in the past how I am working hard and everything, it has truly happened now.  No one is standing in my way anymore, I am a fire breathing, iron pumping, son of a b*tch… so Bryan, Marmoset, if you need a third to rid the world of zombies, the human flamethrower is on stand by… Look out world Brian the Lion is on the prowl

Well, I have one more week in a personal tranformation challenge with Steve (showmesteveo).  I took some progress pictures today and I don’t see any change. I mean yes I do feel the change in my clothing, but I don’t feel any thinner, I don’t feel any stronger. I just feel blah.  I know I worked hard through this. I know I helped others along the way. And I should be happy with these changes.  BUt I just don’t see them, and it is making me depressed.  I know the lines, it’s not a sprint it’s a marathon… but it would be nice to know that I’m not on a treadmill going nowhere.

As some of you know I have battling a battle with my teeth, so I have not been going to the gym the last few days.  I will be ready to go again tomorrow.

But since I have the soap box right now, I would like to rant a bit if I may.  I have been parusing the forums a little more lately… and there are often times when someone will make a comment and then have to finish it with a (no …)

That is, say a guy compliments another guy on his physique, at the end he feels he has to put (no homo) or someone compliments a child on here and they have to say (no pedo)

Whatever happened to the concept of complimenting and saying nice things and encouraging others no mater what age, sex, or race… Its that indictative of todays society that people have to put these little tags so that no one thinks you are a dirty person… I don’t know why but it pisses me off.  I compliment many people, men, women, and children, and I do not feel I have to say I’m not anything because the people that know me, knows I am not hateful or sick…

I just realized that Wed. marked the one year anniversary of when I started Bodyspace.  It’s time for me to reflect on what this year meant to me…

1.) I have become serious with weight training, whereas before it was weak-hearted attempts at what I thought was weight training.

2.) My mood although fluctuating, is more good than bad, and I could not have said that before.

3.) There are genuine people out there that really do care and want to see you succeed.  Thank you my friends, and those in the Circle.

I hate singling out people but I really want to thank some great people on here…

daretosoar (Steph)- One of the first people that talked to me and had lengthy conversations with.  Your dedication is very inspiring.  I can only hope to reach the mind set you have gotten to.

sparkie - Another original friend.  Always with a kind word. Thank you foe being there this past year. 

 BryanGee and NinjaBill - I’m putting both of you together since I met you both about the same time, the cogs of the circle, you have shown me that dedication and hard work knows no bounds, in all aspects of life.

And my other friends that mean so much to me…pixiglitterpants, IronIc, NotTooLate, donica, WV4×4mom, hammiemam, and there are others but I am having a brain fart… Just know that I hold dear the friendships we have forged, and I look forward to many more years of laughter, sweat and tears.

Thank you FRIENDS!

I walk in to the gym and I see the same crew from Monday. I sigh deeply and go get changed.  As I change the guys come into the change room.  Thank god they are done for the day… I hit shoulders and upper back HARD!!! Feeling it today.  Then 20 minutes on thefitness setting of the elliptical where it tells you to spped up, slow down, concentrate on pushing, pulling, or just legs and goes reverse… Great workout… Tonigh is legs, pray for me…LOL

Todays workout Friday March 7 CHEST

5 minute warmup on recumbant bike

Smith machine bench

1 x 15 x 50 pounds + bar
2 x 10 x 70 pounds + bar
1 x 9  x 70 pounds + bar (failure)

Dumbbell bench flies

3 x 15 x 10 each arm

Cable crossovers

1 x 15 x 30 lbs. each side
3 x 15 x 40 lbs. each side

Pec Flies

1 x 15 x 20 lbs.
1 x 15 x 35 lbs.
2 x 15 x 50 lbs.

Assist dips

200 pounds of assistance (= 119 pounds of resistance)

sets of 7, 5, 5 all failure

I didn’t do cardio today as my legs still had DOMS from Wednesday and I wanted to beat the storm home.

Please let me know what you think of that workout…

Workout Wed. 03/05

LEGS!!!

Smith machine squat

3 x 10 x 70 lbs + bar whatever that is lol

Seated Leg Press

1 x 15 x 75 lbs
1 x 15 x 115 lbs
1 x 15 x 155 lbs
1 x 15 x 195 lbs
1 x 15 x 215 lbs

Seated Leg Curl

2 x 15 x 40 lbs
1 x 15 x 60 lbs
1 x 15 x 80 lbs

Lying Leg Curl

1 x 15 x 30 lbs
2 x 12 x 50 lbs

Seated Calf Raises

1 x 15 x 45 lbs
2 x 15 x 70 lbs

Cardio - Elliptical

20 minutes, 343 calories, 2.97 km. (1.85 miles)

I felt good, my legs were jelly going up the stairs to the change rooms.  That’s the way it should be! WOOOO!

Well I had my suspicions all along but they have now been confirmed…

 My scale lied to me.

I had an inkling in October of last year when I went to visit my stepson in the hospital and I saw a scale outside of his room and when I used it, it showed about a 30 pound difference from my home scale, but I didnt pay it any mind as you are supposed to use the same scale at the same time of day etc.

Well, now after joining the gym, I decided for kicks I would step on the scale there.  Their scale only goes to 300 and it was off the chart…Then at the other gym location they have a large industrial scale that goes to 1,000 pounds.  I step on it and it shows me at 321.  At home I as 285.  The problem with my scale I had noticed was that the numbers woul fluctuate greatly at a 40 pound spread so I was always unsure if it was correct or not.

Well my wife has bought me a new BF% scale, and going by the scales at the gym it is accurate.  It has me at 319 pounds.

Now, the quandry is, how do does knowledge affect my transformation contest.  I might have to ignore the weight aspect of the contest and base everything on tape measures and strength gains.  At least I know I will have accurate readings from now on…