Blog Entry
It’s amazing to see how exercise has completely transformed me, mentally and physically. I don’t ever remember being cranky much, but I hadn’t lifted in 5 days and by the time last night was here I had had enough. That’s basically the only time I have for myself and I would have lifted on Tuesday if not for my parents and my brother. My brother has expressed interest in working out with me, and did so at least once a week for quite a while. But now he’ll tell me he wants to get back into it, and then doesn’t answer his phone when I call to comfirm it. Hasn’t even bothered to give me an excuse. F**k him. My parents have to see my little ones once a week, or they just can’t stand it. So I was there until 9:00 pm. I don’t mind visiting, but it wouldn’t be so bad if the kids weren’t up before 6:00 most of the time. Since I started working out at night, I get nothing but distractions from that schedule and I end up being up much later than I want to be. Maybe I complain too much, but getting pulled in five different directions sucks. Clean the house, fix the car, take the kids here, shop for groceries. Sometimes being the stay-at-home sucks. Guys aren’t made for it, I thought I could be but I’m not. However, there is light at the end of the tunnel, in three years they’ll all be in school. Freedom!
