June 15th. Frustrated.
So this has been a difficult and sloppy week to say the least. I was working out extremely hard and diligently every single day until I left Orange County to come up to see my mom and Mayah. I worked out on Monday the 9th before I drove up, but since I got here I have only gotten 1 workout in all week!!! I worked out on Wednesday, but haven’t been able to work out since, and it is very frustrating. The gym is not close by, and the time that I did make the drive out to the gym, I spent 35 minutes trying to find parking before giving up and coming home. Oakland sucks ass, especially the parking, so I will be glad to be back in Orange County tomorrow night, and I can’t wait to get to the gym and work my ass off to make up for the lost time. The days off are probably good for my body, I need the rest, but I have also been eating horribly since I have been up here!! The time that I spent with Mayah was a lot of fun, but we ate TONS of junk food and I feel like a fatty! So I am really looking forward to getting back on track this week and pushing myself really hard in the gym, as well as eating cleaner and feeling better about myself lol.
I need to start planning for my marathon training!!!! I had intended to start my training by now, but was unsure as to where I will run, where I will be living, and if I would have a training partner or not. But I can’t focus on everything else, I need to just focus on me and taking care of business and getting things done.
I’m not sure what I am doing about a place to live still, but I feel confident in my ability to survive and figure things out. It has been nice being up north for a few days and seeing my mom and Mayah, but being here really makes me sure that I want to be in Orange County, and that I am not interested in staying here for the whole summer, even though it would be easy and would save me money. I just don’t like being here and I think I would go crazy if I stayed here any longer than necessary.
I’m driving back to the OC tomorrow evening, and the 1st thing I will be doing when I get there is hitting the gym and blasting my arms!!! Tuesday I have a job interview, and I have another interview on Friday, so I am hoping to set something up on Wednesday or Thursday somewhere else as well. Other than that, I will just be working out like a madman and seeing my friends some. Finding a job has taken a lot longer, and been much more difficult than I had planned!!! But I am making positive steps, and I think that in a few weeks, I will be glad that I went through all of this and pulled myself out of my funk.
Mayah was really cute!!! She is such a good girl, and I am really proud of her! Laura is a weirdo, and we don’t get along anymore, but she has done an excellent job with Mayah, and she is a good mom. Mayah is so well behaved and well adjusted. So many kids these days are out of control and rude, but Mayah is not at all like that, and I owe Laura a huge debt of gratitude for keeping her in line despite her surroundings. Anyway, these next 2 to 3 weeks will be crucial times for me and my direction for the rest of the year, so good luck to me, and hopefully I can start working asap! GO LAKERS!!!!
