blsmith 
"Just trying to get healthy...some how."
|
| Created: | 03/13/2007 |
| Total Visits: | 7766 |
| Total Blog Entries: | 126 |
| Total Comments: | 384 |
|
May 8, 2009
On Tuesday, I went to see the doctor for my results of the bloodwork I had done as part of my annual physical. For the most part everything was fine, but the result of one test came back that I do have a risk of heart disease in the near future, even though my cholsterol levels are good, she said I have to maintain this level or better.
I’ve been thinking alot since I came back from the doctor. How here May 2009 that I am worried about a chance of heart disease, whereas in November 2007, I was ready to end it all with one leap.
In that 18 months, I have done alot of work on myself both physically and mentally, I have met some extraordinary people here, and more importantly, I am starting to like me. I’m not at the point where I love myself yet, but I know that will come with alot more work. It’s like they say, you don’t get anything for nothing, you have to work for everything you get. As much as I thought I was working, I wasn’t. Although even still from where I was until that point in November 2007, I achieved so much but I was too blind with pain and sadness to realize this.
Some of my history, From 1994-late 1996. I was pretty much on the street. I was on welfare, I was in a cockroach infested apartment shared with 3 other disgusting men, one with severe schizophrenia. I sometimes couldn’t sleep at night because he would be yelling at himself all night long. Every Monday I would go to a local soup kitchen for dinner. It was there that my glimmer of hope to get out of this came. A TV crew came in and they were looking for people to onterview about their time in poverty. Hardly anyone wanted to volunteer because they have been in trouble with the law in the past. I had no problem sharing my story so I volunteered.
For the next month, I was interviewed, followed, trying to give people a glimpse of what it was like to be where I was. In appreciation the producer helped me get my papers together to get into college, and I believe through their help, I was accepted for the January 1997 semester. There, I also got a part time job at the athletic department. I became the voice of the basketball team, the PA announcer for all the games being held at the school. Then in February 1998 is when I met my future wife. In June of that year I moved in with her and got my first full time job and I haven’t looked back since.
So I should be thankful that my life has turned out the way it did and not dwell on all the negativity I percieve to have around me. I have a lot more learning to do, and a lot more fighting both physical and mental, but I know in the long run, my life will only get better and better. The fight IS ON!
Posted in Training
April 9, 2009
Thought I would do a quick update on what is going on..
I am ni week 4 of my transformation contest. I am doing okay, but not as good as alot of the other competitors. This week I haven’t really felt it, if you know what I mean. Glad that I am making progress though as slow as it may be.
Home life is good, finally I am getting support at home although this week it has been bad with the diet.
Other than that its the same old same old. Hope everyone else is still kicking it hard. I am watching!
Posted in Training
February 5, 2009
I know I haven’t posted in here for awhile! I have been concentrating on my workouts. I have been posted on my and Lisa’s contest page http://bodyspace.bodybuilding.com/ANBITC and on the forums. But here is a little synopsis of what has been going on the past month or so.
Workouts are going great. I have a new trainer that is really kicking my ass. I know that with her help I am going to be ready to compete in 2010.
My moods have been better for the most part. The last week I have ben upset alot as there has been a lot going on, my father is back in the hospital, work has been stressful, stuff like that. Otherwise I am feeling okay.
I am very much looking forward to being at the Arnold this year. I have the tickets, ready to meet everyone there.
And that’s pretty much it. I hope that everyone is doing well and keeping at it. I will talk to you all soon. Stay strong my friends.
Posted in Training
January 13, 2009
Even though I have been working hard the past little while, and making some great gains. I still needed that little boost. Well now I will have it in an online trainer that will be monitoring my workouts and diets harshly to get me in much better shape sooner. She has me starting her workouts on Monday and will be altering them as need be. I can’t wait to get this started and really seeing a big difference in my body composition! No looking back now! It’s time to go hard or go home!
Rock on, my muscle buddies and babes! Have a great one! 
Posted in Training
January 2, 2009
Good morning everyone! Happy 2009 to all! This is going to be a great year! Already I see great changes coming my way! I am going to kick ass this year! I am going to work my butt off and really show a great improvement in myself! I already feel like mentally, I am feeling GREAT! I know I have said it before but I really feel like something clicked the past week! I have noreason to get down on myself, so only upward to go from here! This is the only me I have, have to make it the best me I have!
Have a great day everyone!!!
Posted in Training
December 27, 2008
Good morning everyone! Hope you all had a great holiday! Mine was okay, didn’t really get alot but my wife agreed that we will get each other’s gifts after christmas…(grand)kids comes first. We can go shopping together and say I want this and buy it for them guilt free. She already said that she is getting me a leather jacket. She knows I always wanted one. (Apologies to any PETA members that read this  )
Some good news…on Christmas Eve, I weighed myself, and I was at a dismal 318.8 pounds. I weighed myself this morning after all the holiday madness…and I am DOWN to 315.5 pounds…WTF??? I know I was exercising alot with the grandkids. At one point I was military pressing the oldest one and I stopped at 10. She said that’s it? I want you to go to 30. LOL So I pressed her 20 more times LOL. There wasn’t a body part missed with that workout believe me! 
Had a quick talk with my wife (the bigger one is yet to come) she apologized for overreacting like that. My stepson was also there when we were talking and he was talking about getting into shape too. We will be moving into a bigger aparatment in the spring and 1 bedroom will be a dedicated gym area for us. We already have a bowflex. My stepson said he is going to buy an elliptical. And I said there is only one thing I want… a power rack. If I can get that then I will work out more at home, so that should appease her with the going to the gym too much. If there is room she said no problem. So I am looking forward to that.
Anyways, hope everyone is having a great Saturday! Will talk to you all soon!
Posted in Training
December 22, 2008
Brand new year coming up and with it comes all of these transformation contests…Hydroxycut, Musclemag, Ironman, Gaspari, etc. I wanted to join one of them to really get started with this, and lo and behold not one allows anyone outside of the U.S. to enter. I understand international laws and everything, but just once I would like the companies to recognize that there are other people beside Americans that would like to use their products, but what incentive do we have to try them? I am planning on really starting hardcore, finally getting some supplements, but whose do I choose? I have an idea of what I want but…
Anyways, enough about that. I am feeling good. Kicking ass in the gym ready to finally get rid of this fat once and for all and be proud of how I look. I know this won’t be an easy journey, but I am willing to sacrifice anything to get there.
If I don’t talk to you beforehand, have a wonderful Christmas (Hannukah for my Jewish friends) and a wonderful, prosperous and fit 2009.
Posted in Training
December 19, 2008
Here are some of my goals for 2009:
The three main ones for the year are:
To complete the CN Tower stair climb
To not say anything negative about myself and work my ass off in the gym
To lift 1,000 lbs total in the three powerlifting lifts
And the rest:
Health and wellness:
1.) To be able to fit into a pair of size 44 JEANS
2.) To stay away from all processed foods
Financial:
1.) To move to a bigger apt. and purchase brand new furniture
2.) Increase the amount I put into my pension fund
Recreation:
1.) Take ballroom dance classes with my wife
2.) To go to the Arnold and enjoy myself completely
Intellectual:
1.) Learn to speak French
2.) Take some accounting courses
Relationships:
1.) Go and see my parents and siblings more often
2.) To spend more time making my marriage work
Career:
1.) Learn as much as possible about the Angus system
2.) To establish a much needed filing system
And then one BIG one for 2010:
I WILL BE ON A BODYBUILDING STAGE!
Posted in Training
December 14, 2008
Good morning my friends,
I am up earlier than usual on a Sunday morning because of this damn cold that won’t shake free. Started off it wasn’t too bad but then it just got worse and worse even with trying to take all the precautions to avoid it. Not planning on going anywhere today so some ret and fluids are on the menu for today.
I want to talk a bit about the title. Alot of you are asking what the heck is the ANBIT Challenge. Well, I will tell you! About mid way through this year, I was telling everyone that I wanted to participate in this year’s big transformation contest that my friends Steph and Maddi particpated in last year. Well, the only contest I see is the Hydroxycut contest that is going on, and its not open to Canadians. I was talking to my friend Lisa (MissNfinity) about it as she wanted to join it this year, but she can’t use Hydroxycut so she can’t join either. So we decided to come up with our own challenge called the ANBIT (All Natural Bodybuilding International Transformation) Challenge. No prizes are invloved (unless someone wants to kick something in, LOL. I think that it will be a great way to keep ourselves honest and on the right track. We are also opening it up to anyone else that might be interested in coming along and get some great support and motivation. So if anyone is interested, please feel free to let me or Lisa know.
Hope everyone is having a great weekend! Talk to you all later!
Posted in Training
December 11, 2008
I think I have figured out one of the main reasons why I get down…
Yes, I encourage others, I like to think I am a great cheerleader to my friends. But I think I use that to compensate for my lack of esteem. That I make everyone else feel so great that I ignore MY feelings and I get low as the others around me feel high. It is something I have always done and it is hard for me to think about ME first. VERY hard.
This is something I have always done, even during my childhood. I was all about other people, making them feel good, possibly because I was using the old adage that do unto others as you want them to do unto you. But I never got that back. The first time I got the feeling of people truly caring for me is in here on this site. So this is still very new to me. I have to learn to self-help, but I honestly don’t know how. Please, if anyone can shed some light on this and possibly help me help myself. I would be forever greatful. I have been given some names of books to read and I am going to look for those but if anyone has had similar experiences would love to hear them.
Posted in Training
|
View all comments | Leave Comment