bigjeff0065’s BodyBlog

I kept thinking over the summer that I was going to do a clean bulk for winter, but I just cannot seem to allow myself to do it.  I’m so close to my dream goal that I had two years ago that I just can’t let it go.  Even if I obtain a large improvement through a bulk for next year, I can’t let go.

My dad always said, "Never resist a temporary inconvenience if it results in a permanent improvement."  I use this saying every day to my coworkers and I follow it, but not this time.  I think it has a lot to do with fear.  Irrational fear, maybe.  I guess having been overweight to downright obese most of my life, I am scared to even allow a 10 lb gain even if it’s done clean.  I know deep down that I control my weight.  I control my diet.  I know I can work off the additional fat, as I have done it before.

So, knowing that my fear is irrational, I am going to proceed with an ultra-slow clean bulk.  At least at first.  A couple of changes here and there to kind of slowly acclimatize my mind to working with me.  Once I get my brain behind this, then I will up the pace slightly. 

Other than that, I have had some great workouts lately, but am not seeing much change, but I can feel some changes in the fit of my clothes, so far so good.

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